Queen mother brought up a point yesterday while discussing a show on TV that made me think a lot today. She said that young people that suffer from bad relationships in a young age tend to grow up somewhat shy, reserved, and can barely ever go back or find a relationship that they feel comfortable in.
Makes sense. First time I agree with the royal highness, my mother!
Yesterday, I told a co-worker of mine about my story. You know, the one that I spent years in that resulted in a huge fight, stubbornness, and him going off to marry any girl for the sake of forgetting me. Honestly, if I did that as a girl, I would be viewed as low and uncaring. Yet, if a guy does it, it seems that he is very weak and needs to move on in order to survive one more day.
It’s an Arab emotional thing and gender bias!
On mentioning emotions, I believe that many Arabs always feel that they are the victims, emotionally devastated regarding anything – small or big, and get depressed ever so quickly!
In my case, I felt all the above, but what is the result? Pure bitterness!
Yes, I am very bitter towards Arab men. I am very bitter when going to weddings. I am very bitter when I see two lovey-dovey people together. I am just a very bitter person. But what else can I do? There is also that whole other part of my life that I need to deal with. Sometimes I think that I am really happy being alone, and I wonder why my mind keeps this bitter view regarding relationships, love, etc.
How did my mind end up like this? How long will it stay? Will I get over this Arab over emotional and bitter view of life, or will I one day settle down and find stability in life?
Too much to think about, but you know what? I didn’t think my life was going to be like this 5 years ago, and I think in 5 years, I cannot expect my view point of life to be anymore bitter.