Half the day

I found your blog by accident about a month ago and I always check in once in a while to see how Mona is doing. I totally understand what you’re going through with the no job and just sitting at home sleeping, eating, and watching TV all day. I feel like life in passing me by and I’m just waiting for that one call that can change it (give me a job!). My mom is different she thinks every time I get an interview that I got the job only to realize a week later they didn’t call and blaming the world and my dad could care less if I do anything at all.

You’re not quite your nemesis yet, don’t you have to lie about your status and your kids and talk about other peoples kids before you become your nemesis?

Well what can you do, the weather really sucks.

dont ya just love it?

what a beautiful photo!

Hey Mona – Just came across your blog by chance…

It’s cool, I’ve always to build something like this, and think that it would be cool to “share my thoughts” with the world and have my place (on the net) to babble on and on! But, once you’ve finally set up a site, it’s a chore to keep it up and find the content to put on it too! HAHA… maybe I am more lazy than you are!

I kinda understand what you’re saying as well in your post today. Although I am not without a job, but I feel like I don’t know what I am doing anymore. I don’t know what I want (well, I do, but I don’t know if I can make it through, and what if I failed in between? I don’t know what I can/would do about the 1/2 finished, 1/2 unrealizable goal)…

And, I don’t know where my life is going! I mean, the job is alright, I can pursue higher education if I want, my family is cool and we’re not a burden to each other… so the one important piece that’s really tearing me up is love!

Like you – I’ve had it, seen it, felt it, have been shredded into pieces by it… I’ve been very idealistic but I am now really starting to wonder perhaps I’ve been wrong all these years and that my views (on love) and just too unrealistic and completely out of line with the average world out there and so, maybe I really shouldn’t believe in it!?? I think I would have a hard time coping with that – not believing in love, but my experiences and my reality have all proved me wrong in my old belief… Have you seen “Vicky Cristina Barcelona”? Have you also seen “He’s Just Not Into You”? I don’t know… watching those movies made me think, but I still don’t have any conclusion and I am starting to get sick of thinking about it going in circles…

So depressing, eh?

But the thing I know is that I don’t like seeing time passing by and I am not doing anything about it, and I am not getting any younger (we’re about the same age, I was born in Nov/81)… the best thing that we can do for ourselves is to try to live each day to the fullest potential.. this way, when we look back, at least we can say to ourselves that we tried our best and let’s let luck do its part (and pray that something good will come out in the end).

I am going to volunteer at the hospital – well, I will officially submit my application and ask my supervisors to be my reference, etc. At least that’s a start, right? At least I won’t be wasting my time sitting around doing nothing meaningful, and some people in need can benefit from what I can provide to them. I’ve been thinking about volunteering awhile and have been giving myself TONS of excuses! But, I think it’s enough now… I’ve wasted enough of my time sulking…!

Take care!

i guess if i was not working at this time i was doing the same u do stay at home all time

Add some fresh chips and salsa to that equation… and some Swedish Fish, and maybe some ice cold Root Beer or Hawaiian Punch… and then throw in every season of NBC’s “The Office”. That would be my kind of day if I stayed at home all week!!! *sigh* I’m jealous.

Is that really you, on the couch… have to become a couch potato?

Btw, who took the pic

Well you�re not lazy enough yet you are still posting everyday to your blog. As for sleeping a lot I like to think you are catching up on all the sleep you have missed over the years due to insomnia and worries.

You know – acceptance is the first step to recovery…

Namaste,
A. Caleb Hartley

I don’t do much all day either. I spend a lot of time focusing on not feeling bad about the rest of the time which I waste.

C’mon, dont be so pathetic, you are more than that. And forget your audience for once…
kindest
hans