Unfortunately, becoming a stingy old Mona was not on my agenda of life pursuits. However, bad constantly rainy weather can really change your perception of things. I always knew that I have changed and I am becoming worse. I have changed completely from the person I was a year ago, or even 6 months ago. I became my nemesis when it came to money and a person I hate. Why? Well, the unemployment thing, yada yada yada. We don’t want to hear that over and over. I am getting migraines from writing about it.
I am the type of person that does not say no to anyone when it comes to buying them something if they asked me. I am way too nice and I don’t ever say no to anyone. Yet, today I uncontrollably started screaming at my sister when she asked me to buy her some stupid black pens and ink for the printer. With her, arguing back is like a breath of fresh air. However, why was I arguing back because she wanted pens and ink for the printer?
Scrooge McMona: “You want pens and ink for the printer? I don’t need those pens or use a printer. Give me money! I don’t have any!”
Little Brat: “Yeah right. You are full of money. What are you talking about?”
Scrooge McMona: “Doesn’t mean I have to spend on you. You got money and all you do is waste it on brand name clothes that you don’t need other than showing off!”
Little Brat: “Why are you being mean? It’s just pens and ink for the printer.”
Scrooge McMona: “I am not BUYING YOU ANYTHING!”
Little Brat: “Then why did you ask if I wanted anything?”
The argument didn’t end as we were walking downstairs. My mom heard it and she gave me money to buy her pens. I was not willing to take more cash from my mom to pay for ink from the mall. There were other places that are cheaper. I took the money and left the house. When I was at the mall looking at cute things that I like, I kept thinking a 1000 times if I should buy it or not. I just feel that it is wrong to spend anymore over things that I like. I don’t know how worse the future will get. That’s how messed up my thought process and view of life has become. So pessimistic.
Later, when I got the pens and purchased them, I felt guilty. It wasn’t that I felt guilty that I took money from my mom, I bought other stuff from my own money for the house, so it wasn’t a big deal. However, I felt bad that I stooped that low to argue about money with a little mischievous high maintenance teenager. Therefore, I did what I had to do when I got back home. I ate some ice cream that I bought, screamed at my sister some more because she is a brat, and all that guilt got out of my system.
Umm, forbidden ice cream. Sacralicious!
Now I am content and don’t feel guilty. I may actually survive a couple of years like this without a job and being mean to everyone. Oh, the evilness from within. All coming out of me now!
*Dancing* I am evil Mona! I am evil Mona!
Yes, this post has far too many references to cartoon characters. That’s how a child at heart I am. I know you will say Awww!! But you won’t be saying that when I eat your fudge!