Total Meltdown
I think the last post has confused the hell out of people. People messaged me, emailed me, sent me facebook messages, twittered a bucket full of messages to me and said, “DON’T GO! COME BACK!”
Honestly people, I needed a brake. A brake from reality and virtual hell.
I even had a discussion with my best friend Lisa who said that I shouldn’t distinguish real people that I know in person from people online. They are all people and they all care. That’s when I realized that three days not posting a single post has made me jittery and utterly lost.
The problem is that I don’t want to be one of those people that rely on their blog. If my blog had any value than I would be a full time blogger and this would be my life like so many others. However, I don’t want that. I feel that I have been living in virtual la la land called the internet for too long. Once reality hit me I freaked out. I totally freaked out. I think I did have a melt down. I needed to stop all the bull shit and end this. I honestly quit blogging. That was my intention. To slowly close down the site. I just wanted a transition period to make sure that I made the right decision.
Then I realized, that hell, LIFE is full of shit. Life is the biggest disappointment and none of us should ever be happy. That’s why we have turned to the virtual world because reality is fucking horrible. The problem is that I am crazy. Seriously. I am not normal and a bit of a psychiatric phenomenon. People take drugs to calm them selves down and make their brains think that life is ok, but I didn’t choose that path. Oh no. I refused to listen to The Man! I refused to be part of the experimental norm!
I learned in psychology class that there wouldn’t even be a psychology discipline if there were normal people. That’s why statisticians and psychologists came up with that term norm to separate people and put them in categories. You are either part of the norm or you are not. And what did I discover from learning how to draw a hill top on an X and Y chart? That NO ONE is part of the norm except those psychologists. They are the norm of people that define everyone else to be abnormal so they can earn over 100 bucks an hour and get millions of dollars in research money to define everyone else in the world as abnormal. That’s it. I discovered the evil manipulative money sucking plan of those two faced bastards all from a hill top chart. God I am a genius! I should get a distinguished medal of honour for it with my name engraved in 24 carat gold and diamond studs on it. That’s how much they owe me for their fucking money sucking time. It’s all business. They made people crazy so the business would bloom.
Damn it. It’s the best evil plan to make money off the depressed souls in the world. Geniuses! Everyone is depressed. No one is happy, and those who think they are are only kidden them selves. If people were happy, then there would be no wars, no crimes, no anger, no lying, no hateful words towards one another, and no BLOGS! The internet would be dead and there would be no entertainment values in it anymore.
You might think I am crazy, and I have to agree with you. I am not normal. I refuse to be normal and all through my life, people wanted me to be normal. I didn’t know what normal meant because I never met a person who was. Why?
BECAUSE WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS and EACH OF US has THEIR OWN STUPID BRAINS and PERSONALITIES!
Yep. Total meltdown people. Internet people, there you go. I am crazy. I admit it. And everyone else who says they are happy and they are normal and life is perfect is going to be shot by me. I will track you down. Just be careful. I will come to your door step, smack you silly with my $300 Coach Bag, and shoot your toes with a bee bee gun.
After reading this post, ask your self this my virtual friend, “why do I come to this site?” And then I will answer you with this, “Because you are fucking insano crazy too.”
Amen to that.
Anyways, I am going home. Fuck this shit hole that people call a job. I call it a life sucking torture chamber.
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How can you even define normal with so many realities present across different societies in the world?
Last night at the Taco Bell drive-thru they told me they aren’t allowed to put tomatoes on my nacho supreme. It was very disappointing. But you know what I did? I went home and chopped up my own tomatoes then ate while we watched Scrubs re-runs.
I love that show.
Why the hell they wouldn’t put tomatoes? Is it because of the disease that’s being spread because of the tomatoes. Subway didn’t have tomatoes for one day! Just one. I guess picking the tomatoes on that day only was different than any other!
Honestly I think they are setting us up with these disease scares. Getting us used to it. I’ve been a taco bell customer for years and never had an issue getting some tomatoes put on my nachos
Well, who said there’s any normal people out there? No one is normal, cuz “normal” doesn’t exist!
But I have to disagree with you on something, there are happy people out there, and they’re not kidding themselves. Not just because everyone has some problem, they should be labeled unhappy.
A lot of crazy people are happy. Just look at me in the summer, the happiest human existing on planet Earth!
But back to the topic, let me phrase it this way… “Its totally normal to be abnormal.”
Cheers! :lol:
Nobody is happy all the time and nobody is sad all the time either. As for normal there is a range of normal not just one normal type of person. It is the people that exhibit extreme behaviour that are abnormal. You know the ones that either starve themselves to death or over eat till they drop dead. Most people have periods in their life when they are depressed. If you haven’t experienced depression yet you haven’t lived long enough. Life is full of ups and downs and Mona you are just on the down end of things right now. Life will eventually get better even though it might not seem like it now. Just view your life as a roller coaster and enjoy the ride and scream. :spin: :whee:
Scream is definetly a good idea right now.
I read your blog because I like to know that there are people out there that express themselves like me. I dont think your crazy… Maybe you want us to think you are…. But your not.
Apart from that I do not know why i read your blog over others… Maybe its because ive read it so long that I feel we are sort of growing up with each other now (Damn i sound even more like a stalker now).
Why do you think you are a stalker? You are not.
:spin: What is normal these days? Sometimes I look at people in the subway or on the street corner and I know these people are deemed crazy by most in society..Then I think maybe they are normal and it’s the rest of us that are crazy.
I do know that the internet does take up a lot of time. Who the hell makes some serious money on the web. Me I have been blogging over a year and a half and I’ve only made about 2 grand personally for myself and I have about 200 bucks that I will be donating to good causes.
it just recently that it’s starting to get better. I think I am more normal in the summer, the winter is so depressing. Me I can’t say that I am always happy, I know my kids make me happy but the way this world is going does not make me happy.
I learned along time ago: don’t be a materialistic animal, only God can judge you, just do the best you can do each and every day. Live everyday like its your last because we are never promised tomorrow.
“Then I think maybe they are normal and it’s the rest of us that are crazy.”
I couldn’t have said it better my self!
Well, I think that if we don’t experience the wide range of emotions available to us, then we are not living life to the fullest. :whee:
Hmm, been a while since I was here… BUT! :O
Normality is bullshit, plain and simple (the same way music labeling has gotten amirite? like what is Progressive Melodic Bubblegum Pop ‘n B :bounce: ).
But glad you finally embraced insanity, it’s fun huh? :p: You’ve got a lot of work to do to surpass some of us nuts, but you have the potential.
Just remember to keep it under control. “With great power comes great responsibility.” – Uncle Ben
Normality was created by goverment psychologists (no shit), in a way to depress people. It is a lot easier to control someone who’s depressed than someone who knows the world around them. Hitler did it and the asshats behind NWO will use it too.
“Deviate From the Norm” by Scar Symmetry touches on this subject. Great band btw. Their new album is on their Myspace if your interested. /shameless plug
God, I’m so freakin’ anxious! Go look up some occult, conspiracies, and religious history, predictions, ancient tribes, a lot of metal albums this year have veen hit a couple nails on the head. The connections are astounding. Everything is falling in place as it should. Have faith and an open mind, and basic survival instincts wouldn’t hurt :think: . Everything else will unfold when ready, and may blow your mind.
Have fun! =D
brake = break
bee bee gun = BB gun
Lee Doyle = stalker
Spelling Nazi = Canucklehead
If you’re looking for an argument about whether or not you’re crazy – you’ve come to the wrong place. in closing, they’re fuckin’ tomatos – deal.
xoxoxoxo,
Canucklehead
Someone’s toes are itching for the Bee Beeeeeee GUN! haaaaa
I’m sorry about your meltdown sweetie, but I’m glad you’re back.