I need to learn to focus.

It is probably the hardest thing I have struggled with in my entire 30 years. I am easily distracted, and I am the one that causes these distractions. I feel life is too short to just do one thing at a time, so I go over board and end up doing too many things at once, then I exhaust my self and end up dead tired and unmotivated by 5pm. It is sad, but I need a new routine in life.

I solved one problem by acting like my true blunt self today, went up my boss and told her, “I NEED TO FOCUS! STOP GIVING ME TOO MANY SIDE PROJECTS AND EXPECT ME TO GET ANOTHER HUGE PROJECT DONE! I WANT FOCUS FOR JUST ONE DAY!”

That went well! Yikes! No wonder managers are afraid of me!

So, I know many of you have emailed and messaged me on Facebook saying to stop talking about work if I don’t like it and just look for another job. Yeah, jobs are all lined up for me waiting with just a snap of my finger for me to say, “Yeah Baby! Booya!” Reality bites, and I live in a city where technology is just a secondary source to do business.

On a more positive note, yaaay! I am positive and focused. Beat that suckers!

Oh, side note! For those marketers that keep emailing me asking me to put up poker ads or sex toys advertisements on my site, really need to get a reality check! Arabs don’t gamble publicly and have a great poker face when they go home at night, and they don’t need sex toys, they always have a whip or belt ready at their disposal!

Also, what’s up with the Saudi lady posting her driving skills on YouTube? You break a messed up law, you will get arrested. She was being way too rebellious and kind of stupid. Women throughout the world have fought for their rights, and maybe KSA is the last country to consider women as anything but mere objects, but posting on YouTube is not “the modern way” of expressing your self in such a strict convoluted man ruled society. There are other ways you know. Like don’t get married. Period. Or abstain from sex! Lower the birth rate! And since women live longer than man, then the problem will be solved in 50 – 60 years!

Oh, umm.. there are other problems in the world about the Palestinians and Israels and all these peace talks, but I donno. I refrain from politics on my blog. Maybe some day in my life time I will visit my real home, the holy land. Until then, people need to find a way to get along and stop using hatred and negativity as the main driving force for peaceful talks.

By the way, I only know about world news from people I follow on Twitter. It is easier to read blurbs from others than reading or watching politically biased news reports.

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Lots of hugs and kisses on this Tuesday evening! Mwaaah!!

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I hope I mentioned this in earlier posts, but remember my bro was here last week? So was my aunt and cousin. However, I always wondered why my mom thinks the way she does. She has such an Arab mentality that drives me insane. She won’t change or ever get accustomed to a different thought process. We have been living in North America since 1992 and some mentality and thought process is still glued to a different world! Akh!! Even THAT world is changing or trying to change and the older Arabs HAVE NOT! This causes a serious conflict!

So, I was hanging out with my aunt for a couple weeks, she came from Lebanon, so I learned a lot!

They are all the same. I am serious. Nothing has changed where ever you live. My mom the same as her. I feel like I still live in a bubble with that mentality around me. All they talked about is married and unmarried girls. Virgin and non-virgin girls. What is right and what is wrong. Blah blah blah! It drove me insane. What world do we still live in?

Thank God no one picked on me, cause they know better. I don’t like Arab mentality. I like Arab morals and ethics, and that’s it. Anything else that is so tabooed in the culture drives me insane. I have seen Arab TV shows, music videos, etc. They are FILLED with sex and exposing women to the extreme. No wonder Arabs are so agitated and do everything wrong in secret.

You can say that I am not  really a supporter for what Arabs do that is wrong. I have done many wrong things in my life too, but I will never write about it on my blog. However, I have no reason to judge their life choices. I mean common! It’s human nature. Don’t Arabs have human emotions too? Learn that people! We have EMOTIONS too! However, from the number of divorced and unhappy cousins that I have, you either marry them off to any guy that will import them to a different country or let them soak in their rooms till some older desperate guy is willing to marry them.

I am neither, do don’t worry. I am stubborn as goat!

I think it is our problem, and not theirs. I feel that the generation gap between our parents and us is far greater than what I thought. Usually generation gaps are not so bad, but for Arabs, generation gaps mean night and day. I think it is what we are exposed to in this day and age is far greater than any other traditional conservative generation has ever had to endure. To me I don’t care if I kiss a guy or not. At the same time, I do care and say what the frigg when I see two Arabs making out in public in a very explicit way. So it is more of a middle ground and how I interpret things.

I lived here long enough that I don’t get shocked that easily. Everything is just there and I say whatever. I just want to find a happy medium. I have not found it yet, and I never will. I will just live with it. Complain about it. And I hope someday my grammar improves so I can whine some more about it when some company is willing to accept a rebellious Arab girl as their next short story author. It will never happen, but only pray for me! I want to quit my day job and be an Arab culture critic. Oh the possibilities!

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Where do I even begin this one?

I know many of you have viewed me as the “pessimist,” but I can’t help being me. I am just this type of person. Surprisingly, there are many things that make me happy. I get excited really quick, and about just the little things really. Maybe that’s why I am a pessimist because I view certain huge things as annoying obstacles or just whatever you know. But the cute little things just make me oh so happy!

For example, I get excited when I buy new electronic gadgets. It drives me to extreme happy mode. It is insignificant, selfish and materialistic happiness, but dammit, we do what makes us happy. Even if they are things that cost an arm and a leg.

I also get excited when I see happy fun people. I don’t get jealous or say, “what the fuck is wrong with them?” No, I like to share their joy and excitement. I don’t know why, but I feel I want to be part of their joy in order to be joyful as well. Sounds gay and totally stupid, but it works.

However, if it makes you guys happy to send me emails (like this morning from subscribed fans) to tell me that you want to have fun and a fucking good time, then you need to wake up from your dream land, because that ain’t happening buddy. You guys are serious FOBS who can’t even write English, nor have respect to women. But oh, I am a pessimist again. You guys need to make me happy and joyful, not fucking annoyed.

Selfish people. Learn to be happy! (Rolling my eyes, and lying through my teeth!)

So, what makes you people happy? Cuz I need to feel the happy vibe in order to stay happy. Don’t you guys want me to be happy? Happy is happy does!!

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This post may sound a bit blunt, but hey, I don’t care and I never do. Anyways, there are two things that really piss me off from two extreme types of people, especially Arabs: the religious fanatics and the political adversaries.

Why I don’t like them, actually I hate them and that’s why I am like fuzz people, why can’t you spend your time doing something better with your life instead of arguing these things day and night. No one cares and here is why:

Religion

I don’t care about religion. I think religion is from the heart and it is something we accept and we practice to please our selves and God. Why do I have to please you? Who the hell are you?

Politics

Last time I checked not every single one of you went to University or College to study some type of political sciences. Yet, the majority of you are political analysts, and you want to drag me into this. Hello, middle east, I don’t care!! No one cared about my Palestinian people as they have been suffering for over 60 years! You guys know shit about politics, yet all you guys do is talk about it like no tomorrow. Everyone wants to be a political critic. Political critics my ass! If it was that easy, humanity would have not or still not be suffering in some form or another politically, and even socially. So shut up, you don’t know any better.

P.S. I still love you guys, but you really piss me off.

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I always wondered how one portrays their confidence without being called arrogant. I am not sure where to even begin. If one has any form of over confidence, they label them as arrogant. So if one is arrogant, would people would think they are confident?

What do you think? Have you ever been labeled arrogant but all you really meant to be at that situation just a bit over confident. It is more of a protective and stubborn state of mind, nothing more.

And the final question! Do you guys really think I am arrogant or just confident enough to seem that I am arrogant?

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