Yeah I know. The title and thought process is so unlike me. I wanted to explain my previous posts though. Yes, they are regarding the God awful job that I have and not my readers. Like I said, job. This is not a place where I can label it as a career. I don’t want to get into the atrocious ridiculous details of why I despise it, but I can’t leave it without getting another one. If ever.
Today, I realized that if I leave they are beyond screwed. It all happened because one of my co-workers is sick. The male boss said, “MONA!! Don’t be sick too! You have to be here!” I said that I am not sick or feel that way. Why the sudden fear?
I wish I can disappear from the face of this earth. Guilt. Guilt. My subconscious. Shut up! I am not listening to you!
I ate my lunch early, because when you are thinking you get hungry. Now how will I feel at 3:00 pm?
I just don’t know how my yo-yo sane-in-sane hour by hour awful life will be. It’s not even noon yet. Some people don’t respect time zone differences anyways.