What is passion?
I ask my self this question every day, “what am I passionate about?” This life that I am living now, what do I want to do with it? I think most people made a set plan or found a thing that they find intriguing. For me, I don’t have a passion for anything anymore. I used to. I used to like a lot of things, and because I liked them, I got really good at them.
Now, at this time, at this hour, at this minute, at this second, I honestly have no idea what I am passionate about. Maybe it is because life so far has been horrible. It sucked every bit of enjoyment and reason to live out of me. I just wake up in the morning wondering if today is going to be any better. If this day is any worse, then I just become distant. I won’t say it again for the millionth time that I am hateful of this life of mine, but I want my life to just stop pulling me down and slapping me in the face. I really do. I am tired of it. I lost passion for life. How do you expect me to have passion for other things in life if I absolutely have no passion for the whole thing?
I am sitting here at work and I am actually doing work, and I think to my self, “why am I still doing this? Why am I still fixing and creating things that people don’t even appreciate?” I go home and think, “wow. I just wasted 8 hours of my life doing something that seems interesting, but no one cares about.”
I keep asking my self, “why why why!”
You can honestly assume that I lost every bit of passion. That’s why I question love. If I have no passion, how can I accept love or know what love is? I think the two are connected and need one another to bloom and continue living. Yet, I lost it. It died out of me. When I keep telling people that the way I am living thus far has sucked every bit of life out of me, then they tell me it is just a phase. A phase? What phase? Everyone is out there doing things they like or moved on with their life and I just sit here remorseful and hateful and wonder why. I hate what I have become. I can’t even describe what I am right now because I don’t know what happened to me and why. Maybe I am just a life less soul. It got to the point where I don’t even know or remember what I am doing. I keep thinking, well, I think I did this, or this is going to happen, but no, that’s not how life is. I think I have become delusional and unrealistic, which I wasn’t before, but the complete opposite of that.
Look at me. I spend my time writing. Writing… Do you think writing is my passion? Is that what I am destined to do in life?
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I know how you feel and I know for a fact that you are destined to be BIG in this life IF you don’t let the gloomy dark ideas take over that clever head of yours girl!! you know you are good!
Allah yikhaleeky. But you are right, I need to learn to get my self out of this dark cloud that is permeating over my head!
lack of interest
daily life routine
life-less
soul-less
congrats girl ! these all are syptoms of either u r a huge fan of ( anime ) or u r simply ( an emo-goth freak) lol .
nah girl, ya r fine, dont panic and dont start playing lame punk ‘n’ ska indee rock in yer mp3, all u have 2 do is 2 increase your zen
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zen = in simple english is to take life with its daily dosage with more ( spontaneous ) side.
dont be so damn straight about yer habbits or rules
break some and tweak some !
get 2 know more about the crazy you and the wild you.
begin by doing somthing new each and every day.
decrease the mount u spend writing and do more out door thingy
when i say out-door i dont mean ( just shopping ! )
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no , its not a phase nor a syndrom or a curse lol
its just that deep down inside each one of us there is many charecters
1) the inner child
2) the rebellious
3) the higher ego
4) believe it or not ( inner clown ! )
and the list keep goin !
feed your other self’s girl , do somthing stupid, or wild , try somthin new
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have ya seen the movie ( fight club ) ? the plot was like this :
the deeper u search inside humans , the less u wanna be one !
we are a creatures of chaos , anger , conflictuary passions , and some times double standards !
so the more u notice things bout humans the less u feel individual and that make ya feel less self secure and question everything
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celebrity’s advice :
1) mika says : relax take it easy
2) jack nicholson says : Goose-fraba ( anger managment)
and remeber that every body sings :
i cant get no …. satisfaction !
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por favor ! i said too much , anyway hang in there and im sure ( you ) will figuer out a way to boost up yer passion .
Wow Moe….. Thanks for the advice man. You either know a lot, or spent way too long researching and writing this, but I definetly appreciate it!
1) for future ref’s call me
meme ( yeah i like mariah carey …sue me ! im a fag for her !! )
or call me ( pikashou ) cuz dont get me wrong but dat cute yellow huggy zapper is the answer for oil prices
2) i dont mean 2 brag ! ( like u will fall for dat, lol ) but im a scientologist so ( i dont need 2 do no research cuz im a river of knowledge ) lol pretty humble !
3) the least i can do is 2 give an advice
after all i enjoy yer blogs
4) ahlan wa sahlan , ehna fel khedma ya oztaza !
Ahleen wa sahleen wa marhabteen. Sabt, wa a7d wa taneen! Tisalm ya zalameh!! Killak zoo2!!
Mona, I really believe that you only need one thing in YOUR. I think that all of this has one root cause with you.
You want to feel loved and needed. You need to love someone.
Its normal, and your wrong when you think everyone knows what they want to do with their lives…. Most dont at all! I know some people who are in their 50s and still have no idea what they want to do.
“Mona, I really believe that you only need one thing in YOUR. I think that all of this has one root cause with you.”
What the fuck does that mean?
Damn keyboard! The mouse keeps removing text and adding things that were meant to be in other places
sorry. ill retype it because I have forgot what it was meant to say now 
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Mona, I really believe that everything that is wrong with you has one root cause. And that is that you want to feel loves and needed.
I also think that your the type of person that needs to love someone.
Its normal, and your wrong when you think everyone knows what they want to do with their lives…. Most dont at all! I know some people who are in their 50s and still have no idea what they want to do.
loved* grrr
aah ok.. makes sense now.
finding something your passionate about doesnt necessiate meaning in your life. it means your simply not passionate. simply put.
because you will not have any loss. you are indeed finding yourself in ways that many cannot.
zen is good….zen makes repition a good thing. in zen you find peace through repttion. this doesnt work for everybody but good adivce mariah carey
buddha always said that letting go of passion is the key to living a solid life. without passions we are less likely to become emotionally attached less likely to do things we regret.
having no passion thus bequeaths that you have no fear, or love. but be cool
having no love or passion is your way of detaching yourself from what doesnt matter. find something that matters like your sis or your folks. find passion in doing the dishes for them; that is if you enjoy doing dishes. cus not many girls like the dishes, but you get it. find passion in playing in the snow or swinging on the swing set late at night while the moon hangs in the milky heavens.
maybe right now as you sit at work and drone away like another number in the system, think that without that number the whole system would fall…your importance is so severe that allah wanted you to work like this. your questioning the importance of this is your way of defining the meaning and magnitude of your whole existence.
“I hate what ive become.” :wtf:
im not some genius psychologist or anything, but you need to start loving what youve become….and like…NOW. when you perpetuate hate you become it. for example. i hate the color tan green. i now see it everywhere i look becuase i concentrated ALL of my internal hate towards it. when you focus on something then it overtakes your perception then it becomes you….i know im going on and on. but look
become what you love and love opens up all the doorways for you…see what you love taste and feel what you love and love perpetuates into the incalculable forever.
Maybe start out small. Maybe take a class like jazzersize or a dancing class. Or sign up for a community sports team like ultimate frisbee or softball. Start a hobby like jewelry-making and make your necklace or bracelet at the bead store. Maybe watch a movie or read a book at the cafe by yourself. Go once a week. You don’t have to be passionate about what you’re doing at first, you just have to enjoy it. If you find something that you enjoy doing, hopefully look forward to doing, it’ll start something. You only need one small light to chase away darkness.
Sorry, I don’t know what happened…Saba wrote that, not Brian (SORRY Brian!!!)