I will not doubt my sef

I love this blog.

Enough said. That is a horse of crap you did not want to hear. Oh so many concerns by people. I am not a bitter old woman. I may act like it, but that is the result from being around assholes for far too long.

I swore on my blog. I have not done that in a long time. It feels oh so rebellious.

I am not angry, or sad, or frustrated. I am just concerned about my mental and my health well being. It is hard to surpress so much emotion in you. One day I will explode. I am just igniting the fire every time I feel like yellow or blue or red is my colour.

What does all this mean? Well, I talk or express my self in words that make some sense to a few. Only a few get me. I am the most complicated person that you will ever meet. I am quiet, I am judgemental, and I think far too much. Who wants to be around me?

I will have a heart attack before I am 40.

I am living day by day in disbelief. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but I feel that life is a roller coaster. I don’t know if it will spin me, move me up and down, or go fast or slow.

I gave up. I just gave up.

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I will not doubt my sef, 5.0 out of 5 based on 2 ratings

CaJoh July 4, 2012 at 5:20 pm

Complexity is what makes you You. Not everybody is patient or observant enough to understand your intricacies, but just know that there are people who are there for you (even if you do not see them yourself).

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Oussama July 4, 2012 at 10:58 pm

Welcome to the real world, you just articulate what many feel but are afraid or can’t express. So think of yourself as the spokesperson of the suppressed masses. Life is a roller coaster, that what makes it interesting and fun.

kiki July 11, 2012 at 5:52 am

First of all i think u have a great personality (from what i read).
Ur a young woman with an outspoken opinion! what’s not to love about that!! So yes you should stop doubting yourself!! have more faith! Im female myself, and a lot of the times i can totally recognize myself in your blogs.
We all have off days we all have episodes when things dont go as easy as we would like them to.
I think you just have to give it some time, life can be pretty overwhelming.
Maybe you should hang out with some of ur friends instead of being on ur own overanalysing stuff & overthinking things.
I dont want to scare you but if you think too much about everything, it cant be healthy at all.
so yeah, I can understand ur concern about ur mental health
I think u need to speak to someone about what bothers u.
someone who can give u some guidance or just listen to ur rantings.
you’ll feel much better afterwards.
It doesnt even have to be a professional, a friend can do a great job aswell