A baby could have been born now
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Nine months have passed, and I feel like I have been slowly collecting dust. Seriously, I blame my self for all this, because I chose this path of waiting. But what am I waiting for? I ask my self that every single day. What the heck am I waiting for? And why? What can I really do with my life?
Recruiters have been calling me, but they don’t leave me a message, so I don’t answer them. I don’t care if they have called me over 10 times, I don’t want to waste my time to be a potential candidate to a job I didn’t apply for, and I only have half the skills anyways they are looking for.
I have not been applying for jobs for over a month. I don’t care anymore. I am careless Mona. Money? Who needs money? Money is to be earned if you have a life to look forward to and responsibilities. Like a house to take care of, kids to feed, vacations to plan, or a glamorous life to want to live.
Interviews I had over a month and a half ago, the HR have not called back yet. So polite of them and so considerate, so HR like. They ask you stupid questions that make no sense, but don’t do the simple job they were hired for of replying back.
So why am I complaining? Meh… I had nothing to talk about in the beginning of the month. I can’t believe it is June already. I wonder what this month will bring in thoughts and ideas to write about? I think in the end I have horrible luck. I got used to it. I have calculated everything, and no way my life can get any worse. So I can only look forward to something just a tad bit better in the future. No? I know, I am kidden my self. It will all go down hill from here unless I see a “sign” that tells me, “Mona. Wake up! Wake up! You are slowly losing your self and what you really wanted from life. Why did you forget it all? How did that happen and why?”
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Maybe I will read this post again in a year and see if that “sign” ever came.
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Just keep in mind that conception is a lot easier (and more fun) than delivery…
@Dwacon
hahhaa.. very funny!
thanks.. you made me smile!
hey habibti, it’s ok not to always know what you want or be at a stage where everything is smooth sailing. Just don’t put yourself down so much, and think that it’s all doom and gloom. Plus, you don’t have to do things for responsibilities/duties sake, try out something for yourself. Like an arts or a guitar class, or whatever that you always wanted to try but felt you couldn’t/shouldn’t (like because you are girl lol). Something to look forward to and get out of the house. I think it’s being at home all the time that can get to us sometimes, been there done that. Hope you feel better soon, ya helwa. You have quite a big fan base, who only want to see you succeed and be happy. Who cares about the ill wishers.
P.S. There are always ideas in a rebellious girl’s head
@JouJou
I got lots and lots of ideas.. Sometimes, they disappear and I have to work hard to bring them back!