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Where do I begin? People are amused by my silence. I am not what I used to be. I am not sure why I changed, but it has to do with a lot of factors. The biggest one and obvious one is that I am not happy with my life. How can I change that? I am trying, but nothing is working.

I try to find someone, but I think I ask for too much. Like any other girl who wants a life to share with someone else! Nop. That is not working. I am not meticulous or anything, but I want normality and quietness. Is that too much to ask or unbelievable to the imagination?

I think not.

My life is sucked right out of me every week day, because of the unknown and constant thinking. I leave back to my home and I am dead tired, that sitting on the computer to do anything, even play games, is torturous. It’s like I despise computers, but in the back of my head I adore technology. I hate my self in being in such a predicament.

When will anything change?

I noticed one thing though, that companies will call you none stop to get your money. Why don’t they give me money? Oh, technology, a girl, educated, thinks for herself? No, not on their agenda.

I come to work and half my co-workers don’t even talk to me or say hello. They are beyond ridiculous and I don’t recommend them ever being part of the team. I am partly to blame because I am a total b$^^#% that doesn’t like anyone crossing her boundaries. I am not stupid or inexperienced. To others they hate me for putting my self on top. Where else can I situate my self? It’s unbearale being around two-faced people. Just pathetic.

If I had one dream what would I do? Be a super hero and help others. Then they can call me your highness because I earned that title! Or maybe just not have to work for anyone. I think that is more of a realistic dream.

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  • I, too, know that feeling of being totally drained after work. Well put.

    When did things get so messed up with your co-workers? Were they always like that or was there a moment when things got bad?

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  • Sounds like the writing is on the wall. Wishing you the best of skill in finding your dreams.

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  • I didn’t do anything. That is my way of portraying madnes – silence. I don’t like to be told to be what to do, and I will not take critisim at all from people who joined the team just recently! There is an Arabic saying, “ba2aret embar7a, ween sar7a?” It means, “Yesterday’s cow, what are you day dreaming?”

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  • Thanks @CaJoh

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  • A converted American mislimah linked following thoughts on her FB.
    how you begin your day make your day,
    your attitude and your actions have a strong effect on your whole day.
    begin with a smile,a calmness of mind and a heart filled with gratitude.
    a positive mindset that it’s going to be a wonderful day.

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  • life is not fair… what we have to do is to accept it as it’s because we cant change anything. the work envirenment for ppl like us is hell. Because we can’t bear hypocrisy. In fact, hypocrisy is one important component of work envirenment the thing that we do not accept. so, this is the problem. we dont get promoted cus we dont kiss our superiour’s ass. we just do what we told to do and sometime we do even more without being told. with this you dont get any atention or popularity… i prefer to be like this, invisable i don’t need this atention based on hypocrisy. i tasted the experience of being isolated just because i dont speak bad or critisize or participate in there stupid activities…. yes i hate my work i guess very few ppl dont, but i have to accept it and stick to it cus i have no other choise…

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  • You’re an envied Capricorn. Capricorns are ambitious and capable. That bothers slackers. My own mom is a Capricorn. Her staff despise the sight of her. A woman boss? A bossy woman boss at that? A bossy Arab woman boss? Get out of here! I secretly giggle with glee when she walks all over her incompetent male subordinates. Your predicament is astrological, Mona. While your zodiac sign is tough Capricorn, your moon sign (emotions) is in motherly, home-loving, sentimental, super sensitive, must-be-cuddled-to-feel-secure-and-finally-melt-that-hard-protective-shell Cancer. Capricorn and Cancer are opposite signs, so your head and heart have opposing needs. Hence the confusion. But your moon’s placement is perfect, since it’s in its own sign (Cancer). Cancer rules the moon – the moon controls tides (back and forth motion), and that’s the source of your moodiness. You’re lucky you smoke no pot. Capricorns take on so much of the world’s harshness that many tune responsibility out with recreational drugs. The thing is: this year, all Capricorns and Cancers are in for a major revision of their identities, plans and aspirations. 2013 will bring lessons, some unpleasant, but to reinforce foundations. My mother is experiencing this with her family. Everyday, and I mean everyday, she comes home shattered at new realizations. Ever the devoted sister, she now has understood I wasn’t ganging her up against her sisters. Her sisters are slacking vampires, who call on her only for their own benefit, leaving her thankless. And we all know a Capricorn needs to get feedback when they help out. ;-) So, worry not, all will be fine. Just treat this year as a Madonna tour – one of yet another reinvention. :idea:

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  • mona,
    if you think u r a muslim and not a blind believer,wilmaryads blind comment was not for u.

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  • @truemsg

    I am not blind and I don’t you need to warn me because I am a grown woman! I am not a child.

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  • i appriciate for that….
    thank you

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