1. If you are in charge, you don’t have to justify anything. You are in charge and you do what you want!

2. The world is slowly gearing to women in power. They have a lot of talent and bring personality to the team.

3. I like working with people. I really do because I think team work brings projects to life.

4. I am happy and I know it!

So how is everyone’s week? Mine was great. It was filled with happiness, drama, craziness, calmness, but in the end of the day, I feel ok. Odd I know, but I am trying to think the glass is half full!

Today I was told that no way I looked past 30. I said yeah! I should have been 50!

So that’s my story! Why don’t you tell me yours? What’s up with your lives my friend? Anything you care to share?

I am enjoying it for many reasons, but the primary reason because it is almost over! Worst year ever! But I just brush it off and move on. I don’t even remember what happened this year to make it memorable. I think I am just going to lay low today and sleep through next year. I honestly don’t care about celebrating any new year. I never did and I hate staying up.

I am so negative! But think about, according to my Capricorn 2012 forecast, 2012 will suck! I am going to sleep right though it and lay low this upcoming year.

Happy new years to everyone!

Wow, now that’s craziness to think about for today. Oh my God, I feel so relieved. It has been such hard few months. I have been working full time, taking these crazy ass courses and I have just been over whelmed and I have no life. No life what so ever!! Why am I doing all this I keep asking my self. Maybe cause I don’t want to be a follower. I never was really, and I do have serious problems with authority, but WE ALL KNEW THAT!

So, my goal from now on is to write on my blog, like all the time and blabber nonsense every day!

Today I was driving really fast, and then a line of little ducks decided to cross the street. I was like WHAT THE FUZZ! So I braked really fast and swerved sharply. I was like OMG! I would have been devastated if anything happened to them! Poor blind crazy duckies!

What else? Oh, I do enjoy the emails I get from guys asking me to help them find a nice Muslim girl and they give me their digits! I should be the middle lady between them and dating sites and get a nice 20% commission! It doesn’t seem they understand how to use a dating site, so they use me instead. Typical! Blah!

I wish I had some guy to talk to today. I felt like I needed to talk to someone and flirt a bit. I am pretty shallow and I just need some flattery in my life and I was in that mood today. I am so arrogant! Aghhh!! MONA STOP!

Ok, umm, what else? I’m enjoying going to the gym. I think I go like 5 or 6 times a week. A lot eh? But I am a lazy sloth, if I don’t go then I will lay on the couch watching the Food Network or some stupid show on TLC. I miss reading, I should read no? Books are more entertaining, well, more intellectual and make me feel smarter!

I am just rambling on and on. I got accused once that I have bad grammar, then 10 other “guys,” and I emphasize men here, said the same thing. Guys don’t like me, and they try to find any fault in my writing. They cannot argue back, so they say, “MONA, YOUR GRAMMAR IS HORRIBLE!” Really, what about that post where I wrote why women walk behind men? Or that other post where I talked about women being shallow in front of men and marrying anyone for the sake of getting married without thinking? Oh man, anyways, then I looked up to my left side and saw the hanging 40,000 dollar piece of paper that says Major in Computer Science, and then I reassured my self that I am no English major. I know, my university level of English is not as bad as psychology majors, and oh my God people, I have proof read psychology majors papers. Jeez!! The English massacre!

Blah blah blah.

Anyways, I can ramble forever, but you guys are sick of me already. Everyone is sick of me. I am loud, obnoxious, a bit crazy, but best of all, I am honest and I love to tell it like it is. You guys are beautiful lovely people, except you, and maybe you. You guys know who you are.

Was there a point to this blog post? I didn’t think so either.

Hence, for the other 50% that don’t socialize through social networks with me know better than to comment no my blog. I don’t comment or read your blog. Sorry. I am a horrible human being. I have the attention span of a molecule, and I don’t keep up. I don’t have an RSS reader. I don’t have a favorite blog anymore that I am obsessed with. Moreover, if my blog is your favorite, then I do apologize that I didn’t kiss you today and yesterday and the day before.

Anyways, what’s new with me? Well, I decided to the join the gym. After being a lazy ass for the past 2.5 years and stuck in job that I do not like, then I need to exhaust my self after work and release all my negative energy. So far so good. I release a lot!

On a happier note, summer is almost here!! And I want to go on vacation somewhere that is NOT in Canada! I need to renew my passport. Hmmm… that will take me another month of actually doing it because I am lazy and queen procrastinator. Also, I want to go somewhere where I can walk around. Like a huge ass city and I get to see people and go see things. I want to SEE things! I want to not CODE AT ALL or be on a computer!

Maybe I will find love in an exotic place. Wait, I need to stop day dreaming eh? Finding a nice Arab man in an exotic place? Yah.. ok. But I am serious. Maybe it is time I settle down with Mr. Right. Unfortunately, he has not found me yet. I think he may have gotten hit by a truck and my luck is over. Oh well, at least being single and not “committed” to anyone and no one to drive me crazy and control me is a good thing. I don’t like being controlled at all.

One person on Facebook told me that I am such a challenge to deal with and “the one” has to be handle a “tough” girl. Well, I am just very opinionated, always has been, and I like to make my own decisions. I also don’t like to be controlled or asked, “Where were you? Why did you buy this? Why you don’t listen to me?” BLAH BLAH BLAH! And then compares me to other “behaved” Arab girls who “listen” to their man. BLAH! You want to be treated the same? Cuz I can be a total bitch too.

ON A POSITIVE NOTE, I joined the gym. I wish someone went to the gym with me and we could have fun sweating together!

Love you all. Have a wonderful day! Thanks for reading my blog and being a good love. I wish I can talk and hug every single one of you.

I know I have bitched a lot in the past regarding my current employment. They drove me crazy, but I worked extremely hard at this job that majority of the time I worked overtime to get work done. Last week, I was at the edge and it was either me or them if the chaos didn’t change. I made that clear in an indirect way.

Several meetings later, I was told this in a tone of fear:

“Mona, please don’t go.”

They said it two times . . .

I demanded change, and quick change or else. I had several 100 reasons, and in the end, I enforced the change. I had to speak up because I didn’t want all my work to crumble into pieces because of stubborn people who won’t listen!

They made profit last year, 3 times more than the previous year and I knew it, but if I left, they wouldn’t be able to manage. I am sure of it because I have this mentality of extreme organization and rules. I am given a position that 3 people in traditional structured companies have. It was insane. They drove me insane.

So, today we had performance reviews.. yay.. took a year and a half since I started. It was more of bosses evaluation of us, and not self-evaluation at all. And at the end of it all, they talked about raises, and how the economy was bad, but they still survived through a recession as a company, blah blah. Then they said, you get X amount of money extra.

I was like

Wohoo!!!

Wow, I never got such an exponential raise before in my life! Boom shakalaka!

Lessons learned from all this:

1. Work really really really hard!
2. Prove your worth!
3. Raise your voice when you see things going wrong.
4. When rewarded, work even harder the next year!

I shall sleep peacefully tonight! And to celebrate.. I will do what little kids are doing now a days.. I will whip my hair back and forth!

Nonetheless, I cannot control the intertwined channels in my brain. I think way too much when I am doing nothing. I think about life, my life, and oh, a simple drop of tear finds its way down the channel of my cheeks. However, merely a few hours later, an inevitable smile bestowed its presence on my face just because …

This morning, I checked my Blackberry and I received two Facebook messages to my personal account from the opposite sides of the spectrum. Two Arab guys, that seem to know me or seen me around 10 ages ago and decided to message me out of the blue. One claimed that he saw me in downtown the other day and he had to turn back to have a second look. And the other seems to have seen me around UWO back when I was a teenager with half my wits! He then asked if I was married. And I replied with my well known attitude, “If I was, why would I even answer you?”

I realized that I am very lucky. Not because they made me laugh, but the thought that some people have started their new years resolution a bit too early this year. Or at least they want to be a bit daring, and try their luck in life, because you know, they got tired as well.

Good thing I don’t want to try, but I will enjoy the fact that there is still hope in this life and people won’t stop trying.

Stay tuned in the next couple of days when I do my 2010 review and what I wish for 2011!

I can’t believe it folks, but seriously,

1. 30 years and still kicking old school style! (my birthday)

2. 5 years and blabbering online and liking it. (blog birthday)

What have I learned?

Well, a lot of people have asked me over the blogging years what I have gained from all this. Well, simple. I gained nothing but a headache. However, you all know me, I like the attention and the insults. It just shows how badly the internet is infested with morons who like to throw their crap around. They really leave a bad smell and make me appear like an angel with flaming wings! (hungry?)

Ok ok!! Enough of being oh so negative! Today rocks, and you all know it. My blog has survived many hurdles. A lot of people told me to just ignore it. I did not do that in the beginning life of my blog on Dec 23, 2005. It was just a normal blog, talking about normal things. However, as days passed, a lot more people around me started pissing me off. They hated what I wrote on here, and I saw the true side of some people. That’s fine, and my true side was never hidden. I just elaborated it more on this blog with Arabic eloquence and grace.

Finally, all I can really say after my messed up post thus far is the following:

I thank every single one of you for reading my blog and joining the conversation. Over the years I tried many methods or different ideas to add to this blog. However, what I found that straight up one to many conversations are a lot better. (computer talk here!)

Thank you all. The haters. The lovers. Old friends who may or may not read this blog anymore. All of you, thank you. It’s the least that I can say to everyone.

P.S. If I win the lottery on Friday, I am turning this blog to a happy zone; otherwise, you are stuck with little old blabbering me!

“MOM!! I am going to be 30 soon!”

She disgustingly looked at me with her Arabic mother wrath and said, “AND YOU ARE HAPPY?”

I defended my age and said, “Yes, I will be 30. So what? What’s wrong with aging?”

She said, “people are never happy to age.”

I knew in the back of my mind what she was thinking. But it ain’t my fault I am going to be 30 and still living at this house, paying for all the home expenses cause no one else works here because the economy sucks and we are barely surviving, and my sister needs to grow up and have a normal life, not like me! Oh, did I mention I am going to be 30 and there is nothing wrong with that?

I said, “You know what. Life is not going to stop. We cannot stop time and stay in one age that we like. Some people who are dead didn’t have the opportunity to live a full life where got to live their childhood, their adult life or old age. A lot of people don’t get that opportunity. So I am HAPPY REACHING THIS FAR!”

I don’t care how many people make fun of me and mock my age. Even some people at work wonder why I still live at home or have not found “the one.” I never reply, and I honestly have more important things to worry about in my life than a number that is calculated by the rotations of the earth around the sun every 365 days of the year.

By the way, Happy first day of Winter! Winter is here and I survived another year to see it! Now that is the greatest gift of all.

P.S. My Birthday is on the 23rd. Totally Monalicious!

The joys of slowly working up the ranks and writing out IT job descriptions. Jeez louis! I am growing up.

I would hire you, but you know me, if you are a selfish bastard who thinks you are the smartest person on earth when it comes to IT related anything, then guess what, I don’t like you.

I should practice my skills and say, “YOU ARE HIRED!”