Hear ye! Hear ye!! Survey Survey!

Real Name: Mona.
Any nicknames? Mun Mun.
Date of birth? 12/23/80
Age? 30

Height? 5’7″ or 170cm.
Shoe-size? 9 – 10 (depends on the shoe style).
Eye color/any contacts or glasses? Brown eyes, and contact lenses.
Hair color/natural or dyed? Brown.
Describe yourself with 4 words: loner, quiet, confident, tenacious of events from the journey of my life.
How do people often describe you? Nice, energetic, helpful.
Best qualities? Punctual, good listener, patient.
Any worst qualities? Arrogant, melancholy, over analytic.
Hobbies? Reading, writing.

Do you like your family? As I grow older, yes.
Any siblings? One brother, one sister. I am the middle child.
Any divorces with parents? No.
Strict family, or just carefree? I am Arab. Fill in the correct blank! But since I live in Canada, they are meh.. normal I guess.
Family member you seem closet to? None.. as long as they don’t bother me, I love them even more!

Do you like taking the lead in a relationship? Yes. I like to dominate… but if the guy is tougher than me, then oh boy! I can’t wait to find such a guy.
Be the first to kiss someone? No.
Ask them out/tell them you like them first? Hmm.. depends.
Do you usually ‘break the ice’ during awkward silences? No.. I probably caused the awkward silence! lol

What kind of physical features do you find appealing in men: Height, physical features, facial expressions, and goatee!
Long/short hair? Short.
Freckles? I don’t care.
Dimples? Cute if he has some.
A good smile or a good laugh? Both.
Tanned or fair skin? Hmm.. doesn’t matter.
Athletic or lanky? Athletic.
Classy or casual clothes? Both.
How important are looks to you? I would be lying if I said otherwise. But my arrogant side tells me that I am not ugly, so why should I end up with one who is?

What kind of personality[ies] do you find appealing: Strong, confident, thinker, helpful, caring about everyone and humanity in general.
Naughty or nice? Both!
Mysterious or just fun to be with? Mysterious because I want to actually have many conversations to figure out the mystery.
Brains or brawl type of guy? Both!
How would you feel about a guy crying in front of you? Hmm.. depends on the situation.. but it does feel awkward sometimes.
Sensitive or tough guy? Both.
Innocent, deep, or macho? Deep.
How important are personalities to you? Who are you if you don’t have one? I like unique strong personalities. If I didn’t have a personality, I wouldn’t Rebellious Arab Girl!

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You know, as a computer programmer I was ridiculed a lot as being an abnormal girl. Why am in this profession? I have been called a million and one geek related names. But honestly, being a programmer is a very depressing job and it turned me into this over analytic person that thinks of a million and one solutions to one problem.

Is it a solution or just a million and one different ways that are relatively the same but coming from different angles to approach one problem? Yes, that makes no sense, but nothing in my head makes sense right now.

This is how I perceive life. There are a million and one way to do anything. I cannot for the life of me find the simplest solution to any thought. I just can’t. I think that is why I am always gloomy and depressed, and then suddenly bam! I am happy without a reason.

To continue from yesterday’s post, I am not happy, because I always think what if. What if? What if what? What if this worked? What if this failed? Why this? What that? Why me?

Oh I am such a depressing blog read. Go surf another blog that talks about politics or celebrities. Because I am not popular and I get no one ever emails me, and I am just an Arab and politics is not a problem in my culture.

You can feel the sarcasm eh? Har har.

I am going far away to TV land to watch American Idol and enjoy my evening in one and only one way with eyes glued to the TV screen, and ears open enjoying the melodies.

I will have a little answer question blog post tomorrow. So if you have a dying question to ask me, then message me on Facebook, Twitter, or Email me direct through my blog’s contact page.

With love, from a rebellious exhausted Arab girl.

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I have never felt I needed to be proud of anything in my life. I always felt that I should be proud of just me, and that’s about it.

Then over time, especially for the past few weeks, I felt that I more than that. I need to represent something bigger and better. I have been getting overwhelming responses and comments from my blog, Twitter, and on Facebook of how appreciative people are of me. Not only that, I feel like I connected and I no longer have this huge façade between my self and the rest of the world.

However, today, I felt differently. I felt that I am happy to be outspoken. I am happy of my accomplishments in life and drive to succeed. As an Arab, Muslim, and Palestinian I am happy to represent those groups in any way that I can.

I may have complained a lot in the past, and I questioned far too many things about being an Arab, but I had my reasons and I never regretted a moment of it. I just want to be very successful and very happy without the cultural imposed ideologies that stand in my way and are questionable. I have this will power to represent my self and everything that makes me Mona. The immigrant, the Palestinian, the one who suffered so much growing up and moving from one country to the other, from school to school, the people surrounding me, the mentalities that hurt me, and from a different life to be accustomed to another.

I am stable now. A bit depressed still, but I have dreams, I have huge aspirations, and I am not giving up. I don’t want to give up anymore and I want to live my life knowing that I accomplished something and I represented something at a high level. It’s hard for many to understand my drive and energy. It is not selfish, but I want to be something. I want to be different, opinionated, and holding the largest whatever in my hands without some one or anything stopping me.

I am tired of being pushed around, looked down upon and doubted, and frankly speaking, I am tired of an image imposed by everyone else on me. Only I can make that image and then you decide. I think it is only fair no?

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But pleasure got it back!

Anyways, forget that horrible cliche title. I want to know what you think of me by the following quotes that I adore. Do my favorite quotes really reflect who I am?

“Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon ‘em.” -William Shakespeare

“Change your thoughts and you change your world.” -Norman Vincent Peale (1898 – 1993)

“We have no choice of what color we’re born or who our parents are or whether we’re rich or poor. What we do have is some choice over what we make of our lives once we’re here.” -Mildred D. Taylor

“The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function. One should, for example, be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise.” -F. Scott Fitzgerald

“A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.” -Herm Albright

“When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened” -Winston Churchill

“If you wait to do everything until you’re sure it’s right, you’ll probably never do much of anything.”

“If you don’t like the way the world is, you change it. You have an obligation to change it. You just do it one step at a time.” -Marian Wright Edelman

“I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.”
-William Ernest Henley

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Dear lovers,

I finally decided that since you are all oh so kind and want to call me so badly because emails are just not enough, that I will post a phone number for you to reach me.

Also, that goes for everyone.

Love you all!

You are calling long distance to Canada!

1-226-289-9966

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