Something is missing
For the past year, I have been complaining all day long with my unemployment status, and I put it the first and only thing on my list. Thankfully, I have been employed now for almost 4 weeks, and I couldn’t be happier. However, what do I long for or complain about now?
It’s not that I don’t long for anything, but sometimes I feel that I am bored out of my mind, and other times too exhausted to think. The exhaustion I can get used to by getting fully accustomed to my job. I am just working extra hard, because they hired me to get a huge project done ASAP. Like coding and testing an entire application by end of December! Argh! I am working with someone else, so it is not as bad as it seems. However, there is a minor learning curve I have to master quickly while I am working. That’s what is exhausting me, and I know the exhaustion will diminish over time.
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Therefore, exhaustion is just a temporary thing. We all established that thus far. So, what is making be bored to death when I am at home? I try to waste my hours by cleaning, cooking, reading books, etc, but I don’t feel satisfied enough. I just don’t have anything or anyone to complain about! I can’t complain about the unfairness of the work place like my previous job. Also, I can’t even complain about the people at work, because no one is obnoxious, selfish, and a show off like my previous job. I got hired into a nice place with nice and sweet people!
Does that mean I am nice and sweet? 
I didn’t think so either. They know nothing yet! Let’s keep it that way! 
Anyways, I need to figure out now what I want from life. Something new I need to look forward to so I won’t be bored. The more tedious and worrisome it is, the better. And no, you and you, and even you don’t even say it! I don’t want to get married! I don’t want to search for someone! Let them find me! I am just tired of looking. Well, I have not been looking lately, because the more I tried to look, the more I felt I was desperate for marriage. However, I believe that I am more desperate for someone to just like me for being me. Let marriage come way later, but that first step, love and understanding, is what I am really looking for.
I think I am dreaming here because no way will a guy (Arab guy), ever waste his time understanding someone else. Especially someone my age who is as complicated as hell in her thinking. But you know what, maybe it is better that way. Sera Sera. Whatever will be, will be.
Until then, I will find something else to complain about.
My deep thoughts are still leaning towards creating something big on the net. I don’t know if I want it as another blog, or something more of a community. We will see how I feel about coding on weekends from now on, and if it is something I am willing to do anytime soon. Maybe I just need a new hobby. Like collecting stamps or applying to be a contestant on Jeopardy! (Addict to the show by the way!) Hehehe.
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Yeah controversy makes life tantalizing. SO maybe instead of looking for something to complain about, create something to complain about. You do it perfectly well on your blog, hahah, I’m such a turd, but seriously work out for a bit then feel those achy muscles and find a cool guy to complain to at work. “Yah so I was working out my glutes and gosh do they sting when I stand up.” So you can do something positive and still find meticulous things to jibber jabber over.
Mona..You said everything..simply, You are describing me (with some differences of course). What everyone wants from life is continuous and genuine happiness, and stability of course, but nobody knows how or when.
P.S: I want to complain about the reCAPTCHA as I don’t like it
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For some reason this reminds me of “Where the Wild Things Are.” We always have this need for something, something to make us happy or happier.
I am just working extra hard, because they hired me to get a huge project done ASAP. Like coding and testing an entire application by end of December!
That happened to me too! It was the first big company I worked for! They had gone through 3 C++ Windows programmers before me, and the project was already overdue on the day I started! And they didn’t even bother to tell me that until after I took the job! But you know what? That was the easiest job I ever had, once I got caught up. Whoever they hired and fired before me must have been totally incompetent not to be able to handle the work.
I can’t complain about the unfairness of the work place like my previous job. Also, I can’t even complain about the people at work, because no one is obnoxious, selfish, and a show off like my previous job.
That also happened to me! Same job I was just talking about! They were paying me double what I’d been making, I had great benefits, stock options, nice co-workers, nice work environment, easy hours… after a few weeks I was driving home and realized I wasn’t happy with the job! I was like “WTF!?”. I guess on some level I liked working 60 – 80 hours a week, and still never being able to get everything done! And doing projects myself that should have had several people working on them. And most of all, I think I liked having weird, eccentric and argumentative co-workers.
Anyways, I need to figure out now what I want from life. Something new I need to look forward to so I won’t be bored. The more tedious and worrisome it is, the better.
I think you have to start helping people. That’s all that’s left to do when you run out of criticism and anger, right? And no, I’m not trying to be smart-assy. I can really relate to what you are saying in this blog post, Mona
If you show me how to write rebellious arab girl in arab letters i’ll make something for you that might cheer you up.
Why are you need ing to complain about something, common just take it easy and be thankful that you got everything in your job as you liked and wished, If you are bored for what you are doing in your life then try to do something new for you or something you wished to do before but you couldn’t. Hope Life always be good to you
It sounds like your life is faring well enough to leave time, space and energy to complain about rather mundane things. I know that we often want what we don’t have and that the grass is greener on the other side and all that b*llocks but you seemed to have a rather charmed life. Finding a balance and being grateful is the key (easier sad than done). O, and staying positive; there might be that amazing (Arab) guy out there just fit for you
How about make us a nice forum to all chit chat on??
I kinda know how you feel, I always want something, even if I get it I am not satisfied, there is always something more I want. I think the biggest hinder to be satisfied is my mind. I have high expectations of me and my life and I am not willing to give up.
I sometimes think you are an arab ahead of the arabs time, someone has got to start
Thumbs up, I like it, keep going.
@Brian
Hahaha.. I like your idea.. but I don’t know if I have time to create something to complain about. I think I will eventually!
@Moody
The Captcha I hate too with a passion! However, I hate spam more! It keeps my site protected!
@Craig
I like the helping people part. I think it is something I need to work on more on this blog. A lot of people ask me for help or tips, and I think I should start working on that!
@maarten
I am not interested.
@Ahmad Hamdan
Hello!!! Everyone who visits my blog knows I complain about something! If I don’t, my blog would be so boring. Life would be boring too..
@Mahsa
Hmm.. I don’t want to maintain a forum.. I did long ago, and it is a tedious job. What would be the forum about anyways? Most people treat my blog like a forum anyways.