It’s mostly sour
It sounds weird when I try to push my self. Push my self towards what exactly? I do feel aimless, but why? You see, I guess my life so far has gone up and down so much, and now, since it is steady, I feel it is not changing to any direction. At the same time, I don’t know to what direction I want it to go. I don’ t really know what I want. and that is the cause of my constant aggravation.
Do I want a guy and get married? I don’t know.
Do I want to change my career and find something that will challenge me a lot more? I don’t know.
Do I want to act like I don’t care and just have fake friends around me to satisfy my ego? I don’t know.
You see, at my age, life seems like an enigma. I have no clue what will make me happy, and I have no clue what is causing my utter despair. I just want to find this happy medium that will satisfy me, but I am not easily satisfied. However, I am not that hard to please, but at the same time, I don’t want to settle for anything because I have to or time is ticking.
I am just a mess of thoughts. I know too much. I think too much. People like me are only meant to discover things and make humanity better, and not worry about themselves. The moment I start thinking about this person, me, Mona, then I get huge migraines. The past 3 or 4 days I suffered with huge uncontrollable migraines, because I spent it thinking about me. The moment that I stop and think of the bigger picture and humanity as a whole, then I feel different.
So, I am thinking that I am only meant to worry about everything in this world except me. That will stop my emotional turmoil so I can wake up every morning not dreading it.
Life, it is not like a box of chocolates, but more like sour candy with a crinkly facial expression of weird satisfaction in the end.
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I think you should get married but make a smart choice
@Mais
Should I invite you to my imaginary wedding then? lol
Yes I would come =D Inshallah you’ll find the best man for you. And then have 2 babies, and Khala Mais will teach them some worldy knowledge =P
@Mais
lool.. you really made me laugh there when you said Khala Mais.. so cute. lol
If it is any consolation I am married and don’t know if I want to be…I am in a career that I’m not sure I like…and I have friends that I am fairly certain I don’t want to be friends with anymore. And I’m 34! How sad is that??
Don’t stress too much…these problems will always be there. You just have to deal with them the best you can!
Hehe..I love that one about the chocolates
. Well, I guess you are just like me then but just a difference in age. It’s just like me talking in the post there but my problems don’t include marriage…at least yet because I guess I’m too young for that even though I’m an adult, a young adult that is 
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“Life, it is not like a box of chocolates, but more like sour candy with a crinkly facial expression of weird satisfaction in the end.” – Wow, Mona! Another one of your finest quotes indeed.
Full of wisdom and kiddy like to hehe 
Self reflection can be a bit enduring. You sound like one of those giving people who do not feel like they are worthy unless they give to the world around them. Rather than worrying about how to make yourself right– look to see how you can make yourself right with the world. How do YOU fit in with it and how can you be the kind of person that makes that world you are in a better place. Life isn’t always sweet– sometimes it is tangy. Learn to embrace the differences in the flavors of life and savor every one.
Hi Mona.
You asked the one million dollars question and do you expect a simple answer.
The more our life gets complicated, the harder it is to find the expected happiness. At the end, happiness comes from inside, marriage has nothing to do with it… trust me and trust Ameena (with her permission of course).
I think we all should just simplify our lives and look for things that we enjoy, movies, jogging, swimming, reading, friendship, love, etc.
At the end, some find happiness in collecting money, others in power, politics, marriage, love and sex. So you pick and chose the area that makes you happy. Just remember no one will bring happiness into your life, you seek it.
@Ameena
Hmm.. interesting..
@Shirley
Cuz it is not fun at my age..!!
Enjoy it as much as you can!!
@Incandescent Chimera
You liked it eh?
@Christopher (AKA: CaJoh)
Thank you!!
@Bellochap
What makes me happy is power!! (Capricorn talking here)..
Thanks for your wisdom.. I always enjoy reading it!
Wow.. You just made me crave some sour candy… thanks!
Hey, I think our generation just doesn’t know what to do with themselves anymore. It kinda sucks… actually it sucks alot. I’m 25 and unsure about everything in my life. Ever feel like everything is moving forward and you’re stuck in cement and can’t move? That’s how I’ve been feeling for a while..
@Liane
My life is stuck in a cement and can’t move. I try, but the cement dried up!! lol
Mona youll get married this year. The guy has to be really responsible and good father-material. And he has to want to marry you, soon. (No waiting for years, hint hint) You have to put the same kind of effort and attentiveness some people put in their career. There we’ve got a plan for 2010 xx
@Mais
Do you honestly think I will get married this year? lol I don’t think so.. and to who? lol It’s not like I know any guy or talking to anyone who is even remotely interested in me.