I always wondered what my ultimate wish would be, and I know for sure it is not world peace. Because you and I know that peace is out of the question and the world will and always be in chaos. So forget about that, this is no beauty pageant.

So, maybe it is not wishes that I want or even dream of. I think it is more of small little gratifications that I seek. Like peace of mind, living a simple and quiet life, and doing things that I love to do on a daily basis. But, if I had all that, wouldn’t I still feel like I need something or I really have to have something in order for my life to have more meaning?

Maybe I am thinking too much here. But I need to write stuff out more often. The past year I have been bottling up emotions and I feel like I am 20 years old and afraid to talk. And why am I afraid to talk? This is a blog and I don’t know why I am holding back those emotions, from like the WHOLE world!

I am not afraid to talk anymore, but at the same time, is talking too much a good thing?

Oh well, at least I feel better that I said what I had to say and really, why am I afraid of?

Nothing.

Advice, Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, Whatever!

Sometimes I feel so low and so depressed, but something about having this site that I can’t resist. It’s like an infectious disease and it will just not go away that easily! You know what it is?

If you are really smart and you have been reading my blog for a long time then you would know what I am talking about.

This is what I love:

Your Name: sarmad
Email: xxxxxxxxxxxxx@yahoo.com
Website: http://

Message:
hi ,,,,,,,,,,,,,i want to chat some girl ,,,,,,,,,,but only arab….

You guys keep me alive and wanting to love life day by day, night by night, and year by year. Oh spammers, you put a smile on my face and you keep the web alive!!

Now I feel like singing a song!! The words are just vomiting out uncontrollably as a result of a bad internet hangover!

Rebellious Arab Girl Song:

chorus
I love spam.
I love spam.
Oooh baby.. I love spaaam!!

Yaaaaaa!!

chorus repeat

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!

I made this blog long ago
To capture all you spammer’s galore
You always put a smile on my face
When life is sinking me down the hole

chorus repeat

You make me say crazy things
That I would never do or think about
But you guys are the reason for my change
And wanting to always knock you out

I always love my crazy blog days
That have no premise or a plot
You make me want to vomit words
That are nothing other than crap

repeat chorus

Yes, you spammers are the best
Oh baby, just the best
But I will always detest your presence
Because you are nothing but nasty pests!

And yes, I would sing this stupid song better than Rebecca Black’s Friday! I would have more emotions, charisma, dramatic facial expressions, and not look like a dumb ass teen!

Blah Blah, My taste of Music, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!, Thank you, They said what?, Whatever!

I am blocked from writing.. what’s up with that?

Back soon when it is not blocked!!

Love you guys!!

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Blah Blah, Culture, Random Thoughts

The other day I was being a curious individual, searching Google looking for other perspectives of the issue of unmarried girls over 30, especially in Islam and the Arab culture. I was curious to know what others have said and what they are thinking. I was also curious to know if it mattered or it is a sin to choose not to, or is it only a sin in eyes of a culture and just looked down upon.

I wanted to know if it is something that we did wrong or is society thinking we are wrong. Because I don’t like to define wrong unless I tried what is right first or vice versa.

So I read several girl’s blogs complaining that people think they only care about their careers or education and think they don’t need a man. Or they look down on men that don’t think their intelligence is important in a marriage, and that’s why they hold on to it and think it is more important than anything else.

I have to disagree with that whole thought process because I was a victim of such accusations, but I never understood the reasoning behind it. When random men email me accusing me of the same thing, then I pause to reflect on such a thought. Do I care more about my career than meeting a guy?

• I knew girls that cared about getting married than anything else in the world.
• I knew girls that are intelligent but cared more about school and work than marriage.
• I knew girls that found equality between both marriage and career but suffered later by neglecting their children.
• I knew girls that got educated, got married and forgot that they are smart enough to be someone and contribute to society in some way.

However, I never met someone that didn’t care about work or a career and are only in it because they don’t know what else to do, and just dream that some day things will just get better.

Some of us girls, no matter how smart we are and educated, don’t really think that life is that great or work is that amazing or we are doing something astonishing. We are just waiting and trying to make the best of something we have and keeps us busy. How long, why, and how we ended up this way is really pointless to discuss.

I just feel this shame that our society puts on unmarried girls is psychologically deteriorating a large and very growing percentage unwed females. I wish society didn’t contribute anymore harm and just let life take its course. It’s hard changing society I know, but no harm in trying.

Blah Blah, Culture, Depressed, Random Thoughts, They said what?, Whatever!

I am curious to know YOUR view point about the revolutions going on in the middle east.

1. How do you view the events so far and  the leaders who are resisting and killing their people?

2. What do you think the future holds for the middle east?

Please add your comment below and let’s discuss this like civilized people!

Advice, Blah Blah, Culture, Random Thoughts, They said what?, Whatever!