For those of you who speak more than one language fluently, have you ever been in a situation that you intentionally spoke your native language, or a language that others don’t know, with those who understand it, because you didn’t want certain people to understand you? Or you did it without noticing that you did? Or you did it just someone else can translate?

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How many times have I done it? Maybe a million a half times.

Do I feel guilty about it? No. I was born into a world where I had the opportunity to speak more than one language. How I use it, when I use it is my problem. If people don’t like it, as we say in Arabic, “Fokhar yikaser ba3doo.” Or “Yinfil2o!” lol (HATE MAIL COMING!)

Do I talk about people in a different language so they won’t understand me? Hmm, maybe only 50% of the time. Sometimes I just have hard time expressing certain things in English, so I say it in Arabic.  So maybe someone who is better than me in Arabic can translate it to English. Kind of it being a circle of thoughts. I just know far too many colloquial Arabic saying or phrases. I am not really that good in translating back and forth between languages. I just suck at it. Sorry, but talking about people, like trashing them. Hmm, I can trash people better in English and sometimes to their face. Ahh.. man. I am showing my bad side. Haha.

Has anyone ever told you off for doing it? Yah, they got the 6th sense and they are pure evil. That’s why they dare tell me to stop it! How rude on their part! BLAH!

I wonder what will happen if I speak some ancient language, or a made up language. I feel like making up my own language! Why can’t I? Let people follow my new lingo!!

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Piece of advice:

Don’t ever give up on something you can’t wake up tomorrow morning and not think about.

Hmm…

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My own people. Typical.

Why do I have rebellious thoughts? You see, Arabs hate one another, or they either love one another. Have any of you heard of the Arab League? You know, where 22 Arab country leaders meet to fight with one another and come to no conclusion, or to a conclusion that could have been applied a year ago.

Arabs would rather hate one another and care more about destroying one another, then helping each other. It’s like that in every culture, but with Arabs, they make it an obligation and a way of life to take revenge on anyone they hate and can’t stand. They will have that blackest heart till the day they eat their revenge or die! Even if it is their own brother or sister!

Am I ashamed of being an Arab? NO! I love being an Arab because I have a blog where the majority of my visitors are not Arab. They like me for being me whom happens to be an Arab. Because of that, many Arabs out there with no life hate me.

Keep on hating, that’s the only thing most Arabs are able to do successfully. The world is advancing, and they are still hating! Where will hatred lead you? Ah?

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I was thinking of making another website to start a custom WordPress template business. However, I was too lazy to do that right now and I need people’s opinions first. I know some of you wanted to know how I made this template, or want your own custom template. Sure. Ok. Since I am super duper bored, and I need to work for at least 7 hours a day on something, I have decided to start making custom WordPress templates.

However, before I begin or buy a domain or do anything, I want to see what people will roughly pay for one, because I don’t know how much to sell it for, and what options to sell with the template.

I decided that if you pay $500, I will make you one custom WordPress template, one year free domain name that you choose and must be available, I will host it forever for free, I will upgrade it for you, and do any technical tweaks you need. Great deal eh?

So, what do you think, and if anyone’s 100% interested then email me to rebelliousarabgirl@gmail.com.

Why am I doing this? I told you I am bored, and I am also frustrated from many bloggers that use the same free templates. I can’t even tell the difference anymore in people’s blogs. This is also a good opportunity for people that use blogger.com to move to WordPress, get free hosting, and an awesome looking site. I also think this is a great opportunity for people who never had a blog before to start with a great looking site! I just want the blogging world to be eccentric and stand out.

I can make templates look cute, funky, business like, etc.

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I need to start looking for someone, or for new friends. The older I am getting, the quicker I am losing friends because they are moving on with their lives. They either find a significant other that occupies their time, they are moving on with greater and better things, getting engaged, or getting married, etc. So what does that leave me? Old and alone. So time to find Mr. Right, or new friends.

It’s hard to find single friends my age that are Arabs. 90% of them are married with 5 kids by now, and they are too preoccupied with family matters. And if you are not like them, or living a similar life like them, then you are not worth their time. They don’t want to deal with you or want a single friend around, especially around their husbands or boyfriends.

So what am I to do? I am sick of sitting home all day with no one to talk to. No one bothers to see how I am, or care to ask. Like really care to ask, out of their hearts, and not because they need something. They call me or SMS like crazy trying to find me because they want something. Why no one ever calls or messages me to ask me how I am? Maybe I am sick. Maybe I am dying. Do they care? No. No one does.

I just feel the days are just running by, and I am just watching. I keep asking my self, why me? What did I do to deserve this?

That’s why I am getting really irritated lately finding work. Because in my head, if I find a new job, I can find new friends, and new people to talk to. Something new. I just want to fill my time, and talk to people. The job hunt is making me so depressed and lonely. It got to the point where I ask my self, who will ever hire me again? What am I to do all day?

I keep trying to find something to do, other than write on this blog, but all I end up doing is reading books or watching TV. I don’t have the urge to do anything else or talk to anyone. I just feel that no one will ever understand what I am going through, and end up lecturing me or telling me their great life stories that makes me feel so low and insignificant in their eyes.

I am telling you, I doubt I will ever find work again. I quit my old job because I couldn’t stand working there anymore with the people there. However, I didn’t think that finding a job was that difficult. I quit the old job to give me a boost and better reason to find work. Yet, it is March now.

I can’t even go to the mall anymore or shop or anything. I just feel guilty if I ever buy anything. I am well off financially, but just the thought of buying anything makes me ask my self a million questions. Why am I buying this? Where am I going to wear this at? It is just getting frustrating that I am suffering from a horrible psychological disease again. No. Not depression. I suffer from that daily. However, now I am suffering from Trichotillomania.

If you are wondering what it is, I will explain it in simple terms. I keep pulling hair from my head from the roots. I do it uncontrollably and unconsciously. I used to do it way back, a few years ago, maybe 5 or 6 years ago, but now, I am at it again. My room is filled with hair. Long pieces of hair on my floor or in the family room. I just don’t stop. Why do I do it? Simple. My brain is actively thinking and won’t stop. The more I think, the more I end up pulling hair from the roots. It needs to stop!

I want it to stop. I want my life to change so bad. I am getting extremely frustrated.

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