Mundane is the name
I have not written a post in a long time telling people what is going on in my life. I seem to have gone off to a different tangent and started a community blog to ask questions. It’s ok! I enjoy discussing society issues. It effects me as much as it effects any one of you in a way. However, I want to talk about events going on in my ever so boring life as well. It’s good to look back at it in the distant future. Because we all know, that everything written here will be forever stored in the Google search engine database. Or maybe the CIA database or some world secret agency that Dan Brown discussed in his books! 
I know you ARE WATCHING!
This reminded me of a time I wrote a post talking about space and if people really did land on the moon in 1969. Within minutes, I got a guy that works at Apollo who tried to prove me wrong in the comments area. And oh yah!! The IP address was that of a government agency. My advice for future blog writers or newbies, YOU ARE BEING WATCHED!
My Ever So Mundane Life
Well, my daily schedule has been more than mundane. I wake up in the morning, check my emails, check more emails, and reply to emails. Sometimes I write down various thoughts on my notebook that is sitting infront of my monitor which has been collecting dust for the past month. Today, I came up with many new thoughts, and explored so many online options, but then kaboom!!! Brain dead! You try fasting all day and having no caffeine in your system. By the time it is 12:00 pm, I am dead tired and want to do nothing. So waking up late is not an option for a person like me who wants to do something.
Anyways, so yeah. My blog has been doing better, but not financially better. I need sponsors or more people willing to advertise. You try being unemployed for such a long time like me. I am trying, but I wish I had more will power to start what I was supposed to start over 6 weeks ago! I am so lazy and unmotivated. I know what the problem is though. Every time I go to a job interview, I bring my hopes up that maybe this is it. This is it and I will stop trying to figure out ways to make money and settle down in a job! However, we all know my luck.
MunMun has been bestowed with bad luck in this life. I doubt it will ever change!
You know what pisses me off now? I don’t care anymore if a company rejects me and hired someone else that they think is better at sucking up and memorizing useless information. My problem is that most companies don’t reply back. It’s like they expect you to get the hint. I don’t understand why they hire human resources and make you sit in a room with 2 or 3 executives and a human resource representative. What’s their job? Can’t they take time out of their ever so busy schedule and tell you, “We didn’t want you. Take a hike to the next company!”
I am also getting psychologically frustrated every time I go to an interview, and I cannot think for the life of me. I keep getting worse and worse, and no longer know what to say or what I want.
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A lot of things piss me off in this world, and they make me question the whole entire work structure. Who is in power? Who can get a job? Why they got it? How much of a suck up a person must be? How many questions can a person answer on the top of their heads with complete strangers around them in a small room wondering if what is answered is what these people wanted to hear?
Enough ranting! Work makes me depressed. Life makes me depressed. I want to scream every day, but I don’t have the energy for it. I don’t want to work at home or even sit in my blog office anymore. I am sick of it. I am sick of wondering what is the point of having several years of work experience and a University degree if you cannot make any future use out of them.
I think my problem is, and I know what it is, that I am not a suck up or try to sugar coat everything I say. I can’t. It’s not me. So, right now, at this moment, without further ado, I am toast! I will never ever get a job ever again!
I am just waiting for Ramadan to be over this weekend and go back to 4 or 5 cups of coffee through out the day, and thinking of executing that plan I have written on pages and pages in the ugly 3 subject red coloured spiral notebook. Gathering software requirements kicks ass. It’s the only thing that I aced with flying colours. Implementation will be the challenge. Maybe I should take up drinking. Drinking soda again that is! 
Blah Blah, Confused, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!
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Dont start drinking soda, tea and coffee much better
Soda gives you a sugar-kick for a short moment, afterwards you feel even more depressed than before.
@maarten
I have not drank soda in months. But months ago I used to be more upbeat and a happy camper!
oh and before i go to sleep: the british control the world secretly. They have been involved in every war. All modern conflicts started with the british causing them (palestine, india-pakistan, african countries, Iran, Iraq etc.) The USA is still secretly a british colony, the declaration of independence in 1776 was just to give the americans a feeling of self-importance.
To prevent the world from rising up, they make it seem as if their leaders are incompetent and corrupt, make the best humour ever so that people think of the british as funny intead of powerful, and make gorgeous nature documentaries by Sir David Attenborough to distract intelligent people.
I say, why bother to resist, hail Brittania!
@maarten
You are seriously weird my friend. God help you! lool
Hang in there, Mona. Keep trying, execute your plan and definately stick to coffee. You can’t know what’s on the other side of a door unless you open it and step through.
Don’t lose hope Mona, you’re still young and you have a lot of talent, I know you will find a job soon. In the meantime, have you ever thought of just getting a part time job somewhere to earn some extra money and keep you busy. I think it might help you get out of this little depression you’ve been going through.
Like the sixth commentator said, get a part time job. You dont want to have a gap on your CV…it looks bad.
Job interviews are about managing expectations, yours and your interviewers and since you seem not willing to play the game, I suggest you save everybody the aggravations and stop going to interviews.
My advise is go out on your own (not knowing what your grand plan is), start your own web design company or whatever you like to do or do best.
You need to be in control to be happy, just go for it
@mac
yep! That’s true.. thanks!
@Desert Shark
I can’t even get a part time job. You know how many people are unemployed in Canada? I think I am competing against the herd of people who want any job!
@mohamed
So if I have a gap in my CV, I am any different then the 45,000 Unemployed Canadians? The economy is bad. Think about it people and stop thinking that the world is a splendid place where everyone can get an opportunity.
I suggest that you understand my life’s situation first instead of coming up with such suggestions. I live in a house where no one is employed! I need a job because I have to get a job because there is no income! I can save people the trouble yes of interviewing me, but I can’t save my family in a few months when there is no food or a roof over our heads!
As for a web design company. EVERYONE has a web design company now a days. It’s not innovative anymore or a way to earn a steady income.
@Randy Nichols
No I don’t blog exchange. I don’t even have a blog roll exchange link or any links. Everything is paid advertisements.
@maarten
Interesting! You think the M15 is controlling the world affairs?
@Mona
Mona…since you have a nice degree have you ever tried to apply for a job in places like saudi, UAE or Qatar?
@Abdullah
I am an Arab girl. I am not allowed to live alone or think about it. Have you ever thought of that? Why the hell do you think I am stuck in this God forsaken city?
@Mona
And I thought have come up with a brilliant idea….
@Abdullah
Like usual, you didn’t.
@Abdullah
STOP GOING OFF TOPIC!
@Mona
Don’t worry…I’ll come up with very soon
@Abdullah
If you go off topic one more time, I am blocking you from commenting on my site ever again. OK?
That’s a warning to everyone else!
@Mona
ok…I’m trying very hard to keep myself within the boundaries! Sorry for that. NO MORE nonsense!
@Mona
Seriously?
@Abdullah
Yes. You think I am joking? I already deleted some of your comments. Next step is to remove your privileges from commenting all together. Either stick to the topic or don’t comment at all!
@Mona
Alright I’ll try not to comment anymore….that’ll reduce the chances of me going off-topic. At least I won’t be banned!
maybe you need to stop thinking too much about your online projects and focus more on getting a job! Get any job anything! Try retail or anything else. There is no shame in doing any job! Think about it as a temp phase till you get what you want.
@imad
I am Palestinian. I am Arab. I come from a very messed up family of thinking. You think my father will allow his educated daughter to work in a mall or anything not related to what she studied? You people need to seriously stop thinking that life is simple and I have it all. I got nothing. I am this person who can only pray to God to help her!
You ever thought of becoming a linguist?
@Jason
No. I am fluent in English reading, writing, and verbal communication. In Arabic, I am fluent in speaking, not reading or writing 100%!
What did you study in school? Who you work in the states?
Would you…is what I ment to type…
@Jason
I am not going to answer you because everything is written in the About Me page, and so many comments saying that I have to work in this city of mine.
argh…so know how ya feel, i went from production assistant building stages for disney and universal to scooping yogurt, talk about a crap deal, other than the fact i get free yogurt and cookies
cant wait to get my degree then im outta America and in the middle east forever!!!
@maarten
The British don’t control the world. They are a proxy. The men behind the curtain are the money men. Bankers.
@Brian
Dude.. that TOTALLY sucks. I pray for you man.. Good luck in the Middle East.
@mona
Project Management. Take a course. Get certified. MANAGE teams of web developers. Take your skill set further up the ladder where there are less people and you may have a better chance. Also, I would think an employer would see someone using unemployment and recession to take new courses to be a huge plus.
Oh.. and I know you will hate it when I say this but I think perhaps the reason you fail in the interviews is because you are a strong Arab woman. White people can’t handle that.
@Mona
I sympathize with your family’s predicament, I know what it means not having a steady job, I have been there for a short period. However, I commented on what was written in your blog. Obviously you do not like interviews and you do not prepare for them and I quote you “I think my problem is, and I know what it is, that I am not a suck up or try to sugar coat everything I say. I can’t. It’s not me. So, right now, at this moment, without further ado, I am toast! I will never ever get a job ever again!” and you are right with this attitude you will never get a job, the question that you can only answer is do you really want a job and if the answer is yes what are you going to do about it. Are you going to bite the bullet so to speak and do whatever it takes to pass the interview and get a job. The other alternative is you develop your own business. You are a resourceful and bright woman I am sure you can implement whatever you had in your spiral colored book. Ranting and apathy will not resolve any issues.
I wish you luck in whatever endeavor you think will resolve your issues.