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Angry, Categorize this!

Everyone I know, females especially have this major obession with eating and not eating. Why? I eat a lot.. big deal.. I been eating a lot lately out of stress.. that I am loosing weight so fast cuz of all the anger twitches in my head. Plus when you eat “bedoon nefs” or without really wanting to but do it anyways then you loose weight. Also staying up and lack of sleep contributes to it too. This is from my experiences.

Also I would never become anorexic. Girls tend to love the idea because it is the only way to loose weight. Go ahead! Do it.. What will you gain? I mean loose! If you are anorexic or trying to be then here is a warning from me! DON’T COME near me! I can’t stand your breath and the way you are killing your self. Your breath seriously stinks. So don’t do it! And for those who don’t want to go to the gym I don’t blame ya! It’s too much of a commitment and new monthly payment! So just stress your self out. Don’t sleep too much and drink lots of fluids. You will loose weight in no time.

P.S. Eat lots of chocolate.. Especially fudge.. *Drooling*

Angry, Blah Blah

I have this feeling. It is so irritating. I feel that someone is constantly thinking of me and thinking badly of me. That everything that I do in my life is becoming worse. I have this major problem of being rejected and not applying my self to the fullest. I have fear now of confronting any problem. I use non-human ways of communicating. I have become this shadow in a virtual world.

I donno what to do. I really want to just stop everything and go back to my old self. When I was cold hearted and got things done. Now I feel weak and too sensitive and emotional. Is it that I am getting old? Is it that I have been devestated and rejected by the only person that I loved? I donno. I think I really want to free my mind from life. I just want to sit in an empty room with nothing around me but white walls and just stare at it. No distractions and see how long I will last.

I think I have severely damaged my life. I have ended up at a spot in my life that I should not be. If I roll back 5 years and have taken a different direction I would not be at this job. Not in a million years. I would have not been this weak. I would have never liked computers. I used to hate computers. I used to reject and redicule those who wasted their time on it that I ended up that. I think I got sucked in to the black whole of doom. Now I cannot get out. I cannot change unless I completely leave this city. This country. Change every detail of my life.

I want to go back to the old me. I don’t know how. I enjoyed it and I had something to live for. What am I living for now?

Angry, Random Thoughts

Have you ever been in a class room or actually every class has this idiot.. a guy or girl who just keeps asking the professor a question every single minute because they don’t have the ability to comprehend or let other think for more then a min. It’s sick. You can tell the professor is getting annoyed. I mean common.. For those annoying people who keep asking a question every min in class suck it up!!
Also annoying people on the bus.. Frig.. seriously.. I am tired of having to hear your stupid stories in a very high pitched voice! It’s rude. People want to go home in peace; not to have an echo in my head of stupid clothes conversations or boy/girl conversation / or gossip about some poor chick with bad hair day! Stop talking on the bus! I know it is public transit.. but people are tired and don’t want to hear high decibal conversations!! Also those on your cell phones.. common.. I know what the other person is talking about cuz your so loud! I know your entire life within 5 min. Sheesh!!

Angry, They said what?, Whatever!

So here is the story for this night.. I went on arablounge just browsing along.. a guy then popped up and started chatting with me and asked for my msn.. So I gave it to him and we started talking.. Here is roughly how the conversation went along..

First you know we were talking normal career wise etc. Then he asked if I was open minded.. I was like in what way.. he then asked me if I ever had a guy or whatever. I told him my story and he said straight up.. “did you sleep with him?”.. I was like wtf.. I can’t believe you ask me such stupid questions since I am an Arabic Muslim girl.. He was like.. that’s why he dumped you.. you didn’t sleep with him.. I was like huh.. what world do we live in.. then I changed the conversation and then he was like.. you got better pics.. A full body pic. I was like no.. Most of my pics are webcam.. He is like I want to see you on webcam.. I was like fine but I was really sick with an eye infection.. So my eyes were very droopy. He then saw me to make sure I am the same person in the pics.. you know typical male brain.. He then said.. stand up. I was like huh.. He said I want to see all of you to make sure you are not obese.. I was like excuse me.. lool.. then he got more mad and said.. STAND UP! I was like listen.. Cuz yo keep asking. I won’t. I don’t take orders from you. He then said “kiss my ass” and blocked me. This all happened in a 15 min conversation by the way. Anyways.. he was “Lebanese”.. so go figure. I am not trying to stereotype lebanese guys or anything.. but I have not met a decent one till now.. either perverted or complete ass holes.

So currently I am pissed.. and I blame it on some stupid Arab males who are perverted and dumb!

Angry, They said what?, Whatever!