The past week has been nutz. Since I have joined entrecard a month and a half ago, I have had crazy amount of different visitors. I love it! However, the problem is that I really want to answer every email, messages, and comments. I do read everything, and I try my best to answer as quickly as possible. So bare with me, if I didn’t answer you, it doesn’t mean I didn’t read it. I do read everything! It’s just if I step away from my computer for an hour I get swamped with emails. I love it, and at the same time I loose focus. Oh well, I need an email answering bot! That will solve my problem.

So don’t worry. I read it all! I will try to answer too. I have 20 read emails and I have answered like 5 in the past hour! I am so lazy. Sorry.

Also, I want new ideas and new suggestions from my readers. What do you want to improve with my blog? Any changes? Any additions to my blog? Different plugins maybe to enhance the site? Suggest and I will look into it. However, I am not changing the template! Not for another year! lool

I am really considering the auto bot email replier, but it won’t be personal at all, and it is a personal blog and I have to be personal.

I swear, blogging is a full time job. Answering emails and various questions takes half my day!

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I was stumbling and I saw this and I was like WTF. This is too funny. By the way, it is a REAL warning sign!

For any of those who have lost a child and you are sure they have been kidnapped, then check the circus!

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I have been visiting some blogs and I have seen a banner go around of “Blog about …. Day!”

All I can say, some people really want the attention and are so unoriginal and boring. I remember the day when I started something similar around October of last year, and all I got was pure criticism and hate sites about me from the same source.

So TODAY and only TODAY! Actually, at this exact hour of time, everyone has to blog about HOW BORING, UNORIGINAL, and PATHETIC other bloggers are.

LEARN TO BE CREATIVE!! It won’t kill you. Instead of wasting your time doing this people, please make better websites with better content!

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It has been a really long time now. Few months, maybe even years. Who knows. I lost count long time ago. At times I just feel that everything was wrong. That so many things happened that kept breaking apart. I tried to fix and glue it back together, and then, after a while, everything just fell and shattered to many pieces. Too many that nothing can put it back together.

At times I think that when everything shatters, the heart shatters as well.

What I mean is that I can’t force my self to like the idea of someone else in my life. I try to even just think of it as fun, but I can’t. I think I completely lost every emotion that has to do with loving someone again. Is it fear? At times I think it is fear of rejection again. Fear of wasting my time and life again. It is enough I wasted all these years, and now all I can do is nothing really. I am just living day after day. Nothing to look forward to. Nothing at all.

I have changed so much. Really a lot. I changed physically, mentally, and emotionally. I have become a person trapped in that distorted mirror. I keep looking at it and it changes the second I look at another place in that mirror. Nothing is staying put. Nothing is going as I have planned. That’s why I never plan anymore. I never look forward to anything anymore. I just don’t have the desire to do anything at all anymore.

I used to be really nice and very innocent. I lived life simply and just acted like everyone else. However, I kept getting pushed, and pushed till I no longer controlled my anger and emotions. I used to be really nice. I used to be a very different person. A person I want to be again and just think life is simple and just think that everything will be fine if I really thought it would be.

At times, without even thinking at all, I act the way I was without realizing it. I suddenly become nice, and compassionate to others with no reason. Sometimes I do feel that I am bipolar and I act as two different persons. I don’t even realize it at times, but I am trying a new thing. When I am mad and angry to not say a word. Just keep my mouth shut and accept anything and ignore it too. I can’t change anything or anyone. I cannot control anything but my self. I just have to accept life and just live day by day and maybe .. well no maybes. Seriously, how do you mend a broken heart?

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No offense to any Jordanian, but I am not. I keep getting added to Jordanian networks and labeled as Jordanian. I am flattered, but no. I am Palestenian and I have no relatives, or any relation to Jordan what so ever. I am Palestenian from way up north near Lebanon. Sorry to disappoint you guys, but who ever keeps saying I am and adding me to these networks, then please stop. I don’t want to be added to various country networks. I am just a member of a Palestenian network that has been started by the awesome Haitham Sabbah and a Palestenian community site and that’s it. I am not a member of anything else.

Also, I think for those bloggers who start networks such as that, don’t add any blog without the blogger’s consent please. I think it should be a privacy rule! Ask me first! If I didn’t sign up for it, then don’t add me! I choose where I want to belong, and no one makes that decision for me at all!

If there is a general Arabic network out there than it would be a lot better to join. That way I don’t get a specific group of people coming from one source to attack me or criticize my views. I don’t have time or the patience for that.

And yes, I am a stuck up Palestenian and proud of it. Most of you hate me, and I don’t care. I represent only my self as an Arab girl who happens to be of Palestenian origin. That’s it! I could have easily called my self a Rebellious Palestenian Girl, but I didn’t because I didn’t want nationality to be the main focus to what my site is about.

So remove me and make sign up forms from now on or email blog owners. Don’t just ADD THEM!

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