Hi Everyone!!

I made a new year’s resolution. I want to be mean to some random stranger on the Internet. I am always the victim. I am always given horrible traits and people make judgments without knowing me. I want to do it too!!!

So, who wants to be a volunteer?

I guess no one wants to raise their hands. I don’t blame you guys. I cannot for the life of me go to any person’s websites and be mean to them. I can’t even say anything if I am not satisfied with their opinion. I just go on to the next site and not bother. It’s called turning the other cheek and ignoring.

I don’t know what to do this new year. I want to make a diary of tasks I want to do every month. I want to check them off to see if I can achieve any of them. I need to get my self a journal or task book or whatever and start my journey. I have to start doing something different and check it off my bucket list of things to do this year.

Didn’t the Mayans predict we will die this year!! It will be all over! Oh well. I might as well do something in the meantime!!

What should the Rebellious Girl do?

Blah Blah, They said what?, Whatever!

Well then, happy new years to you too! I know it’s already tomorrow in Australia, but here, we are still enjoying the last day of 2011.

I am enjoying it for many reasons, but the primary reason because it is almost over! Worst year ever! But I just brush it off and move on. I don’t even remember what happened this year to make it memorable. I think I am just going to lay low today and sleep through next year. I honestly don’t care about celebrating any new year. I never did and I hate staying up.

I am so negative! But think about, according to my Capricorn 2012 forecast, 2012 will suck! I am going to sleep right though it and lay low this upcoming year.

Happy new years to everyone!

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My God! I have been back for a total of how many days to this blog and I get this!!??

i was reading your blog about rebelious arab girl have no idea how i managed to come across such a shallow page, however i sympathise for you because surely your a very insecure individual with serious depression and negativity to come up with such a silly thing, i was born arabian (alhamdullah) my mother is iraqi and my father is lebanese/palestinian, the way i have been brought up has nothing to do with who i am, i grew up in the Uk and i get away with things no race on earth could possibly get away with because my parents are very undersanding and caring, thing is i dont choose to do any rebelious acts because i am a muslimah and nothing on this planet not even love can get between my religion, ive seen plenty of rebelious bitches that are pregnant from there silly acts and your telling me there happier than i am? naa i would rather stay a virgin and get married to one very sexy ARAB guy than lay around getting played about my europeans who are using me for one thing and one thing only. bottom line is your one unsatisfied ugly bitch that stares at her self day in and day out in the mirror trying to find an answer to why you dont fit into your roots, majorly because arabs are beautiful and perfect and you look nothing like them so obviously there going to pick on you

sorry for my honesty
Timaa stunninger arab

And I agree. I am a hideous ugly bitch who is rebellious and screws around all day with guys. I have been pregnant 10 times and every time I had an abortion and I am going to hell for killing 10 lives. Hence, that is exactly what Rebellious means.

God help you.

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I am surprised of the number of people that still remember me from this blog. Not only that, people still search on google looking for the rebellious arab girl.

I am deeply touched.

I feel now that I have never left. Maybe I was on a rebellious hiatus? Who knows.

So what have I been doing for the past 5 months. Really? Only 5 months. That is sad. I couldn’t make it half a year even without staying away.

You won’t believe that I actually feel alive. I really feel that I belong somewhere and people are actually hearing what I have to say. No one really did the past few months. I felt alone in the world that I created. I go to work, I do my homework for my business continuing studies class and sleep. That was my life. Also, because I stayed away from blogging I did really bad in that class. I got a B+! OMG! Don’t even get me started on how I got that. I was routing for my A, but you know, when you spend so long not being able to express your self, words in school or anywhere else that requires pointless reports become meaningless.

It was very difficult for me to write. I don’t know why. Why is it hard to write anything? A word that is attached to another. It is so simple, but so hard to do sometimes. Most of you have no idea what I mean when I write. Isn’t writing supposed to be filled with hidden messages that absolutely make no sense except to the writer? What if I told you that half the time I have no idea what I am saying either?

I have a lot of stories that pertained to work. Did I tell you guys that I was at the edge of quitting? I even said point blank, I will QUIT! Now I have my own office and I will no long go to other interviews. I hate going to interviews, and now I am interviewing people. I am a project manager/everything else that pertains to software. Too bad no one yet to hire, and a lot said that they will come for an interview but never show up. I hope their excuse is that they are dead!

Yesterday I was thinking that I can run this entire software part of the company by my self. And I could! I can sell, maintain customers, and make software. I am all in one, like those cool HP printers! Anyways, I should go back and pretend to work again.

So, what is your new year’s resolution?

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I still feel there is a mass denial of girls in information technology. I was even asked once in an interview why a girl (me) is in IT. Now that I think of it, why the IT society cannot accept it right away? I am really trying hard here to understand. I have been trying to understand for a long time this unfair assessment of us women in this field. We get paid less. We don’t get the proper attention and acknowledgement out of our work. I am just really sick of it. No wonder less and less women are going into this technical field. I should have stuck to Biology and I could have had my PhD by now and been a lab bum.

I don’t know what to do. I really wish I can start something that will turn out really big and not even have to worry about looking for a better job or working for anyone. However, my current employment is sucking the life out of me and I don’t have the time to be creative.

Arghh..

I am going relax and do nothing. Brain shut down for today.

Salute!

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