Quiet time
My life can’t get any quieter, and I can’t get any happier!
I am very happy right now that I don’t have to deal with anyone anymore. I feel that I finally have more time to focus on myself, which I have not done for many years. When I was younger, in my teens, I didn’t talk to too many people. However, I was focused and I knew exactly what I wanted. There were no distractions that swayed me from my objectives. After all the craziness of the past year, especially the past couple of weeks of discoveries, I finally feel free of people, and I don’t have to deal with them anymore.
I feel that the people I have met so far in life were great, but they taught me to finally be more picky and stop being nice for no reason. My problem was that I wanted people to like me in any way possible, because I never experienced it while I was growing up. Due to the fact that I lived in different countries and different cultures, I never felt that I belonged anywhere or people understood me.
However, I did far too many nice things in order for them to appreciate me. I was a bit naive, and really it is the way I am. I am way too nice, but now, I don’t want to be. I felt cheap and people only liked me because I did something for them. No one really liked me for who I am. Who am I anyways?
I think it took me 29 years to finally understand myself.
Therefore, I am happy. I am still nice, but not too much. I feel focused and know exactly what I want from life. I am more ambitious now, and I don’t feel that I need to convince others or talk to anyone in order for them to back me up with a decision. I feel that I can do it on my own. I learned from my mistakes, and I experienced many things. In the past, I used to always be afraid and naive. I was always too hesitant to make a decision. Now, I don’t think twice, and I don’t care what others think. I pick a path that I am comfortable with, and I stick to it. I make a final decision, and I feel no regrets.
Ah life… what a journey!
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Really really good post mona the only people u need 2 please in this world is yrself n Allah n yr true friends will love u 4 that salams n hope u had a great day n i hope u have a great day tomorow
I am just like that but I am trying to stop worrying what people think of me. As long as Allah and my parents are pleased that’s all that should matter. I am not where you are yet but I hope to be soon inshaAllah. By the way I still read your blog.. just haven’t commented lately.
As we grow older we start understanding the importance of me time, of being true to oneself. I am not saying become a recluse but do things that one enjoys and likes. Pleasing people is impossible and can never be achieved. There is always someone who is going to be unhappy or upset no matter what we do, so be it. As long as we do not consciously do something to hurt others, there is no harm in looking after oneself and yes being a little selfish.
Enjoy life Mona, you deserve it, you certainly have worked hard to achieve it.
Wow, I can relate to your post and your blog in general! I am Canadian but living in Los Angeles now…I’m half Indian but kind of all mixed up about who I really am! I am still trying to learn not to care what people think. Kudos to you for figuring it out at 29!
You’re a fighter Mona! And you rock our world… life gives us a long time to reflect and we change with time for the better. Hope you are blessed with everlasting happiness and bliss. xo!
Hi Mona,
I really like this post, it sound real. In fact, I am facing something in similar. Sometimes when you try to be nice to certain people, they take advantage instead and take you for a ride. I have enough of these. Some can even ruin your life if you do not be alert, beware Mona, you are still young. Sometimes those closer to you even have the heart to do that. So, good of you to know the game of life at this stage.
Still be kind and nice to people, but just be alert all the time. Wish you all the best in your life journey. I am still struggling here for many mistakes I made by trusting too many people and afraid to make my own decision by listening to their so called wise advices. So hear me out Mona, you can listen to people sometimes, but the decicion making should be yours because you know yourself better!
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Hey Mona!
Reading this post at this time in my life REALLY made me laugh because I’m experiencing the SAME thing.
For the past month, I’ve been on winter break. For some reason, I have been in this i-dont-want-to-talk-to-anyone mood. I deactivated my facebook, barely check my phone, and just do whatever I want without thinking about any of my friends or the people around me. I am SO much more relaxed….all my friends and classmates are going crazy, texting me asking me why i’ve “disappeared” and going crazy to find out “what’s wrong”.
There’s nothing wrong- but I’ve just gotten to this point where I’m just sick of mostly everyone around me. I’m just hanging out with my two older sisters, relaxing, and doing my own thing. And i have to say, it feels GREAT. it feels great not texting every 5 minutes or checking my facebook or emailing someone or listening to gossip or drama. I just feel so relaxed and i feel like i dont owe anything to anyone.
Great post!
Nice picks! Thanks for sharing!
Where is that?
Please find me on the facebook.
Mona S.
Hey Mona!! Just stumbled across your website here & thought… woooow!! Finally someone kinda like myself lol! You’ve done an amazing job on giving Muslim/Arab girls like us a voice!! I commend you for it & can’t wait to see what’s in store in the near future. I’m a Canadian born Palestinian warrior and although nothing is more precious to me than my religion i refuse to be or act in any other way than what defines me…
Don’t fall into the trap thinking that you must act cruel in order to have people be interested in you. If you truly are kind, be kind. You are correct in that you don’t want to be kind to get approval, but don’t be mean to get approval either.
@Tye
You are welcome!
@Christopher (AKA: CaJoh)
I will never change.. I just don’t want to be super nice all the time. I want to know the limit. Plus, I can never be mean.. so against my mentality. I can never change to the bad side ever..
I can very much relate to this, Mona, coz just like you, I also used to be so naive, and had problems saying no to people or disagreeing with them as I was afraid of rejection, of being different or of being cast out. However, I learned that the only way I can be happy is to do what I want to do, to say what I want to say, to be who I want to be: and that is, to be ME.
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Go Mona =) I think the same way. Sometimes, we go through hard times when people (we know) dont treat us well, but it makes you stronger, more confident x
@Mais
What kills you makes you stronger right? Nice
Yes, exactly =) Hope youre doing well x
Hey guys!! Thanks for your comments, and I am surprised that many of you are like me! Great! We should form a posse!