Lately, I have been feeling a big huge negative aura around me. However, I feel great inside. I think that I am on top of the world and I couldn’t be happier. So, why do I feel something is a little itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini not right?
I think I know why. I think that because I am at all time high, that eventually I will stumble down hill like I always do. Maybe that’s why I feel that there is negativity and I got to be careful about it. The thing is, there are no people around me to piss me off!
My mind cannot rest and relax. I am always apprehensive about something…
Moreover, I felt great about yesterday’s post. Yah! I felt like I am my old self and still had it! I didn’t want to lose my edge. I was fearful I was becoming soft and careless since I have been ignoring my other sites, occasionally keeping up with this humble blog, and being a horrible interactive social networker. I don’t know what happened to me. I think I was at an all time depression phase and never realized it. Why no one noticed it?
Do you guys remember my dreams of buying an island?
Do you guys remember my dreams of changing the way the world thinks (well my little world of being an Arab)?
Do you guys remember how I found fault in everything and bitched about it?
I miss my self. I miss who I was and not happy with what I have become. I feel like I am trying to aim to this one vague direction and ignoring everything else around me thinking I will reach that one destination. However, there is no destination. There is no point A to point B to point C. It is not a series circuit that I must follow. I don’t know what it is, but I cannot sit here and wait. I got to do something. Yah! That’s the spirit y’all!
Now where are those damn annoying blogger bookmarks in my browser gone to? I miss reading those shitty blogs. They make mine look like Febreezed manure!
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Glad that things have been working out. Your tips, have been useful to me.
slow down girl, relax and enjoy. find friends you can be with and exhale and shout to the top of your lungs your stresses or get a cold beer and sing along with friends? these may help, if not , disregard, lol. hope u feel better by now, seriously.
@Leeroy Glinchy
That’s great! I am glad I was able to help you!
@mel
I don’t drink beer. The taste is awful!!
But friends.. aah.. nice to find some one day!
u and i have the same problem ,we worry 2 much lol
You do seem in a better mood so keep doing whatever you are doing
PS-It’s totally OK to go off on somebody when they give you cause! What’s bad is going around looking for reasons to get mad at people, which is something I do a lot myself these days.
@Charlie
yep!!
@Craig
I don’t look for reasons to get mad at people. I wish I did then I would have an excuse to stop it. However, people just love to piss me off!
YOU SAID :However, people just love to piss me off!
I THINK THEY ARE REACTING TO YOUR response TO THEIR POSITIVE VIEWS.(hehe,kidding Mouna)
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Hi Mona!
We have this saying “A tree that bears fruit is often hurled at.” So people love to piss you off because your blog is “successful” and you are their subject of jealousy and injury. :up:
“Do you guys remember how I found fault in everything and bitched about it?” –
Ain’t Karma a bitch? We all know Mona is. Hahaha, just kidding 
Hi Mona,
I discovered your website fairly recently and admire your willingness to be outspoken and gregarious with your opinions. It’s great to see you’re discussing emotions and beliefs that comprise your individualism as well as your cultural background. For example your post “Ashamed of Being an Arab” was in my opinion a provoking piece of writing. I know it’s an older post but it still raised a lot of comments and opinions which I think are valuable for rumination on current North American Arabic identity. Your whole website’s valuable in that regard.
Thanks very much. Please give my website a look if you’d like.
Adam
haha i was like….. mona changed ? really ? I didn’t notice. Then I realized that you are more sour then before. Basically you went froma garbage can to a garbage dump (I know bad example but it was the best I could come up with) But I remember that post about wanting an island.
@Adam Abbas
Hey I took a look at your page, its so…. red. It’s realy overwhelming.