A friend of mine keeps saying that this one guy is bipolar.. To me that just means very bad mood swings. So I looked it up and it was somewhat correct. It is almost a manic depressive disorder or a form of it. I wonder sometimes how much do people suffer from this disorder without realizing it. I know a few people who do!

Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric condition defined as recurrent episodes of significant disturbance in mood. These disturbances can occur on a spectrum that ranges from debilitating depression to unbridled mania. Individuals suffering from bipolar disorder typically experience fluid states of mania, hypomania or what is referred to as a mixed state in conjunction with depressive episodes. These clinical states typically alternate with a normal range of mood. The disorder has been subdivided into Bipolar I, Bipolar II and cyclothymia, with both Bipolar I and Bipolar II potentially presenting with rapid cycling.

Check the symptoms.. you might be suffering from it without realizing! :S

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Today we decided to go on a day trip to the Pinery Provincial Park. It is located near a beach area off Lake Huron. The beach is a lot warmer and the waves are incredible. It was fun to splish splash in them for the afternoon. It is an hour away from my city. However, since it was the first time we ever went there it took us an hour and a half cause we got lost in all these little towns in between. It’s unbelievable the amount of farm lands and towns in Ontario. The scenery was just amazing. It was a good change for once.

We usually go to Lake Erie which is only 30 minutes from my house. However, the beach has far too many people and it is always dirty. The water is also cold. For some odd reason Lake Erie’s water is a lot colder than Lake Huron. If you have no idea where those lakes are, then check a basic map! They are two of the great lakes of Canada/US.

So the waves are incredible, nature with all of it’s annoying insects is still beautiful to look at. By the way I would never go camping cause of the insects. I am such a city girl! I don’t like insects!

My sister and I’s feet.

The incredible waves of Lake Huron. I got splashed a lot. The water did not like me!

My shadow in the water.

Me jumping in the air. Funny picture. Cracks me up every time I see it.

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Ok.. I am gonna be super busy like a bee till Saturday afternoon. Until then I will not be answering anyone or anything. I will be invisible rebellious chica..

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Ok.. I know I am finally thinking ahead to some anonymous future, but I need to get the plan together. I need to get my self rolling and get my self prepared to get a new job in a much higher position where I can have a little bit more control. Well.. all the control.

You see; I came up with a plan. This is a warning for anyone reading this. I may be your boss one day. And if I find out you read my blog and you ended up my employee you will pay greatly for wasting your time reading and not doing your work! :rofl:

Ok I am not making any sense!

Sooooo.. ok well let me think about the rules first. I am obviously going to end up working in the IT field forever, which I don’t mind. I love computers, programming and technology and I will never sway from that direction.

So if you are my employee this is what I expect from you:

1. You come to work (85% of the year ~44 weeks a year), you do your work. If you can’t finish your assigned tasks and not meet deadlines that I will give you a warning!
2. I don’t like excuses! So spare me the excuses. Unless you have some medical emergency or some fatality in your family, than that is your only excuse for not getting your work done on time.
3. If I hire you full time than I give you 6 months to prove your self. Once the 6 months are over, I will tell you how bad you did and put you on the edge of your seat and decide to either fire you or keep you.
4. Never argue with me. I am always right and that’s why I hold a higher seat.
5. If I need you to work like a slave than I expect you to do so. You will be greatly awarded cause I have high respect for people who are commited to their work and don’t like slacking.
6. I don’t believe in 9-5 day time hours. You work when you have to. It maybe 12 hour days or 4 hour days. I don’t care. As long as you get the work done efficiently!
7. Test your damn work. Honestly, if you don’t test your work and you make me look like shit to people who are using the product than you get a warning.
8. Be nice to your co-workers. If I hear any complaints or others view you as intollerable to work with, than I will give you half a warning. I will blame it first on psyhological problems. If the problems persists to the worse than I will isolate you and give you a warning!
9. If I hear any sarcastic remarks, or any remarks of hating your work or not liking your position or think the company sucks and you spend half your day looking for another job, than I will give you 2 weeks to leave. Well I won’t be that harsh. I will first ask you what is wrong and what I can do to improve your liking. If you tell me you are having problems with people and the environment than I will look into it and see what the main problem is. But if you don’t like your work and you just do a half ass job than please, I rather have you quit now peacefully or I will just fire you. I don’t have time to waste. There are 100’s of people out there who wish they were in your seat.
10. If you think you were hired because you are a genius, than you are wrong. I am the genius because I picked you! I hired you because I think you can do some kick ass work, but I will never question your intelligence. However, if you are smart and above average, I will recommend you to a higher position.
11. Act like a suck up once in a while and give me some fudge and you will be in my good books with my eyes wide open towards you. You might actually get a raise. :food1:
12. I am good at “playing along” and agreeing to see what your real motives are. I don’t judge a book by its cover but I maybe critical of your words and actions and I will keep it in mind. I do analyze a lot and I do keep track of things in my head. I do actually remember things, if I don’t have a headache obviously and I am fully awake. So be warned, I do watch carefully and analyze you carefully.
13. Well, if you get 3 warnings (everything is obviously documented), than I will give you 2 weeks to leave without vacation pay. I really don’t like to waste time. I have no sympathy towards anyone who does not do their work when they have to.
14. Lastly, I am really picky about this. I know life has its problems and situations come up. If it jeapordizes your work and you end up doing a half ass job, than either take a vacation or just leave. I really have to emphasize this one which a lot of people over look. When you come to work, I expect some work. I know I am guilty my self of being a slacker and my mind wandering off, but in the end, you temporarly sold your soul (well some permenantly) to your work. People are depending on you. So think about that first. You do spend ~70% of your week at work. That is a lot and that means a lot is riding on you doing the work. It is also your means of survival. So technically, morally, ethically, in order to survive in this world, (ie. to earn money), you have to actually do the work. You have to be commited or else there is no point. I am great at making you feel guilty. So just DON’T do it!

That’s all I can think of for now. I can come up with a lot more things. But in reality I am flexible until certain points. I am a workoholic. I just can’t change who I am, and I like to just work and work. And my problem is that I expect everyone who works around me to be like that too. I think it is my psychological problem, but I can’t help it. That’s me. So be warned now! I am mean! :lol:

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Well here I am again. Suffering from insomnia.. this time it is getting worse. I take my medication to sleep and I wake up 2 hours later. No reason. No noise to wake me up or dreams. Just wake up like it was a full 8 hour sleep. I am diagnosed with transient insomnia. Insomnia lasting from one night to a few weeks is referred to as transient. Most people occasionally suffer from transient insomnia due to such causes as jet lag or short-term anxiety. So I take my medication for one or two nights.. then somehow I become immune to it and it doesn’t work anymore. It’s like that with any medicine I take. I think my white blood cells just work extra hard for any foreign object. Even Ibuprofen type of medication for headache and migraines stop working.

This is really bad for me. I cannot keep going on like this. I come to work feeling lazy and unmotivated from the lack of sleep. Aah when will it stop. I don’t remember I had a good night sleep in a long time.. the medication however is great because I don’t have weird dreams. But when it stops working and I spend half the night awake I get very odd dreams especially when I fall asleep again at 5 am! So I had a dream this morning that was really weird. I was dressed as a bride and had my hair done and everything ready for my wedding and then I just left. I didn’t want to be there. I just walked away and took off the dress and just started walking in the streets seeing people. No reason. Then I went to this bakery and got some weird dessert. (Even in my dreams I think of candy! ) .. anyways.. so that was it. :lol: .. isn’t that the weirdest thing ever.

I looked it up and it says:

Weddings

To dream of a wedding is a sign of a death and a funeral. There are various other meanings, but this one has always been the cardinal rule for weddings as they symbolize new beginnings, but only at the cost of the death of the former ‘life’. This death could mean various types of endings, not necessarily that of the body.

Bride

Frequently a literal representation of anticipated matrimony. If the bride has no face, this indicates the identity of one’s future mate is uncertain or unknown. If a fiancée fails to appear at the alter, this may be a common “wedding anxiety�? dream, or it may signal doubts about the success of the marriage. Brides in dreams can also represent marriages of businesses, new job opportunities, or a new career direction.

Anyways I need better sleeping aids. NyQuil will do it! That stuff is dangerous! Also I feel like I have a cold all the time. Maybe I am just sick with lots of virus and germs in my body that the army of white blood cells are working on.. :lol:

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