Rehab is calling my name

I tried time and time again to limit the peer pressure and the addiction to certain amounts of substances entering my body. I didn’t think that being socially accepted was such turmoil over my heath. Today, of all days, I felt a jack hammer continuously hit the frontal lobe of my brain with no mercy at all.

My brain today suffered, and so did my body. I couldn’t stop the pain in my head, and I spent the majority of the day in bed trying to relax and not think of the pain. Every time I tried to get up, I felt dizzy and my head heavy as a rock and I was about to fall. I didn’t know that the addiction has taken a new toll on my life. I never knew it would come to this.

Yes, you guessed it. I am addicted to coffee. I didn’t have a sip of coffee for about 24 hours, and this is what happened to me. Since it is Ramadan, and I am lazy and forgetful, I forgot to drink my cup of coffee in the morning. Few hours later, around 2 pm, my body lost control, and when it did, my brain kept screaming at me, WHY YOU DIDN’T HAVE YOUR CAFFEINE TODAY! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FUNCTION!

I stayed in bed till about 6:45 pm. Few minutes before breaking fast, and when I got up, I couldn’t sit down again without feeling I was about to collapse. I kept walking around in the kitchen and living room, and complaining to my mom that my head is about to explode any minute. I wanted to blame someone else other than me for this problem that I engraved in my head.

I despise coffee! It ruined my life!

Now, I am fully awake, but that’s because I drank 2 large mugs of coffee, and I took some Advil400 to get rid of the pain quickly. That’s far too much caffeine and drugs, but what I was supposed to do? It’s either that, or suffer from the pain.

My new objective in life is to stop drinking coffee, and force my brain to function without the need for any stimulants. Amen to that thought! Let’s see how long that will last before I SCREAM from the pain again.

Depressed, Whatever!