After a long withdrawal from my blog, I feel that I cannot stay away. I needed time off though. I have been writing for God knows how long, and I was thoughtless. I was really at a point in my life where I could not put all the thoughts I wanted to say in public. I wasn’t afraid though or anything. I was just dead.

You may be thinking, oh here we go again, but seriously, yes, here we go again. And this time, I won’t shut up.

Lots of crap happened and is happening in the Arab world. I can’t even believe it, but I think it was about time. I just think there is a smarter non-violent way of articulating one’s thoughts. However, how could you tell that to people that don’t know how to use their intelligence for something useful. What has the Arab world done in the past 100 years?

The world is progressing, and they are quickly going backwards. Yes, freedom! Democracy! How are they planning to get it? Kill as many people and blame the government! Use the most powerful tool known to humans, the media, and abuse it! Such a furtive maneuver! Who is going to stop them?

Yeah, there are elections coming up in the Western World. Go figure.

However, what amazes me is my parents. They are glued to the television watching news and saying, “Oh no! Syria.. poor Syrians! Blah blah!” You guys know me, I can’t stand hypocrisy, even from my own parents. I tell them, why are you bothering? No offence to any Syrians out there! But seriously, 64 years and no one gave a shit about us Palestinians. Now the media is covering Syria and Palestinians can’t even get recognized as an independent sovereign state.

My parents think I am crazy, but you know what? I don’t even talk to Arabs here, do I care about them 1000′s of miles away?

My God! I pay a lot of taxes in this good old Canada. At least it is damn cold, I get free health care, and they accepted me as a citizen. I can’t say that about any Arab country.

God help them.

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My bed is right next to the wall. So I really took a hit this morning.

Welcome. If you remember me, then I salute you. If not, you are not missing much.

I have returned. Don’t ask me why now, but it should have been on the 23rd when I realized my life sucked and I am stuck at work wondering why am I in a job that I hate, a life that is quickly passing by, and I am just mentally exhausted.

I started another blog that some of you know about because you wanted to know and stay in touch, but I call it the nice blog. I am nice over there. I am hiding who I am and constructed a barrier called “nice.” I hate it! I can’t even express my self and tell you how much I am annoyed from life and everyone. Hence, you will not see any way to get in contact with me via a social network. I hate social networks. I have aged and I am very old school. I prefer good old fashioned emails that I choose to reply to some or not.

Aren’t I a rebellious bitch?

Yes, I said something mean! I said the B word and my gosh that felt good! I am no longer nice! I am back to my evil bold rebellious self!

So, why do you, and you, and even you still email me?

I still get emails from guys wanting to hook up.

I still get emails from naive Arab girls asking “why me.. help me!!”

I still get emails from old visitors wondering if I got married.

Let me answer the latter questions directly. You all know I don’t have time to play around. The answers are, no, no, and no!

First of all, I don’t know you. You don’t even know how I look like. For all you know, I could be the evil witch from the north! Secondly, why do you ask me for advice? I need advice. I am 31 and I am still wondering wtf! Thirdly, who the hell wants to marry me? I wouldn’t even want me. I am crazy and I don’t like people much.. well, unless you are really good looking, but still. NO! I am a messed up Arab Capricorn. Hail to the goat, but not hail to some guy sitting in that chair for 30+ years in North African countries, and messed up kingdoms!

I was contemplating writing a book the past few months. I wanted to give it the most mundane title in the world, but then I thought, why can’t I keep blogging about it. No commercials. No distractions. Nothing but good old fashioned writing!

Also, I don’t understand. I am still getting over a 100 views a day and people asking me where I am, when I will come back, and they want my opinion on something. Why me?

I just can’t believe what I will be doing again. I have returned to write a bunch of crap on the Internet and call it my way of self expression! I will pretty up the blog maybe, later.

For that lame introduction and few months of not writing, I will leave you with a joyful song that will most likely shake your ass on that 50 dollar desk chair of yours!

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I still feel there is a mass denial of girls in information technology. I was even asked once in an interview why a girl (me) is in IT. Now that I think of it, why the IT society cannot accept it right away? I am really trying hard here to understand. I have been trying to understand for a long time this unfair assessment of us women in this field. We get paid less. We don’t get the proper attention and acknowledgement out of our work. I am just really sick of it. No wonder less and less women are going into this technical field. I should have stuck to Biology and I could have had my PhD by now and been a lab bum.

I don’t know what to do. I really wish I can start something that will turn out really big and not even have to worry about looking for a better job or working for anyone. However, my current employment is sucking the life out of me and I don’t have the time to be creative.

Arghh..

I am going relax and do nothing. Brain shut down for today.

Salute!

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I am a bit poky or just living in denial, but I don’t know why people disagree with me. Really? Why do you? What’s wrong with what I write or say? Everything I write on this blog and a majority of time in real life when I am conversing with someone, people just plain out right disagree with me. Why you disagree with all my thoughts?

Are my thoughts that bazaar? What’s up with my skewed thought process? I still think I am as normal as can be. I convince my self that I am a bit rebellious now and then, but no one believes I am close to it. I talk a lot of gibberish about my culture, work, people, life, and people totally disagree with everything I say. Come on people! I am not that crazy with strange thoughts.

I am just eccentric, and I am kind of boring sometimes. Not many people like me because of that. Oh well! At least YOU, yes YOU, please agree that I am a bit crazy now and then, and I can write 2 or 3 paragraphs about nothing. That would make my day!

Salute!

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I know I may come across as an egotistical biatch with a head full of narcissism, but I don’t like pushy men! I really don’t like guys throwing them selves over me. I think because I get so worked up that I end up going with it before realizing that what the hell! WOOOO HOLD UP! I was in la la land for a second!! I like men who are as bad and egotistical as me. We are a match made in heaven that way!

I used to be nice, care free, very open minded, love to talk to guys.. but now, I am totally the opposite and I am far too old to give a crap anymore. I am a bitter old woman! I am not even flattered by compliments. I think I lost that glowy happy feeling in my heart. I blame my culture. I also blame my self for being so gullible in the past.

I am happy the way I have turned out. Why can’t men be like me? Life is more interesting that way. I get to complain. I have fun in life. I like being envied too.. jealousy is a killer, but oh well, we all going to die some day.

I know!!! Most of you really hate me now.. but I never excepted love back. I like to earn it the hard way.

Did I mention that I have a horrible temper?

Yikes!

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