I don’t know where to begin. Every day life is just the same. On Monday mornings I have some energy, then quickly on that day around noon I want it to be the weekend. Same routine every week and I don’t know what to do anymore.
Every time I get close to something, my dream is shattered. I always told my self to not give up, but what if I tell my self to let things be. Will that ideology make things appear better or worse for me?
I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. Everything appears to be missing and I can’t reach what I want. I am grabbing to one thing for the time being cause I have nothing else to grab to. I don’t want it, but I got nothing else in life.
As for love, who wants me? I am old, not very good looking in anyones’ eyes, and I don’t belong in my culture. I don’t belong in any culture on a matter of fact. I am just a waste of life. I don’t belong to anything.