I guess being a blogger taught me a lot about life, especially friendships. You see, I feel that I am better off being friends with all of you, my daily readers, because the people I met in my life and was friends with for a short or even a long time really did not work out.

I don’t have a problem with people, but people have a problem with me and feel that they can use me or get whatever they want out of me, because I am too damn nice and selfless, and then treat me like left over bones. I am the last one on their list.

I don’t want to force anyone to make me one of their priorities in life. I am not selfish at all. I just feel that I am a bit more worth it. I want to feel that someone really appreciates my friendship because of the person I am. I am tired of people taking advantage of me or only think of me as a friend when they need something.

It’s funny the number of people that went after me, pretty much hounded me just so they can ask me for something. It sucks, and that’s the reason I am afraid or just unsure if I can ever trust anyone. However, virtually, through this blog, I feel that some of you people out there are a lot more appreciative of who I am. You are more appreciative and willing to listen to me and converse. I never experienced that before with any of the friends I had in the past.

No one ever wanted to listen to me, and I just kept it inside and stayed quiet. That’s why I am a very quiet person in real life. I try to talk, but I don’t know who to trust and if they are really willing to listen to me. It’s really hard to find a friend to listen to you, and that’s why I feel that all of us are living in the wrong places. Fortunately, this blog brought all of you and I together. So I feel a bit better I guess and not alone.

I know I am late in posting a song that I am enjoying listening to this week, but here it is. This song inspired me, and I really like the lead singer of OneRepublic. He is cute!

“All The Right Moves” by OneRepublic

If life is biting you in the ass, believe me, don’t let it knock you down.

If you fell in love with the wrong person and you got hurt because of them, believe me, don’t let it knock you down.

If you are extremely ill and feel like your body is about to give up, believe me, don’t let it knock you down.

I encourage you to wake up tomorrow morning and say, “I won’t let anything knock me down!”

The other day I was listening to a mix of last year’s songs and I came across Keri Hilson’s “Knock You Down.” As I was listening to it, I got inspired to write this post. I think I need to encourage my self, me, as in the pessimistic little old me, that I won’t let anything affect me anymore. I won’t let those things knock me down and put me in a horrible mood.

That’s the spirit eh!! I wrote something positive today and it made me super duper happy!

The song of this week that I have been raving about on Twitter is Michael Jackson’s “What About Us?”

I know the song is about nature and what humanity has done to it, but what caught my attention is toward the end of the song. The end of the song emphasizes on the Holy Land, and the innocent people that are dying, because they are attached to the land.

Why can’t humans ever accept that we are part of the earth, and we stay dear to it with all our hearts and souls. I wish I was in Palestine. I wish I was living there and knowing that I am fighting for it. This land, so alluring and captivating, makes it worth fighting for.

I was watching Jeopardy yesterday, and one of the questions was pertaining to one of Alfred Hitchcock’s movies Oscar winning song with the words “When I was just a little girl.” Obviously, I knew the answer and said to myself, “Gosh! I haven’t heard that in a long time.” So I picked it for this week’s Tuesday music tune.

I have a very eccentric selection of songs that are stuck in my head. I don’t like a certain genre only, and I always memorize and only listen to songs that have a meaning behind it. The music is moving, the words make you think, and everything about the song is chilling. It also gives you comfort that someone else out there thinks like you.

This song I know by heart, because I used to hear it when I was little, and now as I am way older, I still listen to it when I am contemplating life, and wondering what the hell is wrong with me.

So, what is wrong with me? Why am I not like other girls and have the same ideology as them? I may have the same questions, but my answers are way different. However, like everyone else, I rather live my life as whatever will be will be.

I enjoy listening to this version the most. I like the blues… and I just need a glass and a sheesha to go along with it to complete the mood.

Ps. I don’t drink or smoke. However, most people think I do because I am always out of it all the time!

I want to start a new trend this year. Every Tuesday, I want to post a song based on my mood or situation for the week. Today, I will start off this trend by Lady Gaga’s (@ladygaga) latest song, “Bad Romance.”

When this song first came, I was like holy shit! Someone is singing the TRUTH! How many of you were caught in a bad romance, and you just didn’t know how to get out of it? How many of you know people that are currently in a bad romance, and all you can do is just watch and see when it will end; peacefully one hopes though!

Gosh! Since this song came out, all I can repeatedly say in my head.. “Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah! Rom-mah-rom-mum-mah! GaGa-oo-la-la!..” Then I cough in the end of that and say.. “ewww.. that was such a bad romance!”

This is part four of the year end manifestation of the life of my blog.

I have continually suffered this year from the well known blogger epidemic: the writer’s block. Oh dear! Last night, as I was looking back through the archives of this year, I noticed a considerable gap between posts, and an average of 20 – 25 posts a month. I used to go up to 40, 50, or even over 70 per month the past years. What happened to me?

I will tell you what happened, I became less of a maniac writer every time I got mad, and more of a take a deep breath before you word vomit anything bloggerette. (Plus I slept a lot more this year!) I tried too hard this year to not write things that will make me delete it a day or two after. I have done that a lot in the past. Sometimes I didn’t know when I crossed the line. I had many of “should have never been” posts. This year, not too much.

Anyways, I wrote enough for today. My new year’s resolution for my blog next year, if I am stuck and can’t write anything proper, to sing a song instead.

Sing with me my lovely watchers!

I say Reb, you say Rebellious!
You say what? Rebellious Mona!
You say what? Rebellious Mona!

I say gurl, you say Rebellious!
You say who? Rebellious Girl!
You say who? Rebellious Girl!

I say Arab, you say Really????
You say who? Rebellious Arab Girl!
You say who? Rebellious Arab Girl!

I say change, you say When??
I say now!
You say when? I say now!
You say Where? I say here!
You say Where? I say HERE!

*yawn*

This is a better thing to listen to:

This is part three of the year end manifestation of the life of my blog.

My blog this year won so many awards, that I don’t have enough fingers and toes to count them! NOT!! (Didn’t I sound cheesy and dorky like the rest of the bloggers out there?) But yes, my blog won a lot of invisible mind boggling awards. I won people’s readerships. That’s the biggest award I can get as a blogger. I don’t care about best blog, or best writer, or best anything. Who cares? It’s like winning a virtual banner to advertise someone else’s bright idea that started the campaign.

Really, if the prize was money based, then people will be all over it! I would be so all over it!

So, I am gonna list the top blog posts this year by comments, my favorites, and ones that I should have never published, but found their way online cause of my insomnia or excessive amounts of coffee!

Top Blog Posts 2009 | Comments & Reactions

1. April 28, 2009 | It’s a bird, it’s a plane, it’s a conspiracy theory!
2. June 7, 2009 | The Arab Blogorette
3. June 16, 2009 | I think it is time for change!
4. August 25, 2009 | Why are Muslims turning Atheists?
5. August 30, 2009 | Analysis: It is much harder to get rid of her
6. September 7, 2009 | Arabs marrying non-Arabs
7. September 18, 2009 | Window shopping for a bride
8. October 27, 2009 | Symbols of being different

Top Blog Posts 2009 | Monaism & Love

1. January 15, 2009 | Are good people always the victims of life?
2. March 31, 2009 | How accurate is this?
3. April 20, 2009 | Airports think I am a perv!
4. May 21, 2009 | A way to relieve stress
5. July 15, 2009 | Teaching a child the basics of the internet world
6. September 6, 2009 | No Comment
7. September 24, 2009 | I am sick and tired of looking for work!!! NO MORE!
8. December 4, 2009 | The typicals
9. December 26, 2009 | I am the master of my choices

Top Blog Pots 2009 | Those That Should Have Never Been

1. January 28, 2009 | The blogging world is run by monkeys
2. May 4, 2009 | I thought I held the title of taking things too seriously
3. June 20, 2009 | The media has been following me for over two decades
4. September 26, 2009 | I don’t like talking about sex in public

Tell me your first reaction to this mini movie about Jerusalem, Palestine. There is no talking in it. Just music, beautiful landscape, and people.

The movie is called “La7n el 3awdah.” And if I can translate that properly, it means something like, “The Tune of Return.”

I was deeply moved near the end of this video, and I couldn’t hold a tear. That’s me! Miss emotional!

I thought about making a campaign video, then I thought, why should I? Someone already did!

This video is so REBELLIOUS!

Who is gonna run this town tonight?

ME!

I came across this video while checking out my peepz Facebook profiles, and they shared this amazing new song for Palestine in English. Visit (www.maherzain.com) for more information about this singer.

Awakening Records is pleased to announce the release of the world’s first animated peace music video on Palestine. Palestine will be Free’ is performed by Awakening’s latest music sensation – Maher Zain.

This is the first time an animated peace music video has been produced on Palestine: “We are recognised as pioneers and constantly pushing the bounds of creativity and innovation. This animated music video for our new star artist Maher Zain is just another step in that direction and certainly not the last”, said Bara Kherigi, Director of Awakening Records. Destined to be an international success, the video features the story of a young brave Palestinian girl who never loses hope for a better future despite the harsh realities surrounding her.