I am officially broke
Financially that is. Yesterday, I checked to see if I will get paid anything for the month of October like I am supposed to, and I will! $750 bucks is what I got for the first week of October. That’s it. No more pay cheques, and I am officially unemployed. It might sound bad, and I agree because the thought struck me with a baseball and made me think, “umm, I am poor now, and I have no steady income.”
I got used to having an income. I had a steady income for 6 years, and I decided to quit my job for various reasons, and the main one was my sanity. You can say that I retained my sanity, and I am a bit more normal now. I am still pissed at many issues in the world, but work drove me insane! Now, I keep thinking of where to get money to sustain my self. Well, I don’t have many bills. However, I do have the female itch of going to the mall every now and then. I don’t really like my parents giving me money, although they loved the idea of me quitting my job because it drove me insane, and my mom didn’t like my constant complaints and white hair.
Fortunately, I have a little bit of income. It’s not much, but it is something. This site. This blog of mine is my only source of income. You may think I am money hungry or trying to make money off writing, which I will not deny it, I am. I make money from the ads you click on, and I also make money writing product reviews. I think of it as really low income, but at least I can say that I am not 100% poor. I am not 100% broke. I am just trying to find a better way to make money without having to listen to the man and get a job. Maybe I just don’t want a boss, and want to be my own boss. Is that wrong?
Maybe someday I will end up getting a new job, but for now, I am trying to find my self. Trying to see what I can do with whatever talents I am meant to have. I wish people will understand that having a job is not everything in life. However, trying to be something in this life and challenging your self to work at it from scratch is a lot more rewarding. Maybe some day I will have a million visitors a month, and a steady blog income. I will hopefully get to write as much as I want whenever I want. Also, one of my ambitions is to write a book or be published for the world to read. You may think that having a blog is good publicity, but I want my name to be known. I think I have this major itch that I need to do something recognizable in this life time and live my life knowing that I didn’t waste my talents.
I wish I had all the drive and energy that I can possibly possess to one day make my dreams come true.
Good Luck!
Hehe, try this… Being new to a city where you don’t speak the language… Don’t really know anyone for more than 2 or 3 weeks… and having about 15 dollars to live with for the next 2 weeks… (and that does include daily busrides to university, and no there is no way to cheat the system).
It was really scary. But I found a job today and I got to work immediately. Will make 12 hour shifts in the next 2 days, but they pay cash so my ass is completely saved! Great feeling haha.
Man, when will I learn to become more responsible. Every time some crisis situation like this happens, I save myself somehow at the last possible moment… instead of crashing and burning.
Anyway… Nice read! Good luck with finding some source of income you can enjoy
sorry to hear about what happened, but like you said, having a job is not everything in this world. Welcome to the e-bums world! Just like you I am no longer employed, or should I say I am self-employed. It’s really hard when you have a demanding bosses.
I guess now at least you can try to make the most out of your writing abilities, either offline or online, I know your writing can make you a fortune. I’ve been dropping by this site and have been reading through your posts for such a long time now, and I can say that you have so much to share that a single book would not be enough. So don’t lose hope for as long as you’re alive, anything is possible.
@Alex – thanks for the support. I feel honoured that you like my blog and my writing!
I am sure you will write an excellent book and I will probably be one of the first to buy it when it comes out at Chapters.
I totally understand. I left my steady job for the same reasons. This is a learning experience and you will go out better on the side.
I love your blog, by the way.
alicia
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Good luck, hope it all works out and you get to do what you want to do.
Here via Entrecard, I clicked a few of your Google ads too
if you stay like this you will never get a job
I am pretty sure you will get whatever it is your aiming for, and on a seperate note i love your blog you adress so many issues it’s fantastic, I am a constant visitor. And as a person who has just enetered the blog world 2 months ago I say your blog is the most interesting so far along with “7aki fadi”..
I can truly understand you. I was in the same situation, the job drove me nuts and I haven’t been myself anymore until I realized the job isn’t everything. I quit, and it was a really hard time. Slowly it’s getting better also if till now I haven’t fully “found myself”. But there are things in life which are taking a while, and things which take a while become best, or?!
Just relax and take your time, don’t think too much. It’s great you are having supportive parents who aren’t unhappy about your decision, this makes everything a whole lot easier I think. And I don’t mean about the money.
Maybe one day you will publish your book and it becomes a bestseller, maybe you are getting employed soon, nobody knows. Just keep in mind to not give up yourself!
(I am telling all this myself every day, LOL
Good luck and Take care.
I have finished university recently, so there is a lot of focus on ‘getting a job’. But I started to write online, managed to pick up a few freelance jobs and paid blog posts, but you are right – there is so much more to having a job. If you are not in desperate need of the money to pay the bills then I think it is a blessing to have the time to learn about yourself, which is what I am trying to do too when I do have that time. Good luck!
You described the similar thing I want… I believe in making your own dreams come true.
Hugs and kisses.
G’day,
Have you tried filling in some time as a volunteer? I think you’d be very encouraging and motivating if you volunteered with some refugee or women immigrant groups? They always need someone who’s bilingual and multi-cultured
As for money/employment – why don’t you do some light work, like in the retail business, just to get some coinage in your pocket!
Good Luck! as we Arabs say – elarzaq bi yed allah (Sustenance is blessed by God)
It’s great that your parents are so supportive. Mine are always telling me to go ask for a raise. My aunt also tells me to ask for a raise so I can buy her a vacation. Hah family can be strange sometimes.