So I just got out of work to go to campus to pick up something from the bookstore. As I was walking and waiting to cross the street, again for the millionth time in my life crossing that same exact red light I see an accident. Not any accident, an accident caused by a student! Not the drivers this time being idiots, but students!

I was waiting for the pedestrian light to turn green so I can cross. Out of no where I hear a car hitting really hard and the light was green for them to keep on going. Why did the van abruptly stop and a car hit it from the back on a green light? I didn’t notice what happened until the van and the car behind it moved out of the way from the cars to the side.

A student still ran to the other side and it was GREEN for the cars to go. Why was this idiot running to cross the road when cars are MOVING? As he was running another car beeped so loud at him. He still ran to the other side and kept on walking really fast.

The guy from the van got out of the car and RAN RAN RAN so fast to the other side and yelled at the student and made him cross back. Then I realized aaaah.. It was the student’s fault. He was trying to run away. I mean what idiot would cross the road when it is red for pedestrian and green for cars. I mean for crying out loud, there are CARS moving at 50km/h.

This is what I really hate about the University area. STUDENTS are dumb as hell and can’t tell there are moving vehicles coming. Maybe the student was just suicidal. Poor kid, school has only been in session for one week and he is already attempting suicide. Tsk tsk tsk.

Angry

I do have a few phobias. However, the worst one is my utter fear of clowns. I have a fear of clowns since I was little. I hated that big stupid red nose and stupid pointy side hairs. I don’t mind Krusty the clown from the Simpsons, but it is a cartoon. So who cares. I just can’t stand toy clowns or real clowns. Especially that stupid Ronald McDonald; he scares the living crap out of me.

I will explain how I developed this fear. Since I was little I was spoiled silly with various types of dolls and plush toys. So I was well rounded. As a new school year started, my mother would put away all our toys in boxes or in the closet.

I remember my closet as it is right in front of me now. It had two sides that open up. Dark cherry brown colored. When you open one side, at the top there is a pole where you hang the clothes, and at the bottom little drawers. The other side when you opened it had a bit of large space in the middle and just drawers. In that large space is where my mom used to put all the toys.

I never had a problem with clowns. However, when I was little I used to love watching horror movies. My brother is almost 5 years older than me, and he loved it too. I watched it out of curiosity. How many children have seen Child’s Play and Nightmare on Elm Street before going to bed? (Raising my hand!)

So one night, my brother kept telling me, “that clown toy in your closet that mom put will come out and kill you.” (Boys!) I was scared. So every night I would open my closet before I slept to make sure the clown was still there and not alive. Just a dead lifeless toy. (I was 6 at the time).

Night after night, it became a routine check up. As a child I didn’t know any better, and I believed scary movies, and my annoying older brother too!

So one night, out of fear and the routine check up, I had a nightmare that woke me in the middle of the night breathing heavily. I dreamt that the clown only got out of the closet past mid night and that’s when it carried the knife!

From that day, from my childish fears, I kept hating clowns. I never ever bought one or ever thought they were humorous in any way. Clowns are ugly, stupid, and people who dress like one are just plain stupid! Clowns scare kids and not make them laugh. Making stupid balloon animals and having that stupid painted smiley face drawn on the clown face is not funny!

Damn I hate clowns.. and now they make stupid movies with killer clowns in it for the adults to enjoy. Whatever! Clowns should be banned! It was funny back in the old age when they were called jokers. They made the King laugh because he didn’t want to endure dealing with wars and diplomacy anymore. So he hired a clown (joker) to take out his misery. Damn kings.. couldn’t they just smoke up something and drink them selves silly than to hire a stupid idiot to dance around and sing like a jack ass.

I hate clowns!

Angry, Sleepy Post, Whatever!

I am accused of being bitter and angry. I am ridiculed for stating my opinion and being my self. Just another typical day on my blog. I get too many of those rubbish visitors that only come to find anything wrong and start criticizing me. When I don’t agree with them, they begin by looking at my previous posts and judging me. Although they were on my side and trying to act all smart and educated about a topic.

They pretend they know me and have known me for years. They analyze my entire life from one and two posts and make a very stern and one sided judgment of my personality.

They can do that because they are not smart enough to make their own blogs and write their opinions about life and the world, or they find my blog too radical and too unbelievable. How can an Arabic girl be so bitter and angry?

Me bitter and angry?

Maybe.. whatever you guys think. In reality I am probably the nicest person you could ever meet. That’s my problem. I am too nice and people take that as a weakness. I just act too nice and people want to take advantage of it. Once I tell them that’s it. I had enough. Leave me alone, they act like any other dumb ass out there. They start taking every single little negative thing possible that I have ever said or written and make the biggest deal out of it. It’s like having a bunch of stupid little pretend lawyers who think they are so smart and they can win their case.

On the contrary, I can talk back and I don’t have time to deal with stupid teenage actions. Grow up people. Seriously. Grow up and if you are too chicken shit to make your own blogs for privacy reason, then go fuck your self. I don’t give a shit about you or anyone. Visitors here are welcome. Post whatever you like, but when you cross the line, obviously I will not be quiet. I will remove you and redicule you. Exactly like you spent time writing useless nonsense without thinking and expecting me to cry and be sad that people out there think little of me. Too bad, I don’t give a shit about what people think. I think highly of my self because I am smart and educated and I can make a very successful blog because I AM HONEST AND I AM NOT AFRAID TO TELL THE TRUTH! So get over it and if anyone else has a problem with me, then don’t expect I will reply to you. I never in my life went to any person’s blog and written any negative comment. If I don’t like something, then I just ignore it. That’s it. However, some stupid people with no life and jobs and nothing to do but sit on the net and find people to ridicule do that cause they don’t have a stable normal life to be proud of.

In conclusion, anyone else thinks they can be a smart ass then go ahead. You won’t receive a reply you were hoping for.

From now on… anyone wants to say or comment anything negative, I will tell them to fuck off. I don’t have time for their shit. They don’t like my blog or opinions, then they can go read some other shit out there that they find more entertaining.

Updated:
My sister always tells says, “Cry me a river, build a bridge and get over it!”
So I thought it was appropriate here:

Angry, Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!

So this is the real reason why I am pissed off today. I mean it was like a cherry on top of a horrible day. My mother saw me chatting on msn with my friend. She is my only friend and only person I can trust and talk to. My mom then asks with such bewilderment and says, “don’t you have any other friends?”

I bursted out and I seriously flipped and I screamed so loud. I couldn’t believe she asked that. Was it a diss that I only have one friend? Is it because she lives in another city? I mean common.. how many friends out there would drive to your city, about 200 km back and forth during the day to just hang out and have lunch with you? I believe that is a good friend and a person who actually likes me as a friend.

Here is what I really wanted to say to my mom instead of screaming hysterically.

Dear mom,

I am sorry that I am not a social person who only knows various gossiping women. I am sorry I am not like their daughters, all engaged or married and moved on with their lives. I am sorry I am still at home and bugging you with my presence. I am sorry that I can’t make friends with random people just to be a social guru like you. I am sorry I am not an ideal perfectly fit and gorgeous daughter that you wish I am so I can be the envy amongst your friends. I am just sorry that I am your daughter and you are ashamed of me.

Your eldest 26 year old daughter.

-Mona

Angry, They said what?

I was thinking about this for the past 4 weeks.. How people at work don’t do work. All they do is watch stupid downloaded shows and movies. It’s pathetic. I don’t care if they watch it and still do their work. Programmers are known to be lazy bums who need entertainment to keep their sanity.. but they do nothing! So today I got fed up. When they constantly laugh and comment about the stupid shows they are watching, even though I have loud music and headphones on, I can hear them and see them! It’s not like they are on the keyboard typing or holding the mouse and looking like they are working. No. They were just sitting there laying back on their chairs enjoying the show.

Obviously I was fed up.

I messaged the boss man and told him. I was fed up. I rather go home early cause I work from 8 – 4. My lunch brakes I cut them down to 30 min so I can finish the stupid game I am making quicker and start full testing and debugging by the end of August.

So I told. I was a snitch. I was furious. I was honest and straight up. I told him. Few seconds later I guess the clowns at work got the message and one guy bursted out of his seat and said to the other guy, “we are busted.” It’s like going to work watching a pathetic comedy show. I wanted to laugh and I wanted to see what they will do next. I really don’t know what they did or what they were told to do. I could care less. I just straight up and I told my boss, “I don’t care about them and I never will, but I will not let them waste my time and make my work look bad.” I had enough of them and their whining and complaining about their life and money. They get a salary just like me. Fuck. Can’t they just fucken work?? Don’t they feel morally guilty for getting paid to sit and watch movies and tv shows on their computers?

I was more than a bitch than ever. It’s not like I didn’t have proof or anything of what they are doing. It was something I was noticing over the past few weeks. I am a system admin on the server and I saw the logs and activities. One guy last logged in 2 weeks ago and created a folder with a bogus name and in it I saw 6 or 7 episodes of some stupid TV show. Great waste of space.

Not only that, when the boss came back from vacation, all they did was show off and act like they did so much work and talked and talked. It was like watching a guilty child tell his parents a story so he/she won’t get in trouble. It was seriously pathetic to hear.

Seriously.. sometimes I wish I was a naive worker who was deaf and half blind and just didn’t see or know anything about what’s going on. Cause this situation really pisses me off. It makes me agitated and hateful of having such a job. Last week I was at the edge of quitting, then I thought maybe I should just take a vacation in first week of September when I have finished my work. I think I will do that because I am so sick of them. They act like 5 year olds who constantly need supervision and someone telling them what to do.

I swear I could care less and have no sympathy if they got fired. So many people out there are looking for a decent job to live, and I have to suffer watching clowns at work who have one. It’s pathetic!

Angry, They said what?