I was stuck in a big hole today!

I spent 4 hours trying to figure out one single problem!

My hair turned white from the anger within me and mom asked me when I got home, “How the hell did it turn white in 2 days?”

I kept trying 2132131 different ways!

In the end, the clock read 4:30 pm, and I said, “UFF!!!!!!! SCREW IT!” I got up and went home!

Watch me tomorrow morning figuring out how to set the dynamically made on the fly stupid foreign key value in the database with one easy step that I was too blind to see!

Now you know my daily work dilemmas! How much time can Mona waste trying to solve one problem?

I need to start drinking 4 or 5 cups of coffee while at work. I only had one today, and look what happened!

UGGHHHH!!!

Coffee! Coffee!! Coffee!!!

Can someone buy me these for my birthday in 2 months? You guys can start the Rebellious Arab Girl Coffee Obsession Fund!

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Link to purchase

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I always get people asking me if I am “Muslim” or a “practicing Muslim.” I reply saying, “What the hell is the difference?” It’s like asking me if I smoke or practice smoking. It’s a stupid question!

I don’t understand where this ideology came from. I think I heard it also for Christians. A Christian or practicing Christian. I mean come on! Don’t associate your self with a religion if you don’t follow it! Don’t start categorizing things and making a difference of practicing or non-practicing. The non-practicing one means you don’t follow it, period! And you should not even associate your self with any religion if that is the case! I just eliminated over half the people that say they are part of a religion right there!

So, those people that don’t practice the religion are really not part of that religion.

Stop using that idea people! It’s dumb, and defeats the whole purpose of being part of any religion!

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I have been receiving such abrasive emails and comments lately. However, I was not sure what I can categorize them as. I don’t even want to reply to any because I feel they are a waste of human time to even bother with.

So, if I didn’t reply to your emails, I either skimmed through them and I forgot, or didn’t want to bother continuing an argument with someone I will 100% never talk to or see in my life.

I keep wondering why people think the way they think. Is it a cultural thing, or a religious thing? Both are confusing me, because I am not sure why people cannot make up their minds in trying to justify a point by choosing one or the other. Most of them resort to an answer that satisfies themselves anyways. So, why can’t they stop trying to justify things based on culture or religion, if they are really only satisfying their own beliefs?

The Never Ending Melodramatic Tunes

People ask me the same things over and over:

• Why do I say the things I say, am I Muslim? Muslims don’t say such things.
• Why do I have such conservative Islamic thoughts if I don’t wear the head veil? You are only Muslim and have such thoughts if you wear one.
• Why do I attack culture and I should be proud of it instead? You can only be Arab and use that name if you are proud of it.
• If I am Palestinian, then why don’t I dedicate my blog to talking about Palestine and the genocides instead of about me? This site is too popular and always first on Google and have to be dedicated to Palestine, and not me.
• Why do I have non-Arabs commenting on my site and me siding with them? Arabs only talk, listen, and agree to other Arab’s thoughts.
• People blame me for hate towards something that I don’t hate at all, and start mocking me physically, mentally, my entire family, and think they know me more than I know my self. Too much time on their hands, and they do it because they cannot stand people doing it to them. So they take the first approach at it, and find it amusing and fun. I wonder what will happen if they realize that I am evil with words and I have no mercy towards stupidity?

Moreover, due to my utter confusion with such mentality, and my automated alerts when I get new emails from this site to my phone, I end up asking people on mobile Twitter instead. I cannot or even have time to go on my blog or do anything during work hours.

This is what I asked today on Twitter:

I got people replying to me with various view points. Some said that it is worse to be a religious fanatic, and others said that both types of ideologies are the same. Anyways, it ended up being more of a rhetorical question than a pure questionable thought that is necessary for every day survival.

Mystical Thoughts

I will tell you the awful truth though that I have been hiding with secret words on my site, and just clarify some misconceptions to those pea-brained idiots with serious language and mental disorders. So, if you are confused or have too much free time on your hand to argue with me, then I got some answers alright! I have been actually hiding them in each blog post for almost the past four years.

Here goes nothing.

I say the things I say because I don’t give two shits. I am me. You are you. Get over it! If we were all meant to think the same way and have the same beliefs, then we would still be living in caves wondering who will go hunt our winter supply of food this year before we hibernate for over three months!

Oh, you see, people like me are the ones that go beyond what is written, beyond what is known by others, and use that brain that God gave us. For those that believe in God, or only some higher being that cannot be explained, or nothing at all, I DON’T CARE! That’s your problem, NOT MINE! Don’t force an idea on me! I can chose for my self! Do I force anything on you? Would you like me to? I can be very convincing you know, and I would probably be sought after by the Pope, some Imam, or some Rabbi, and questioned for knowing the hidden secrets of this life!

You see, human intelligence was given to us for a reason. If accepting things the way they are satisfies you, then so be it. It does NOT satisfy me at all. I like to think. I like to question things. I know my limits and when not to cross the red line. I say what I have to say because I know someone else is asking it, and they don’t have to feel secluded in their own thoughts anymore. They search Google or Bing or whatever, and come to my blog and feel a little itsy bitsy feeling of comfort. It’s funny when you meet others that share the same view point as you. You feel a little bit of hope and satisfaction. Right?

So, I question things because I can! Can you? Do you dare?

Anyways, to each his own!

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I am in no mood to write a well thought of blog post. I am no mood to rant about some people’s messed up mentality. I am in no mood to condemn the actions of Arab males that come to my site and write hate comments to provoke me. I am only in the mood to blame the most annoying, most obnoxious, most spoiled human on earth. That awful teenage little girl who brought the germs with her from school on Friday, and permeated the little microscopic critters all over the house!

I told her, “Damn you!! If you make me sick, I will HIT YOU! I will beat you up! STAY AWAY FROM ME!”

But no.. oh no no no.. she decided to cough on me because her utter joy in life is to see me in pain! She gave me the worst bunch of mischievous germs, and now I got STREP THROAT!

I am writing this post after I took my revenge from that sister of mine! I smacked her! I beat her up because I kept reiterating all weekend, “You make me sick, I will HIT YOU!” That little teenage nuisance loves to see me in pain! I cannot stop coughing! I took her anti-biotic prescription medicine, and I condemed her to an ever lasting cold! Damn that teenage girl.

It is enough that people think I am her! I am sick of it! Why do people think I am a teenage girl? I will not answering the door again to Arab women thinking I am that little girl that goes to their daughter’s highschool! ARGH!!

I blame it all on that brat.

Damn you cough! Damn you to hell!

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I got this email right now, and I am not going to bother to email this guy. I decided I rather take the time and post it on my blog instead so everyone can read it, and see my ever so delightful truthful reply. I don’t know if it is a hate mail or what. Maybe it is one of those ignorance emails. I haven’t gotten those in a while!

Your Name: omar
Email: omar9731@hotmail.com
Website: http://
Message:
hi Mona, i hated what you wrote but I guess that’s what you do when you want people in the west to like you, you kiss ass and try to show how nice a person you are and then you even go to another extrem where you agree with their hatred towards us Arabs and even to the point where you want them to like you so much that you stand with them and attack your own people in such a racists clocked way And by this time you even forgot why you did it and you hate what you did and said but still why did you do it.? What do you think that they are better than us. You are my pride and tonight you killed my heart.

After I read this horribly written email, what I have concluded from this is the following: I am a moody backstabber with multiple personalities. Not only that, I killed someone’s heart while doing it. I apologize Omar for killing your heart. I don’t need to apologize for anything else you said, because you don’t even know what you are talking about. I could care less who likes me or who agrees with me. I am ME! I don’t represent anyone but ME! I am NOT REPRESENTING ANY ARAB SPEAKING PERSON OTHER THEN MY SELF!

Also, thinking about it now, I do want to clarify for everyone one more thing to confirm my backstabbing ways. You see, I am Palestinian. The rest of the Arab world does not give two shits about me or my people, and don’t even want us there. My ethnicity is that of Palestinian origin who speak the Arabic language. So, if you find us exiled in some Western country and were raised here instead, then don’t blame us for our way of thinking. Blame the rest of the ever-oh-so-caring-Arab-World. At least this Western world accepted us, why didn’t YOU!?

Updated: This was another email from him. So eloquently put.

Your Name: omar
Email: omar9731@hotmail.com
Website: http://
Message: so rebellious dick head!

Also, I tracked his IP Address, and it says he is in Australia. Is Australia considered a first world Western country? And he came to my site searching for: “Arab Girls in London.” I guess he was like everyone else, couldn’t find what he wanted.

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