I don’t mean those good people in a political sense, or religious sense. I mean it in an every day life sense. Us human beings. Why the good people who have never done anything wrong in life are sometimes unlucky?

When I was in my early 20’s, most of the girls that I knew were obviously in my age group. Most of them are married now. They actually got married long time ago. Thinking about it now, they have been married for over 6 years now, some more. I just keep looking back and thinking, why them? They weren’t that good. They did many bad things that if a typical Arab guy knew about it, he would never even think of this girl. But how are these girls first to get married to nice good guys?

Do these girls lie about their life? Do they pretend to be perfect (religious wise, culture wise, etc)? Maybe. I think that is the only way. Half of them got engaged 2 or 3 weeks after meeting a guy. Which I don’t understand. Do they even know each other? Is the overall appearance and what she perfectly says to other people is what a girl is judged by? Is that all?

It seems to be that way. I keep seeing many girls get married that way. They live their life and do whatever, and they are usually the girls that I label as horribly bad and done so many sinful things, and no respectable guy should even look at her. Yet, they are the first to get married. And the good girls, who do nothing, barely anyone looks at them.

It makes me wonder why life is like that. Why some girls who are good, never did anything bad in their life, don’t go anywhere or even stay out of the house at night, are the unlucky ones?

Maybe I am just talking here about how unlucky I am. I have been seeing all those girls that had so many relationships, or do things behind their parent’s back, or God knows what else they do, are the ones that can find a guy who easily wants to marry them just like that.

Yet, my luck, guys don’t like me cause of what I say on a blog, or because I have an overly conservative lifestyle and don’t get involved with many people or care about them, or that I say my opinion and don’t act like a total air head that agrees with any guy to get noticed and wants to get married.

Life is seriously unfair. I guess I am tired and lonely again. It sucks to be me. I feel that no one will ever like me for who I am. I don’t think any Arab guy will. Oh well, I guess I have to keep the faith that one day, some guy, will actually accept me for the real me. I don’t think I know how to be fake and lie like those girls. I don’t think I know how or want to. That’s not a life to live. Not at all.

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My friend Lisa and I were having a discussion about blogs today, and she asked me about some blogs. I said, “she stopped writing. She got married. Which is stupid! Both parts!”

Then Lisa argued with me and thought blogs are a personal space for single people. I said no way! She then told me that when Arab girls marry, that’s it. They throw everything away and become closed in to this new life. Then Lisa said that I will end up the same. I told her NO WAY! If I ever get married, which is slim to none chance now, if the guy does not like this crazy blog of mine, then screw him. That’s rule number one. I don’t want an extravagant house. I want internet connection and my laptop!

Lisa told me that I am just kidden my self for now. I told her no no. I think she is talking about people who only do this for fun. I do this professionally. Blogging is no longer a hobby of mine. It is a place to discuss with other people my life, my points of views, and my bewilderment with the staggering number of stupid people in this world. I think people need to realize that there is a difference between bloggers who just write for fun, and those who are unemployed bums who need money and write passionately about many issues that need to be discussed in this world. So, I need money, and for the past 4 months, this blog has been sustaining me. I got bills to pay people! I am not kidden. I love my blog. I think I passionately write and seriously treat it as a job.

Writing blog posts every day, creating templates, upgrading, enhancing, etc, all take time and effort. I am putting more work into this than I am getting back financially. It’s ok. I enjoy it more than anything in this world. My blog is my baby! If I die, I will pass it to my children! Yah man! I am serious. Have you serious bloggers ever thought about who will inherit your blog? You put so much time and effort into it, who will take it over after you?

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Hello, my name is Mona. I was born in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia. Since I was born in an Arab nation, it does not mean I hold the citizenship of that country. Since my parents are Palestenian, I am Palestenian too. My parents were not born in Palestine. They were born after 1948 in Lebanon. My parents are the first generation born refugees. They were born in Lebanon, but they are not Lebanese. They were born in an Arab nation, but cannot hold the citizenship of that country.

I was born in 1980. When I was around the age of 4 or 5, my parents would tell me that I am not Saudi, and I never will be. I am Palestenian. I asked them, “why don’t we live in our home land then? My parents answer, “because someone else took it and told us to leave.”

23 years later, people ask me, “why do you have so much hate towards Israelis and Jews?” I answer them simply, “I do not hate Jews. Why would I hate a religion? I do not like politics that speak in the name of religion and make it bad for everyone else. However, why would I like a group of people that made my people leave our land?”

In 1948, over 700,000 Palestinians were forced out of their lands. Now, around 8 million, even more, Palestinians live all over this earth. A small group that live in a city named Gaza, 1.5 million people are blockaded with no food and no medication to enter anymore, and fighting street wars. Why? Neither party gave a reason why they are doing this, and what is the result of it. Neither side is negotiating. They think violence will solve the problems. We Palestinians never surrender, our motto is, “It is either me or my enemy.” However, is that going to solve this problem in the long run? I do not think so. I quit watching the news, and just praying to God that both sides come to their senses and realize that nothing can be resolved with violence.

I pray for the children and women that died unjustly in this pathetic war a place in heaven. Amen.

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