After 4 years of complaining and releasing all that built up anger on this blog, I discovered that it was all in my head. In reality, I am not like this. I swear to God, I am no where close to what I write on here. I write here the afterthoughts that resulted in anger from the life that I am living, and from the people I interact with every day.
In reality, I will ignore you. If you did something that I did not like, or I feel that things need to end so no one will get hurt, then I will just ignore you. That’s how I solve the problems, instead of being hated as a person for the things that I say. I hate hurting people, because people have hurted me enough in the past by the stupid things they did or said.
I don’t like talking to you about a deep personal problem. I don’t like to tell you there is a problem, because then people think I whine or complain too much. Hence, I made this blog instead. Why risk it in real life? This is just a blog.
I don’t like talking about people behind their backs, because honestly, I don’t gain anything that way. I don’t like to spread crap about people. That’s horrible and hurtful. I am not like that.
Why am I mentioning all this?
You see, I discovered all this lately, and if you have been reading my Twitters @rebelliousgirl and blog, then you would have noticed my utter dissatisfaction with some people. I then realized why so many people over the past 4 years kept telling me, “You are not rebellious.” I agree, I am not rebellious in the sense that you are thinking. I am rebellious in speaking out about problems and ideas that affect a generation of people. That’s why I kept up the name Rebellious.
However, in real life, I am too quiet, super nice, very respectful to others, and a child at heart. That’s really me, and that’s why I get treated like I am nothing. It’s ok, one day, and I repeatedly keep telling my self this, one day I will show them. I will show the entire world that I am just a cub that has not fully grown yet to be a lion. It’s funny saying that at my age, but really, it takes time to reach your real goals.
I kept mentioning this to everyone: that if you try to be something big so fast, you will fall. You will fall faster than the way you went up. When I see you down there, I will just look at you and not say a thing.
I will tell you how many stupid, ignorant, and bull headed people I met in my life. Ok, fine. Let’s reverse that, and I will tell you how many smart people I met in my life. Two or three only. I am not joking. I am talking here about intelligence. Are you smart? Do you think for yourself? Are you willing to go that extra mile to know something instead of wasting someone else’s time by asking them constantly? Do you know what’s going on in the world? Do you know what’s going on outside of your community, outside of your city, outside of your country? Do you know anything?
And when you can’t find the answer, or you don’t bother to understand or cope with the problem, you put all your anger on someone else. It’s easier that way. Isn’t it?
Amusingly, intelligent people hire those fools. They are called followers, and do a good job at:
- Thinking they are all that.
- Getting frustrated easily and getting extremely angry.
- Having a horrible family life, most are divorced, and can’t contain their own children, which leads to point 5.
- Not being able to distinguish where they are at. That being on a job or still at home trying to contain those children.
- Staying in one spot all their life. They don’t progress at all in life.
Don’t think I am being mean here. I am not. I will tell you this honestly. My problem is that I am far too intelligent. My intelligence lead me to be patient, understanding, argumentative, and not be easily convinced. I think too much. Intelligent people don’t stop thinking. They wonder, discover, and try to understand.Â Many people are not like this. I was surprised.Â People are afraid to get out of their comfort zone. They are scared shitless and get angry when they don’t understand. When you try to explain, they get more angry and think you are speaking above them.
How did they manage to survive in such a world? Or are they intelligently capable of being just a follower? Are those the people that have and keep jobs? I think so. Because honestly, based on my hopes and dreams for the future, those people will make my life a lot easier. Jesus Christ! I never seen such foolish people. They are good at one thing, sort of, but that’s enough for me! Shit if I cared if they know or can do anything else. That’s my job, and I will progress in life. They won’t, and they will never get in my way, ever!
Being a very patient person really comes from your exceptional intelligence. Remember that!