It can’t be true! I got an email from DJ Hecktic saying that he made this song in my honour. It is beautiful! I am so humbled!

I just can’t believe that someone would actually spend the time to make a song for me!

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Later I will make a video with it!

My taste of Music, They said what?

I went to my message therapist today, and obviously we talked. I talk a lot. I used to never ever talk, but from having a blog, working with a lot of crazy people in my job, and being ever so articulate, I became a chatter box. I now initiate conversations because I am bored and I want to actually know how others think. Maybe one day I will discover the meaning of normal human beings by actually talking to them.

So, we talked, and the topic came up of me knowing languages. I told her I am bilingual, but I also know Spanish but I don’t speak it anymore, because there is no one to speak it with. So she asked me what languages I speak. I said, “Arabic.” She said, “that is so nice. Is it similar to another language?” I said, “well, maybe Persian, but not really. We are kind of separate from the rest of the world.”

Then she asked me about head scarfs and Arab women wearing it. I said, “yah.. I guess conservative Arab Muslims do, but not me.” She said, “so what about arranged marriages. I think it is so interesting.” I said, “aah…. no. It’s a blind date that won’t ever go away.” She said, “I would have loved going on a blind date. I never did, and I always wanted to.”

I thought to my self, this chick is nuts. She is a year older than me because she told me that it was so awesome to be an 80′s child and being so young. I then thought, this chick is seriously nutz. So, then she asked me, “well, so how old were you when you came to Canada? You are fluent.” I said, “way too young, and I am bilingual.” She said,”but it’s hard for other Arabs to come and learn a new language. Especially from arranged marriages.” I said, “yah, bringing someone from the Arab world is not so bad. Everyone speaks English now. It’s like mandatory.” She said, “it’s funny how you keep saying Arab world.” I thought to my self, I do say that a lot, so I replied saying, “well, I guess Arabs have their own world!”

Then I told her that my mom and sister are in Lebanon to visit the entire family but will be back soon, but I am not Lebanese but Palestenian. She said, “well, oh. So, you are like so diverse. So why is your entire family in Lebanon?” I said, “well, because I was a Palestenian refugee, and my entire family is still in Lebanon.”

She paused a bit, and didn’t know what to say for a minute. I said, “so you don’t know what happened to Palestinians?” She said, “no clue. I don’t know anything about that area at all.” I sat there contemplating what to say or how to react. I said, “so you know nothing about the Palestenian and Israel conflict?” She said, “no clue.” I said, “well, in 1948 Israelis came and claimed the land. They kicked out 700,000 Palestinians from their homes. Some went to Lebanon, Syria, and Jordan.” She said, “how in the world can they kick out 700,000 people at that time?” I said, “well, there were more that got kicked out later in 1967.” She said, “so how many?” I said, “well, there are about 4 or 5 million Palestinians now in the entire world, and over half of them are still refugees.”

She said, “I can’t believe it! Why in the world? Are they still fighting?” I said, “yep. We are biblical people who just love to fight each other!”

I couldn’t believe it that she had NO clue at all about what’s going on in the middle east. Not even who is fighting who or why. I am still shocked. I think I read a lot of news and too much history because I know too much shit that is going on in the world, especially in war torn countries. Not only that, I read a lot of history of Palestine. I think I am obligated to as a Palestenian to know everything about my people and country and what’s going on in the entire middle east.

However, I honestly envied her. She didn’t have to live her life bothering her self with what’s going on in the world. She didn’t seem to be interested in history or current events. She just did her job, met a lot of interesting people, and well, she met ME and I screwed up her entire view of the world! :bored:

Anyways, I love watching this video and listening to the song because it will always remind me of how people were in Palestine before 1948. The end of the video always makes me cry.

They said what?, Video, Whatever!

The long awaited Arabic Social Networking site has been finally released. (http://www.arabyblogs.com) The owner of the site (which happens to be ME!) has decided to have one place where ALL Arab blogs are welcome. No discrimination what so ever.

I say, finally, there is an Arabic blog network that is NOT biased!

So join and submit your blog if your blog is not there already. I am still working on it and there is a lot of work. There are 100′s of Arab blogs, and it is taking me time to add all of them. Your help would be appreciated if you sign up and just tell me your feed URL.

Advertising, They said what?

This has been going around the internet lately. I picked it up from stumbling, and numerous sites have it. They are simple thoughts of “what I learned” in my life.

So I picked a few that I thought reflect me more, and what I have learned in my life. Some I relate to. Some I didn’t realize till it was too late. Some, well, just something to think about all the time.

1. I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone that can be loved. The rest is up to them.
2. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.
3. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
4. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
5. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.
6. I’ve learned that you can do some thing in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
7. I’ve learned that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
8. I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
9. I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
10. I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.
11. I’ve learned that no matter good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

12. I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

What have you learned?

Random Thoughts, They said what?

I think we have two fears in life: fear of death, and fear of dreams. I don’t mean hopes and aspirations, on the contrary, I meant real dreams. That other realm and other life we inevitably live in every day. We do live in our dreams and have a separate life. We spend one third of our life sleeping and dreaming. That’s just the way us humans were created.

Dreams come true. Without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them.
- John Updike

But why dreams? I mean we already suffer in this life while we are awake, why have dreams then? What do they mean?

I dream really bazaar dreams. Things that I would never in my life imagine, and I tend to be a creative imaginative person in real life. I think my dreams are at another level of unbelievability. However, my dreams lately have had a common theme. I am always a watcher. I always stand there and see other’s actions and not do anything about it. No matter how wrong the other person is, I just sit there and watch.

What does it mean? Am I becoming that person in real life? I think I am. I just watch, and that’s it. I see people doing things wrong or acting in a foolish manner and I just sit quietly and watch. Is it that I don’t care, or I am helpless?

I don’t know, I just can’t imagine my self being that way, or maybe I am and I am just in denial. Maybe I don’t care about anyone at all anymore and my dreams are a reflection of that.

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?