Ode to a teacher
I would never speak of any teachers or professors on my blog, because I never had a memorable one to brag out. Also, I never had a teacher that was awful either. So, I never talked about them or had a reason to.
Yesterday, I had a long depressive spell, and all I did was read through my old posts, especially this one from a few days ago. I can’t believe what I have been writing, and I still can’t believe how my life turned out to be. Then all of a sudden, all I could think of is Mrs. Hubbard.
Who the hell is Mrs. Hubbard you ask your self?
Mrs. Hubbard was an almost retiree grade 10 health & life studies teacher in my highschool while I was still living in the US. Why did I remember her all of a sudden? Usually, many people don’t care to remember teachers, but her, she was blunt, old, and she had fun teaching teenagers. She understood them, and even predicted how they will end up being. Strange, but true!
I was very quiet in highschool, did exceptional work, and aced every course. I had no care in the world other than myself, and was very reserved and not so social. I was and still is very introverted. That’s why Mrs. Hubbard told me that one day that I will suffer dearly in my 20s and have a very depressive life. Can you imagine someone telling you that when you were barely 15 years old?
Now, while I am in my last year of my 20′s, I look back at the last 9 years with shock. How the hell did I survive it? How the hell did I end up like this?
I ask myself those questions every day, and I have no answer. All I can do is hope that things will just change and this dry spell will end. You guys think being in your 20′s is fun, and growing old and being in your 30′s or beyond is ancient, then all I can tell you, “you gotta be kidden yourselves!”
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you are strong :up:
Keep the spirit in you alive and better times will come. have faith.. tc
I’m completely with you on the paragraph. I know people will say being in your 30s is still young, but the whole stigma that is put on someone in their 30s when it comes to dating makes it that much harder and all just because of that number 3.
Stay strong though, Mona, the ray of hope that keeps you going, let is shine brighter, even on those gray cloudy days.
I truly second the pain, agony and frustration of losing all these best years of our lives. They’re gone. They wont come back. People in that group won’t accept us back. We’ve left that crowd long time ago. Now it’s the viscous cycle of 9-5 for another lets say 20 yrs which nobody will dare walk out of and then what? … **SIGH**. Just keep waiting for the body clock to stop ticking & meet thy LORD.?
Finito.
PS. Assumption is based on; if we lived for ~60 yrs. What if it’s 40 or even 35? So the answer would be to cherish the present & take life as it comes; day by day but why would we? We can’t get pass the agony of losing the best years of our lives. Let’s just pray there is something worth while in the pandora box yet to pop out.
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Saya Nimbuzz
@sanjay
Thank you!
@Moonstar Silverwolf
I will try to keep shining! Thank you!
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Thank you for the in depth analysis!
@Message in a Bottle
Vulgar display eh? Thanks I guess!
@sayanimbuzz
Thanks!
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There is life after your 20s, I know, been there the 30s rock, best time of my life.
Don’t believe the hype. The 30′s are the best years; the energy and verve of your 20′s but so much wiser. Don’t fret Mona, celebrate. Now is when you really make something of yourself.
was she right?
@Oussama
Cool! Can’t wait inshallah!
@mac
I hope so!
@Malik
What do you think? Or you don’t know anything about my life and what I have been writing for years to ask such a question?
This is corny but look at what you have and not what you don’t have. Don’t let your have nots ruin your outlook on life. If this helps any, some people would die to have your life. What do I know eh? I’m Just another person struggling and trying to make the best of what I have.
@Sarah
Yes, I understand that.. and I want more in life because there would be a reason to live!
I think really at least half of all people in the world, and many of the people I have known must have problems with feeling depressed in life or some kind of feeling of bad periods and it is in their 20s and even teens. People don’t have crisis only in midlife, and I don’t know about midlife yet. But I know we have them really in our young days 20s and teens most, if we have problems with family, work, friends or other bad experiences or lack of security. I see so many people sad and feeling lack of worth in life, basically depressed or stresses on them. And want to help them at the same time as want to help myself. And never really succeed at either. And I search online for many things and information for a solution, like lots of you might do. But I never really find anything that helps long term. I believe that at least half the world has felt depressed, as I said. And so I wonder why isn’t there some simple place to find help or some solution that work, and someone who has overcome it, to share the answers with others. Surely there must be people who have succeeded and can help others to feel better. I even wanted to make such sites myself but I don’t know anything, I don’t know the answers. So i can’t help anyone, even my friends or myself.
Well. I think there is real need for helping deal with depression in the world and that so many are affected by it, and really lives limited or kept from moving on by it. I wish the governments or medical or someone where there in just one or two places to go for the best information, would provide some permanent and effective information for all the ones suffering depressed and low emotional moods.
I am okay, but just not as emotionally secure as I’d like to be (because it’s too changeable).
What I wanted to say to sum up, is that I think depression or feeling depressed every few weeks or for some less frequent but still bad periods, affects most of the people in the world. And that we still didn’t really get the help we need for such a big problem that affects so many and is very difficult to manage or overcome for a lot of us or takes a long time. I just wish people had more help, and knew how to fix their problems with things they can do themselves.