I have not written a post in a long time telling people what is going on in my life. I seem to have gone off to a different tangent and started a community blog to ask questions. It’s ok! I enjoy discussing society issues. It effects me as much as it effects any one of you in a way. However, I want to talk about events going on in my ever so boring life as well. It’s good to look back at it in the distant future. Because we all know, that everything written here will be forever stored in the Google search engine database. Or maybe the CIA database or some world secret agency that Dan Brown discussed in his books! I know you ARE WATCHING!
This reminded me of a time I wrote a post talking about space and if people really did land on the moon in 1969. Within minutes, I got a guy that works at Apollo who tried to prove me wrong in the comments area. And oh yah!! The IP address was that of a government agency. My advice for future blog writers or newbies, YOU ARE BEING WATCHED!
My Ever So Mundane Life
Well, my daily schedule has been more than mundane. I wake up in the morning, check my emails, check more emails, and reply to emails. Sometimes I write down various thoughts on my notebook that is sitting infront of my monitor which has been collecting dust for the past month. Today, I came up with many new thoughts, and explored so many online options, but then kaboom!!! Brain dead! You try fasting all day and having no caffeine in your system. By the time it is 12:00 pm, I am dead tired and want to do nothing. So waking up late is not an option for a person like me who wants to do something.
Anyways, so yeah. My blog has been doing better, but not financially better. I need sponsors or more people willing to advertise. You try being unemployed for such a long time like me. I am trying, but I wish I had more will power to start what I was supposed to start over 6 weeks ago! I am so lazy and unmotivated. I know what the problem is though. Every time I go to a job interview, I bring my hopes up that maybe this is it. This is it and I will stop trying to figure out ways to make money and settle down in a job! However, we all know my luck.
MunMun has been bestowed with bad luck in this life. I doubt it will ever change!
You know what pisses me off now? I don’t care anymore if a company rejects me and hired someone else that they think is better at sucking up and memorizing useless information. My problem is that most companies don’t reply back. It’s like they expect you to get the hint. I don’t understand why they hire human resources and make you sit in a room with 2 or 3 executives and a human resource representative. What’s their job? Can’t they take time out of their ever so busy schedule and tell you, “We didn’t want you. Take a hike to the next company!”
I am also getting psychologically frustrated every time I go to an interview, and I cannot think for the life of me. I keep getting worse and worse, and no longer know what to say or what I want.
A lot of things piss me off in this world, and they make me question the whole entire work structure. Who is in power? Who can get a job? Why they got it? How much of a suck up a person must be? How many questions can a person answer on the top of their heads with complete strangers around them in a small room wondering if what is answered is what these people wanted to hear?
Enough ranting! Work makes me depressed. Life makes me depressed. I want to scream every day, but I don’t have the energy for it. I don’t want to work at home or even sit in my blog office anymore. I am sick of it. I am sick of wondering what is the point of having several years of work experience and a University degree if you cannot make any future use out of them.
I think my problem is, and I know what it is, that I am not a suck up or try to sugar coat everything I say. I can’t. It’s not me. So, right now, at this moment, without further ado, I am toast! I will never ever get a job ever again!
I am just waiting for Ramadan to be over this weekend and go back to 4 or 5 cups of coffee through out the day, and thinking of executing that plan I have written on pages and pages in the ugly 3 subject red coloured spiral notebook. Gathering software requirements kicks ass. It’s the only thing that I aced with flying colours. Implementation will be the challenge. Maybe I should take up drinking. Drinking soda again that is!