A day of sorrow is longer than a month of joy
It has been 30 months since the birth of my blog. I thought about it the other day and wondered how in the world did this last? I seldom ever have a hobby that grabs my attention for so long. They were more of impulses and sudden interests that lasted a few days or weeks, and that’s it. I always needed a change and I just moved on. However, why blogging? Why this blog?
Why did I keep this blog alive although it caused so many personal problems? Why did I keep it when I knew that I had some people hating me for having it and wondering when will I stop? I think the reason I kept it going is simply because the more someone told me to stop, then the more I wanted to continue with it. Some people couldn’t believe what I wrote about them. (I mean really, I got a personal blog, of course I am going to write about the people around me.) Some can’t even understand why I think the way I do. Some can’t even imagine me ever being like this in real life.
So why this long? Really? 30 months is a lot. I know a lot of famous bloggers have been doing this for years, and their blogs have been the only voice they can speak freely about their life, and … well … I think this blog was my retaliation to everything that I couldn’t say out loud. I couldn’t tell others what I really thought. It was my scapegoat from reality.
A lot of people ask me about the validity about what I have written too. Is it the truth? A million times I have to repeat this, I honestly don’t want to spend my time writing a fictional post and making it all colourful like other bloggers I know, because I have better things to do! Blog is a journal. This is my journal.
Do I ever regret making this blog? Yes. I am just sick of the daily emails from guys looking for porn and want my phone number.
Do I ever regret telling people I know about it? Yes. I am sick of people I know speaking to me about something that I KNOW I never told them about, and they just bring it into a conversation thinking I wouldn’t notice or that I mentioned it before to them and they want a way to “comment.”
Do I ever regret keeping this site for so long? Yes. The longer I kept it alive, the more history there was to read.
Will I ever stop? Someday.
I am just not happy with what I have done. This blog is/was the most impulsive decision that I have ever done, and it continued on for two reasons.
- I had to tell people off and I couldn’t do it anymore to their face or by email. I thought of it as their well deserved free publicity.
- There are so many things that bother me in the world, especially about being an Arab, and I wanted to know that I am not the only one with these thoughts.
I didn’t blog yesterday because I wanted to stop. I really did. I wanted to see how it was if I didn’t blog. Would it have made a difference to my daily life? Did I miss it? Will I ever miss it?
Time will only tell …
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Until then, the rebellion has to continue… for the sake of … ? me I guess …
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I never noticed that you hadn’t blogged yesterday but I wasn’t surfing the internet yesterday either so that’s why. If you went days without blogging I think people would notice.
People have noticed that they kept checking my blog 4 or 5 a day to see if I updated. Also, some people emailed me suggestions of topics they want me to write about. :lol: Aahh…
well then i guess we’ll see how it goes then…
After the glorious Sunday we had I was sure that you would be in a GREAT mood. You would have changed to blog template with lots of pinks and heart shapes. The added animated butterflies and unicorns shitting rainbows were going to be a nice touch as well – maybe Hello Kitty making out with a CareBear or something. Well, I guess it was a little much to hope for … rebel on my friend, rebel on!
It’s always nice to come and visit your site not that I find pleasure if you have had a bad day or not happy. It would feel different if there was no new updates or if your site were taken down. All in all your site rocks but only do what makes you happy. great song by the way.
Who would check THIS place 4-5 times a day? :think: They must be desperately bored… :lol:
It was cool to see you not post for a day. It’s nice to take a break every now and then. Being rebellious all the time can’t be healthy.
But don’t be afraid of your voice. That is one of the biggest problems right now, people are afraid to say what they feel. They fear ridicule of others too much and keep bottled up. Life is not a popularity contest, but what if it was? The only way to become popular is to be controversial. Whether you agree with what he did or not (cause some religions like him, some don’t) Jesus is without a doubt the most popular man to date. Even Athiests and Agnostics know about him.
Important Question Time…
Would you rather say something wrong and look like a fool, or say nothing and be right?
Over time ideas will change and feelings will change, it’s pure nature. We all have said/done something at one time that felt right, only to look back and go, “Why the hell did I say that?” or “Why did I do that?”. The answer to that is for life lessons, every decision you make can teach you something, you just have to look for them.
And sometimes impulsive decisions are the best to make. You never know how many people could be learning something from your decision.
@ Canucklehead’s template idea…
:lmao:
This is a great, if not one of the greatest ideas ever. The unicorns made me lol