Sad News
This morning, I received an email from Brian Heck’s mother that he passed away on December 30, 2009. He was a daily reader and commentor on my blog. He loved Arabs and Islam. I was even wondering yesterday why Brian has not been on my blog for a while. I never knew it was that reason.
I am still shocked! I went to his Facebook profile and saw the cause of his death, and I am still shocked of why he did it, but sometimes people with depressive symptoms can’t control their emotions, and evil just overrides their judgements. I just received back an answer form his mother and she said:
Brian was struggling with depression associated with a diagnosis of Bipolar disorder.  Brian did not like taking the medication due to the severe side effects. He became very depressed on Dec. 30th and ended his suffering by jumping off of an overpass.  Brian was diagnosed with this about 4 years ago and has struggled to remain focused.  He felt very deeply the pain and suffering in the world and it was a heavy burden for him. His goal in life was to teach English overseas and help people around the world, but he just could not get over his sadness and hurt for the people of the world. All who knew Brian were very shocked as he was a kind and gentle soul that laughed, helped friends and strangers with any need he could assist with. Do read the messages on his memorial page at www.MeM.com.
His mother sent me a link to his obituary. http://www.mem.com/ContentDisplay.aspx?ID=18319452 I am still in shock!
May he rest in peace. 
Updated @ 6:30pm
This is the music he made in early 2008 called Rebellious Arab Girl, but I created the video and posted it in my account. So talented.
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I am in shock.. R.I.P Brian, hope you feel better now. God Bless. x
i have experienced this ……two of close frnds committed suicide….one when i was 12……i couldn’t sleep the whole day….
i hope god gives her mother the strength to pass through this tough time……..
may Brain’s soul rest in peace
Allah yiskoono Al-Jannah InshAllah. He was a very nice person. All I can say is I understand… I have bipolar disorder and my mood swings play up when I don’t take my meds. May God gives his family strength. Ameen.
May his soul rest in peace. I know all about depression and trust me it’s a daily struggle to keep things going but in the end you have to find a way to keep going as hard as this sounds (I know) but I hope God shows mercy on his soul and he is at peace now. May his mother also find some semblance of peace. Very sad.
inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji3un…
May he rest in peace and have found his peace.
Depression is not to be taken lightly and I think way misunderstood.
This was the last comment he wrote on my blog..
http://www.rebelliousarabgirl.net/2009/12/28/sometimes-3/#comment-50452
What does it really mean? I know that post I wrote was regarding someone I know that totally backstabbed me, and they continue lying and think I know nothing about their “upcoming life plans.”
But seriously, Brian was a great guy, and I should have been keeping up more and not find out two weeks later. I am still in shock, and I am wondering now about some people that used to come on my blog and loved to comment and always interacted with me, where are you guys?
Should I expect the worse? I hope not!
My deepest sympathies and condolences to his family and friends. May he rest in peace.
I am very surprised. Every time I read one of his comments he always seemed like a very upbeat and personable guy. Gonna miss reading his comments.
Brian, may you rest in peace.
@Desert Shark
What I learned from suffering from depression, and knowing people that had severe types of depression, that the moment they appear or act upbeat and too happy for no reason, then it means they are dying in the inside. It’s like an outer skin hiding the real cause.
I hated being depressed, and so far I am a bit at times, but nothing severe anymore, because I convinced my self to not give a rat’s ass about anyone in the world and worry about me. If you love your self enough, then people will love you even more. If I start worrying about everyone in the world, then I what’s the point of my life?
I will talk more about depression in another post, maybe tomorrow. Today, I am shocked enough. Haiti two days ago with thousands of deaths and turmoil of a country, and now this. Oh the world is a giant chaos. I am surprised anyone is still sane.
Would I be right in assuming Brian Heck was also the DJ Hecktic?
How very sad. I hope the family finds the strength to get trought the days. Its always the wrong kind of people that suffers.
@Meyrick Kirby
Yep.. that’s him.. and he made some songs for me, and one it called Rebellious Arab Girl and has a middle eastern too. So talented..
This was very shocking to read. I remember him always commenting to your posts. Allah Yar7am7u..may Allah forgive him.
In his profile on Facebook, under about me, he had a list of people that he loved and adored, and I was one of them. I started crying.
I hope he found peace, even if it’s not the way he should have achieved it. Sounds like Brian was a wonderful guy, I wish I had gotten to know him. My heart and prayers go to his family.
My condolensces to his family and friends. Brian will be missed.
For those who are experiencing signs of depression, please seek help from someone such as a psychiatrist.
My condolences.. RIP Brian
when i hear something like that i really dont know what 2 say but to Allah we all belong n inshallah 2 Allah we shall we return so sorry 2 hear that n so sorry 4 his family may he rip
Wow. I am sorry to hear of his passing and of someone with such great talent. It is unfortunate.
Many of his comments were funny. I thought he was a fun and hillarious guy, never occured in my mind he was that depressed. May God make him happy now.
Sorry to hear that sister. He is a good guy from your story. I believe he is. A man love to help friends even stranger must be a good man, Allah loves good man. RIP brother.
RIP Brian – that so sad
he was an amazing character on this blog.