Life is starting to get interesting

A lot of people asked me, “what are my plans”? Meh. I don’t need a plan! I am tired of making plans and hoping for things to “happen.” I snapped last week. I really did. You can tell by what I have written last week that I was pretty much done for. It was either me, or the rest of the world to take control of me. So I snapped and decided that I have enough savings in my bank account, a need for an utterly long long long vacation, and to concentrate on my self instead of spending days wondering if I will ever get a perfect new job. Screw it. I DON’T want a job. I want my SANITY back!

I wanted to go back to who I was. To return to the old Mona who was the happy perky person that took life lightly and just lived it day by day. I didn’t worry or care. I just need time for my self and to reevaluate my self. Don’t we all? I am sorry, I know most people think of money and a life of luxury but I don’t. It doesn’t interest me. However, I was smart about money. I saved and saved because I was unsure what the future held.

Unfortunately, I was greedy the past year looking for a high paying job thinking I will be rich forever. What is better? Money or sanity? YOU tell me because I put my self in this black hole where money was always the problem until almost every sanity cell in my brain has vanished. I had one left last week, and it was the one that said, “I miss the rest of the sanity posse that were hanging out with me for all these years, bring them back or you are SCREWED!”

Some people are wondering what is nothing. How can I do nothing? Try it! Try to do nothing! I want to do nothing. I miss nothing. What is nothing? Nothing is this empty vast universe where you can spend your time thinking of nothing, doing nothing, and maybe, just maybe tomorrow something interesting and exciting might happen that you didn’t plan or think of because you spent your time doing NOTHING! (Man! That was one long run-on sentence.)

Anyways, 17 more days left of this shit hole I call work. I have NOTHING to do at work because I finished my projects, and I don’t feel guilty leaving anything hanging. Aren’t I considerate? I should get a bonus for being ever so THOUGHTFUL!

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