I usually don’t like writing from work, but it is lunch so what the heck?
I am confused and lost in my own doing. I don’t really know how to express it in a way that is not too personal, although it is my blog, but I feel I need to refrain from being loud sometimes. Hence, that is the reason I don’t write too much.
Well, forget the above and what I said. Let me analyze something else, but it may seem a bit biased. I see that the majority of people that comment on my blog are not Arabs. I have nothing against anyone, but I agree, my older posts did seem that they are leaning towards the culture and not agreeing with its customs. That seems to attract those individuals. As of late, I don’t write much regarding it at all. Why should I?
I have out grown it and I live a very neutral life style. I don’t let Arabs effect me. I don’t live by their rules. I have lived in North America for 2/3 or more of my life. Why should I make it the highlight of my daily life? It is amusing sometimes, but it is just people and a culture.
Am I labeled as one? Well yeah! I like others to know I am Arab. I am a narcissist of being one, but only cause I look the part. I am pretty conservative in nature, and it has nothing to do with my culture. That’s just how I am, and each individual is different and unique in their own way.
I am looking back now at my life, and over half the stuff I don’t even remember or want to be reminded of it. I don’t have any regrets or wish things turned out differently, but there is this feeling inside me that keeps asking, “What I have done to deserve this?”
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Analyzing things,
I sometimes think it is my lack of impressive things that make me seem so dull. I’m not famous, I’m not rich. I’m not pretty. All in all, I am average. But that does not make me feel that I am not important.
Being conservative is not a bad thing. It allows you to commit to something, albeit cautiously, and be more successful in the long run.
The bottom line can be summed up in a phrase of mine: “Be true to yourself as your own self true” Let the words that you express in your blog be true to whoever you are when you are writing them. Don’t think you have to recreate who you were in the past. I have confidence that you will find your muse.
Maybe I missed something in between blogs. I look and listen you as strong woman who is not scared voice your option. What I hear or knowledge (not be creditable material) about Arab they are well disciplined in their summation to Alia. I love to hear your views and none-Arabs. I have so much, my knowledge are such things are very weak. You are will out a doubt the moist inspirational writers that i have ever read.
Maybe, you just overanalyse things. Just do whatever you feel like doing and move forward. You will never please everybody, so why bother.
Live your life to the fullest, as you see it, you owe us no explanations.
So have fun and keep moving.
Or maybe you just need to a partner and live a happy life with someone you can trust and tell everything comfortably knowing that he would listen and comfort you. It doesn’t mean being dependant but it means moving on with life.