I have never felt I needed to be proud of anything in my life. I always felt that I should be proud of just me, and that’s about it.

Then over time, especially for the past few weeks, I felt that I more than that. I need to represent something bigger and better. I have been getting overwhelming responses and comments from my blog, Twitter, and on Facebook of how appreciative people are of me. Not only that, I feel like I connected and I no longer have this huge façade between my self and the rest of the world.

However, today, I felt differently. I felt that I am happy to be outspoken. I am happy of my accomplishments in life and drive to succeed. As an Arab, Muslim, and Palestinian I am happy to represent those groups in any way that I can.

I may have complained a lot in the past, and I questioned far too many things about being an Arab, but I had my reasons and I never regretted a moment of it. I just want to be very successful and very happy without the cultural imposed ideologies that stand in my way and are questionable. I have this will power to represent my self and everything that makes me Mona. The immigrant, the Palestinian, the one who suffered so much growing up and moving from one country to the other, from school to school, the people surrounding me, the mentalities that hurt me, and from a different life to be accustomed to another.

I am stable now. A bit depressed still, but I have dreams, I have huge aspirations, and I am not giving up. I don’t want to give up anymore and I want to live my life knowing that I accomplished something and I represented something at a high level. It’s hard for many to understand my drive and energy. It is not selfish, but I want to be something. I want to be different, opinionated, and holding the largest whatever in my hands without some one or anything stopping me.

I am tired of being pushed around, looked down upon and doubted, and frankly speaking, I am tired of an image imposed by everyone else on me. Only I can make that image and then you decide. I think it is only fair no?

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?, Whatever!