All the right friends in all the wrong places

Isn’t it funny that we turn to the internet to be heard? I mean a bunch of strangers are willing to listen to what I write but not some of the people I know. That is why I am officially addicted to the internet!

It’s a strange phenomenon. I did a documentary back when I was in college about blogging, and what Ameena says is true: we blog to be heard. Never before have humans lived in such a small world. We can say anything we want, and it can be read by virtually anyone.

It’s comparable to why people tag up walls with graffiti. It’s to leave their mark on the world, so people will know they were there. So people remember them, and they don’t vanish into a sea of (mostly useless) information. That’s kind of what blogging is. While it may not be the same reason for everyone, at its core it can be traced to one motive: people want to be heard.

I will say this though, being the nice person sucks. But you know what I’ve found? Sometimes, and it is rare, being nice can lead to wonderful things. And it’s those things that make it worth it

@Ameena
I agree with u… we are so silenced by all around us… we turn to the internet to get our silent voices heard

You know, I don’t know but my story is just like you, Mona. I just see myself in you. Whenever you talk about yourself, it’s like you are talking about me. You know, blogging and the internet as a whole, helps one find another world where they can be appreciated for what they are and I’m actually finding that and it’s a really awesome feeling .

I’m really glad I found your blog because for me I feel that I have found a friend and someone who is going through what I’m going through and I feel like now I’ve got someone who understands me and knows exactly what I’m going through even though I haven’t talked to you personally..you know, that’s how I feel reading your blog every time . It’s such a great feeling .

I usually say that “sometimes strangers can be better company than a friend”. What I realize is that when we want honest advice, someone who doesn’t know us that well can tell us the honest truth without worrying if we are hurting their feelings. Friends tend to want to soften the blow and wind up saying nice things and not confronting you with what you really need to hear.

I think a lot of us struggle with the same issues you are having when it comes to respect from those around us. You have a powerful voice through this blog. You need to figure out how to translate that to the people you are around.

You clearly had the wrong friends.. I think it is a particular feature of a gossipy and “scandal” society like the Arab one and many other “hot-blooded” societies are people have a hard time being themselves. are restrained too much, and unhappy for it.

I wish you that you can get away from EVERYTHING for continued education or a job, at best to a different country. At best to a bigger city there (small towns or countryside can suffocate you again, and the people there most likely are a little narrow minded, too, no matter what country).

Believe me you will BREATHE. what you describe I had until I moved to a big city right after highschool. I actually picked a particular curriculum at least 70% to have a reason to move far away. Looking back I kind of envy my sister who is still at home – when being free and adventurous at a very young age Mom’s cooking and care are missed
But the freedom and different people in a city where no one knows you in all make up for it, and you are offered dozens over dozens of interesting people “on a plate” (or in a dorm ).
I hope you can experience this for one reason or another later in your life. If you want of course. You being homesick in a city that sucks I would not wish for you!

@Mona
Yup, it sure is good to know .

I kinda understand what you mean. Sometimes it’s better to keep your thoughts to yourself because you really don’t know who to trust, even your friends. Good thing you have this blog to blow steam, huh?