When I got home yesterday evening, my mother came up to me and asked, “Do you think I lost weight?” I looked at her and said, “I don’t think so. You look the same to me.”

Then she continued on, “I know! I eat the same thing, wear the same clothes, and I don’t do anything different. Or maybe because I don’t eat bread much?”

I said, “Ok?”

My dad said to my mom, “So, which of your friends told you that you lost weight?”

Mom said, “Well, this and that said so.”

I said, “Maybe because they keep gaining weight, they think everyone else has changed too compared to them!”

My mom said, “How so?”

I said, “Simple. When you are no longer a similar size to them, they think you lost weight. However, in reality, they are the ones that have been gaining weight, and you are the same as you have always been.”

Mom said, “Maybe you are right!”

I said, “Don’t you Arab women or older women have better things to talk about??”

Mom said, “What’s there to talk about?”

I said, “Better than gossiping about other people. I give you credit for that!”

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A lot of you who have been keeping up with my blog, especially the past couple of days, have noticed that my year started out with a bang! Who knew it would be that exciting? I wish every month was like this, but minus the pointless trash talk that leads to no where.

I wish I could really engage in a debate that was not initiated with personal attacks. I am tired of those. Honestly, I always wondered how famous bloggers, that have been doing this for years, manage to keep their calm and not act irrationally. It takes a lot of guts. In my case, it was really personal. It was not someone I did not know at all. It was someone (guy, non-Arab) that I knew for YEARS! Many many years. Sad that things had to end this way. Anyways, time to move on.

For those that think I was a bit heartless, then tell me what would you have done differently? Come on now. Don’t be shy. I think you would have done a lot worst, but meh. I am too old for that.

Anyways, enough chit chatting about the past. Let’s go on. So, let me talk about my work. After a very stressful day on Monday, and not so crazy on Tuesday morning, the end results on that afternoon were beautiful! Magnificent! Amazing! Stupendous! I don’t know how many more adjectives I can keep blabbering on, but hell yah! After 3 months and a week of creating something from scratch, the application was amazing! A certain group of professionals in USA loved it! I guess my company will be diving into the US market soon. Sweet!

What more can I ask for? It’s like being an inventor, designer, artist, and thinker all in one.

Did I ever mention that I love what I do as a web application developer? Amazing work I tell you. If you are an aspiring programmer, learn web development. That’s where the future is going, and the internet will consume the world!

Therefore, I slept early yesterday around 9:30 pm, and I woke up refreshed and feeling happy! Yaay! If anyone tries to ruin my mood again, I will use my secret weapon: the keyboard!

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Some people need to feed their ego and insult me or tell me off, like they did on this comment, because it gives them some sort of gratification and power. Honestly, I don’t care. Nothing bothers me anymore. To each their own.

I find it amusing that after a long shitty and very stressful day at work, I pick up the phone to check my email in the end of the day, and read such garbage. I honestly laughed. I was not offended at all, because I am 99% sure who wrote it. If that 1% chance is another person, then it would be some lonely person who loves to hate my blog, and me as a person.

Ignoring People

You see, I hate hurting people so much, but they love to hurt me. Even if there was some misunderstanding in the beginning, but their behaviour in the end, like they did in that comment, really crossed the red line.

I will tell you guys a story. You see, if this person I am thinking of, and maybe I am wrong, really wondered why I have been ignoring them, then they should have just clicked my name on GTalk or on MSN messenger and asked me what the problem is. I was not hiding. I was always there in their face every day! However, this person thinks that I have to always be the one initiating something. Why? I don’t know. What do you guys think?

Let’s be honest, I have not been emailing this person or talking to this person forever. I do apologize. I was depressed and I really didn’t want to talk to anyone that constantly gave me too much advice. Also, I felt that I lost trust in that person, so I ignored them. Why should I tell a person off if I don’t feel comfortable being friends with them anymore? End it peacefully. No hard feelings or burning any bridges.

I was a very depressed person, and I tend to ignore the entire world when I am in that state. So, being in that state for months the past year really didn’t make this person any special. I was ignoring everyone. I didn’t see anyone else caring? Honestly, people don’t care.

Moreover, this person wrote the comment in order for me to write this post. It was so obvious, but what am I to do? I have to feed people’s egos. I have to write grammatically horrible posts and trashy content to satisfy people. I don’t use some editing program that will fix my poor programmer’s English. Did I ever mention that I was an English major? I don’t remember, because I am not. Anyways, I make money off this site. I use it for good humanitarian causes and send money to people who have nothing. So, people hate my site, and that’s why they come here every day and subscribe to it. I didn’t force anyone to read this trash. Why did you?

Conclusion

This person, yes you, really should have not done this. I blocked you off everything now, even Facebook. I honestly did nothing to hurt you, but you really pushed it this time, and I thought you were bigger than that. I thought you were very smart and intelligent, and you would never stoop down to this level. I considered you as one of the smart people I met in my life.

Not one day I have gone around and said trash about you using your name. I never did anything to insult your pride. I didn’t do anything. I was just ignoring you. I don’t lower my self and talk trash about people that one day meant something to me, and helped me reach far in life. I am not like that. Surprisingly, you will never understand that, and that’s fine. I am not here to convince you or anyone else with my view points. This blog is just my diary. It is just thoughts in my head. It is trash and not worth reading to be honest. It’s just a visible online brain dump.

Does anyone gain or lose anything from reading it? Nop.

Are people obligated to believe it? Nop.

Why does it bother you then? I have no clue.

Honestly, I was so meaning to talk to you last night. I was waiting on GTalk because gosh, I felt like I had to talk to you. I wanted to start a new chapter and end anything crazy, because I wanted to change and be my self again. But you doing what you did today, was probably meant to be. You ended it with your own hands. No more turning back.

Resolutions

Did you fulfill yours? You did today. Was it in the top of your list? Instead of being discrete about it and considerate, you resorted to this maneuver? I was so disappointed. First the continuous checking my blog with anonymouse.org and hidemyass.com, and days where you used your real home address (which was the honest and best way. It was what a normal confident person would do.) But today, you confessed the Hard Truth! You must be proud and tapping your self on the back now.

Oh that hard truth! You just like hurting people because it makes you happy. I never thought one day you were like that. Shocker, people change! You are the type of person that I cannot communicate with anymore. I am sorry. Everything related to you is blocked. Just leave my site and don’t bother with the likes of me again. You have better things to worry about in life. Why me? I am not worth it. Believe me.

P.S. This was not a cat fight. That’s even more shocking.

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I paid lots of money for the first course for my professional certification. Now, I have to pay lots of money for two books. A course with two required books? Now you know that there is going to be serious no time for 12 weeks! Where is the justice!!? No wonder less and less people wanting higher education. They can’t afford it!

I am stuck! I need books! Argh!! I am settling for Amazon books, and try to get them at least 50% off but used. I am still a week early, but I need that long or even more for shipping!

The injustice! Words! Why do I need to pay that much for words!

Edumacation costs lots of money, but the results are pure amazing! Don’t you agree?

Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!

I kept seeing commercials on TV that eHarmony.ca is a great site, and they can try to match you with someone.. blah blah. So, I was so excited today. I was like yes, time for change! Maybe this site is better since it is more commonly used, advertised on TV, and so much buzz!

Therefore, I got so excited! I signed up, and did this long in depth survey with so many psychological questions that will help find me a match better. Not just where you are from and that’s it like the other sites. This could be great I thought. They spent so much time creating all this, and I will do my part and spend the 15-20 min filling it out!

The percentage completion line kept going up that I am progressing from question to question, page to page, and finally, I was done. I clicked the magic button. I was excited and waiting for the next screen with pictures of people or more options, but this is what I got:

Click on the image above to see it bigger and be able to read the text.

Am I unlucky or what? There is no hope.. *sigh*

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