My life can’t get any quieter, and I can’t get any happier!

I am very happy right now that I don’t have to deal with anyone anymore. I feel that I finally have more time to focus on myself, which I have not done for many years. When I was younger, in my teens, I didn’t talk to too many people. However, I was focused and I knew exactly what I wanted. There were no distractions that swayed me from my objectives. After all the craziness of the past year, especially the past couple of weeks of discoveries, I finally feel free of people, and I don’t have to deal with them anymore.

I feel that the people I have met so far in life were great, but they taught me to finally be more picky and stop being nice for no reason. My problem was that I wanted people to like me in any way possible, because I never experienced it while I was growing up. Due to the fact that I lived in different countries and different cultures, I never felt that I belonged anywhere or people understood me.

However, I did far too many nice things in order for them to appreciate me. I was a bit naive, and really it is the way I am. I am way too nice, but now, I don’t want to be. I felt cheap and people only liked me because I did something for them. No one really liked me for who I am. Who am I anyways?

I think it took me 29 years to finally understand myself.

Therefore, I am happy. I am still nice, but not too much. I feel focused and know exactly what I want from life. I am more ambitious now, and I don’t feel that I need to convince others or talk to anyone in order for them to back me up with a decision. I feel that I can do it on my own. I learned from my mistakes, and I experienced many things. In the past, I used to always be afraid and naive. I was always too hesitant to make a decision. Now, I don’t think twice, and I don’t care what others think. I pick a path that I am comfortable with, and I stick to it. I make a final decision, and I feel no regrets.

Ah life… what a journey!

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I was flipping through the images on a Facebook group called, Photos from Precious Palestine, and I stopped on a certain photo that made me read it 3, 4, and 5 times.

They took everything from the Palestinian people, and when my poor people turned around and said, “We had enough! We will defend our selves and fight back,” then they get blamed and are labeled as terrorists.

I read it, and then I thought of my self. I turned to my selfish being and thought, “Is this a curse that is being passed on us Palestinians? Even some Arabs? Even me as a blogger?”

I write my thoughts, my opinions, and share it with everyone on my blog, but I am the one that gets blamed and ridiculed for it. It’s like I am supposed to shut the hell up when everyone is not in agreement with me. I have to shut up, stop writing, and suffer emotional pain because some idiot or two out there did not like what I said.

Where is the freedom of being a human being? The world is rapidly changing, science is explaining so many things, and technology is advancing at incredible rates. We are slowly trying to understand the world around us, we can even see photos now of the universe millions of light years away, but we are still arguing about the same issues and solving it the same way humans did since day one. When we fight, we make sure to hurt the other person in any way we can, either in a physical or mental way. That’s all we are cable of still mastering in utmost perfection.

When we start opening our minds to other possibilities than arguing, (who started it and what method should be used to annihilate the other), then we will advance as human beings to understand the world around us, and really use that God given intelligence to better humanity and just enjoy the journey of life.

Finally, as long as there is one Palestinian living in this world, the name Palestine will live on. Same goes for each of you out there from different nations, religions, and ideologies.

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When I got home yesterday evening, my mother came up to me and asked, “Do you think I lost weight?” I looked at her and said, “I don’t think so. You look the same to me.”

Then she continued on, “I know! I eat the same thing, wear the same clothes, and I don’t do anything different. Or maybe because I don’t eat bread much?”

I said, “Ok?”

My dad said to my mom, “So, which of your friends told you that you lost weight?”

Mom said, “Well, this and that said so.”

I said, “Maybe because they keep gaining weight, they think everyone else has changed too compared to them!”

My mom said, “How so?”

I said, “Simple. When you are no longer a similar size to them, they think you lost weight. However, in reality, they are the ones that have been gaining weight, and you are the same as you have always been.”

Mom said, “Maybe you are right!”

I said, “Don’t you Arab women or older women have better things to talk about??”

Mom said, “What’s there to talk about?”

I said, “Better than gossiping about other people. I give you credit for that!”

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This is part three of the year end manifestation of the life of my blog.

My blog this year won so many awards, that I don’t have enough fingers and toes to count them! NOT!! (Didn’t I sound cheesy and dorky like the rest of the bloggers out there?) But yes, my blog won a lot of invisible mind boggling awards. I won people’s readerships. That’s the biggest award I can get as a blogger. I don’t care about best blog, or best writer, or best anything. Who cares? It’s like winning a virtual banner to advertise someone else’s bright idea that started the campaign.

Really, if the prize was money based, then people will be all over it! I would be so all over it!

So, I am gonna list the top blog posts this year by comments, my favorites, and ones that I should have never published, but found their way online cause of my insomnia or excessive amounts of coffee!

Top Blog Posts 2009 | Comments & Reactions

1. April 28, 2009 | It’s a bird, it’s a plane, it’s a conspiracy theory!
2. June 7, 2009 | The Arab Blogorette
3. June 16, 2009 | I think it is time for change!
4. August 25, 2009 | Why are Muslims turning Atheists?
5. August 30, 2009 | Analysis: It is much harder to get rid of her
6. September 7, 2009 | Arabs marrying non-Arabs
7. September 18, 2009 | Window shopping for a bride
8. October 27, 2009 | Symbols of being different

Top Blog Posts 2009 | Monaism & Love

1. January 15, 2009 | Are good people always the victims of life?
2. March 31, 2009 | How accurate is this?
3. April 20, 2009 | Airports think I am a perv!
4. May 21, 2009 | A way to relieve stress
5. July 15, 2009 | Teaching a child the basics of the internet world
6. September 6, 2009 | No Comment
7. September 24, 2009 | I am sick and tired of looking for work!!! NO MORE!
8. December 4, 2009 | The typicals
9. December 26, 2009 | I am the master of my choices

Top Blog Pots 2009 | Those That Should Have Never Been

1. January 28, 2009 | The blogging world is run by monkeys
2. May 4, 2009 | I thought I held the title of taking things too seriously
3. June 20, 2009 | The media has been following me for over two decades
4. September 26, 2009 | I don’t like talking about sex in public

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This is part two of the year end manifestation of the life of my blog.

I am scared to look back. I am scared to look at the archives on this blog from January 2009 till this date. I have never complained so much about life as I did this year. This year, I complained more about life than having a stupid ass boyfriend. How sad is that?

The Complaints Department

• I complained about the past in all shapes and forms.
• I complained about an entire culture without regrets.
• I complained about looking for work and how unfair it is.
• I complained about friends.
• I complained about family.
• I complained about strangers.
• I complained about the way that I shouldn’t be thinking.
• I complained about you.
• I complained about me.
• I just can’t stop complaining. I just word vomit complaints.

Moreover, this uncontrollable habit of mine lead my visitors to have this one and only perception of who I am, that they think they are winning by using it against me every time I tell them off. Hello! I always admit that I complain too much every single time. Why are you stating the obvious? You couldn’t come up with anything better?

Oh, and for those that think my blog sucks, my writing sucks, and all I do is complain, then WHY THE HELL DO YOU READ IT DAILY!? You guys mystify me. I am serious. It’s like trying to get that hot girl across the street to like you no matter what, but you keep getting slapped on the face every time. And you continue on trying again the next day. When do you learn to give up? Things will not change THAT EASILY.

Enough complaining for now Mona (as in me.) I promise you that someday in the near feature, maybe in the next decade or two, my complaints will increase ten folds.

It’s great being a girl. I got excuses for everything!

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