My mom is planning to go to Lebanon with my sister and brother’s wife and daughter in mid June. However, the country is a chaos. My mom keeps saying, “oh it is ok.. this will end soon.” I am like, “aha.” You want to take the little crazy sister of mine to that horrible country. Go ahead.. you will be sorry!

Good thing I decided and I refuse to go. Lebanon is the biggest mess in history. That country is like 200km wide. Like from my city to Toronto and has more problems than 10 countries combined. See what happens when religion, politics, and power get mixed. They cause HAVOC!

Thank God I live in Canada cause I am sick of the wars in the middle east. All fighting for power and money instead of fighting against one common enemy!

Angry, Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?, Whatever!

I am watching the Food Network and they had this clip from a diner called the Squeeze Inn in Sacramento that serves extreme cheese burgers. LOOK at the cheese!

I donno if I would enjoy the meat at all with all that CHEDDAR CHEESE!

Here is a video of how it is made.

Recipes/Food

I was doing some research about historical articles or some facts about Palestine. I was checking out random sites, especially Wikipedia for some tid bits to talk about. I was surprised. I know Palestine (Filistine) is an ancient land that suffered wars, cultural European influences, etc. I know that. However, I keep reading a biased view that the people of Palestine are not native of the soil and of Indo-European decent. They were called the sea people and even ancient Egyptians were afraid of them. Ok, so let’s say we were European. Most of the original inhabits have migrated from Greece. Well duh, we were conquered by the Greeks for years! That’s where the name Filistine came from. However, we were also conquered afterwards by so many ruling powers such as Romans, Egyptians, Babylonians, Arabs, Turks, British, and now Israelis. It’s the land with multiple cultures. If you want to speak of true multiculturalism in the world, you have to point to one place on this earth, Palestine.

However, Arab/Turkish rule was the longest in that land in modern times. Can I say I can trace back my ancestors to be Greek? Not really. I can be more realistic and I can trace back my ancestors to original Arabs from the Arabian peninsula or Turkish. It is more logical, it is more of modern times where the inhabitants were last scene and owned the land. That’s how far I can go. People 3000 years ago didn’t stay in the same spot. Immigration is part of history. You can’t go back 3000 years ago and say that these people are still the same people. It’s so hard to keep track and make a logical conclusion of that.

We are Arabs. That’s it. Our modern language and religion is that of the Arabian people. We are Semitic. I don’t know why the world is trying to dig deep in history to try to disprove that and make us appear as the land didn’t belong to us, but really, aren’t we all humans? Didn’t we really originate from one place? Who cares if we are Semitic or Aryan. We are all humans in God’s eyes and all judged the same. It just happens that we the Palestinians were cursed since ancient times to always suffer due to the significance of our holy land and the never ending conquests. I think we need a brake. Seriously.

Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!

Six years ago, around this time I was hired for this job I am stuck to. It was great till about 5.5 years into it, then it went down hill. I couldn’t believe last year at this time that I was working at the place for 5 years. I was going insane and thought, “wow, I lasted this long?” Then my ex-boss read my blog post and took me out to celebrate me lasting 5 years. I think he just wanted me to not suffer anymore and stay for a bit longer.

I was thinking about my life, will I ever get married and last this long? I don’t think I can. Jeez. 6 years of anything is too much. I have this constant need for change. Last year 5 years of something was too much.. WAY too much. If something you have been doing for so long doesn’t give you the satisfaction to excel, then really, it becomes boring, unworthy, and lame. Life becomes meaningless cause of it.

Oh yah, I do suffer from ADHD and I have no patience. I always want to get things done quickly and move on to new things. I am hyper active! :spin:

Angry, Blah Blah, Ranting as usual!

I am completely lost. I really am. I don’t feel like my self anymore. I forgot who I am, and what I tried to pursue in life. I keep thinking that no, I want to shape up my destiny. I want to control it, but I can’t. I am just really depressed and very stressed out. It’s not just work, but life in general. I want a change and need a chance so badly and so quickly. I think it is just patience. I lost every ounce of it and it is making me depressed!

Ahh.. I am just going to sleep. I will go to work tomorrow and will say… TGIF! TIGF!!

Blah Blah, Depressed