Last night I had a really weird dream. I always have weird dreams, but I try to always find a meaning to the symbols in it, but this one was hard for me to understand.

I dreamt that my tooth hurt, and I tried so hard to take it out with my bare fingers. I ended up taking the tooth out and throwing it a dirty bowl. The tooth had blood stains, and the root of the tooth was black. It was in perfect condition, no decay, but just black root.

My mouth was gushing blood from what I did. It wouldn’t stop. Then I ended up near a couch and fainting. Many people surrounded me, but I don’t know who they were. They tried to help me and stop the bleeding. Some kept saying you finally got rid of the black. Finally. Then, they left.

I woke up and I was in a room with many girls. Each one was busy, but I noticed that my mouth was still bleeding, but I got up and just looked around. The girls seemed familiar and some I knew, but others I didn’t. Each one was doing something that I can’t remember now. Maybe talking to someone or reading or studying. I wasn’t sure. So I just walked around trying to talk to someone, but they didn’t even look at me. No one talked to me because they couldn’t see me or maybe they are just ignoring me.

Then, I woke up and I can’t remember any other details.

So what does it mean?

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And I gathered my people and we marched with our heads high to boycott Valentines Day again like we do every year.

The tradition is still alive and will continue forever and ever.

Don’t you love me for that?

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When you only slept for two hours last night, and suffered all day from a headache, then you are acting 100% like a drunken fool. Two cups of coffee, and two cups of tea minus sleep makes a person see stars in the middle of the afternoon.

I think I am semi-normal now and back to my insomnia and extra caffeine intake. I am back to the Mona you people love. Let’s see how long I will last being like this again. I still got a few brain cells active that haven’t been totally lost.

Oh.. The smell of hot coffee permeating my office is a pleasure to my soul. I wish I can share this moment with someone.

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I wonder how it feels to talk to someone. Like really talk to someone and them listening to you. I don’t think anyone has ever done that for me before..

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People. People. People.

People piss me off, because there are two types of them. The good ones that stand by your side and are always honest with you, and the other type that are full of crap. However, I like neither. Why? Because I am Mona. I don’t label people. I don’t need to label anyone or put people in groups. I don’t even care what people think of me anymore or what they say. Why the headache and useless talk?

People in this world only care about one person, and that’s themselves. The day that I see someone actually giving two shits about someone else, is the day I will surrender the name Rebellious and close down this site. Until that imaginary day comes, I will continue telling people that they are not worth a germ on my skin.

Seriously, from now on people,

• Don’t email me your sappy stories thinking I will solve them, I am not a psychiatrist.
• Don’t email me asking why I wrote this, or wrote that, because honestly, I don’t give a shit about what you think of me.
• Don’t bother writing a comment that is more than two paragraphs long, I don’t read them.
• Also, don’t bother asking what is wrong with me, just ask your self, because the answer is simple, you are the problem.
• You should feel special, really.

I suggest to you with all honesty, in order to survive in this jungle that we live in, is to stand up straight, raise your head up high, and tell your self this: I am the only one that is worth it. No one else but me.

Oh, by the way, I am back to insanity mode. Who wants to join the clique of the only ones in this world that actually give a crap about their pride, dignity and position in life?

Maybe I have always been the selfish insane one all along and never changed. Who knew? Insanity paid off. I remained the person I am, which was fine all along. Who knew? I don’t have to convince my self to change at all. Not at all … I am fine and dandy just the way I am.

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