Life is hectic! But I learned a few things this week.

1. If you are in charge, you don’t have to justify anything. You are in charge and you do what you want!

2. The world is slowly gearing to women in power. They have a lot of talent and bring personality to the team.

3. I like working with people. I really do because I think team work brings projects to life.

4. I am happy and I know it!

So how is everyone’s week? Mine was great. It was filled with happiness, drama, craziness, calmness, but in the end of the day, I feel ok. Odd I know, but I am trying to think the glass is half full!

Today I was told that no way I looked past 30. I said yeah! I should have been 50!

So that’s my story! Why don’t you tell me yours? What’s up with your lives my friend? Anything you care to share?

Happy, Random Thoughts, Whatever!

Hello everyone.. again!

How is everyone doing? I feel a bit mellow today. I just want to lay back and do nothing. I feel it has been a long hard week. That’s my life every week. Once I reach the end of it I am like dear God! Then it all starts over again on Monday. Oh well!

I was looking at my archives and my emails, and I can’t believe I started my first blog entry in 2005. I don’t even remember 2005. I don’t even remember what I did yesterday, which makes me glad that I do have a blog and I can document my life. Even though I do come across as a pessimist, but I just speak my mind. Every body when they really say what is on their mind then it comes across as not so nice.

I have learned a lot about criticism and rejection from this blog. It helps in life because it really teaches you how to deal with people of every walk of life. I remember when I had my first website back in early 2000 or 1999, and people out of no where did not like me. I didn’t understand why. What was I saying that people didn’t like? I had to learn the very hard way that the truth is not acceptable. Speaking your mind and being who you are is frowned upon. I think I stopped caring in 2006/2007 when I realized that people actually spent their valuable time making hate websites about me and stealing my pictures as well.

I guess you can be loved in different ways.

What is so appealing about my blog and way of writing? Is it just the hard truth? Is it the things that people frown upon and I discuss it? I don’t do anything wrong in life. I am very honest and I learned that honestly is the best solution to all my problems. I sleep well at night. I don’t think and re-think over and over. I don’t hide anything. I am an open book and I learned to live life day by day.

If I have been ignoring or not answering your email, then I do apologize. I am just at a loss of word sometimes. (Yeah! ME!) Also, I do not want to put any advertisements or promote any products. I get a lot of those emails, and I don’t want to clutter my website. I want to redesign it one day, if I have time, and try to be a rebellious Arab girl with a different theme and point of view. For now, let’s all stick to this and see how it goes. It is only the first week of January and things are crazy already. It’s a leap year. It’s 2012. I wonder what scary movie they have up the works on December 12, 2012.

My brain is unstable. I really need more coffee eh?

Time for me to find something to do. Peace!

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Hello people!

Wasn’t I complaining yesterday? Well God reads my blog and told companies to call me and meet with me ASAP today! So I did. I can’t believe that I just left work for an hour and met some owner of some start-up company. They look at my resume and listen to me talk and they are baffled. I hide behind a mask. Too bad the position doesn’t pay what I want and it is only 6 months. I was like dude, I got a full time position, crappy, but at least full time. The offer is not that appealing. And he kept saying, well I would hire you know because I like you. (He is WAY too good looking. Total eye candy. Too distracting in a very small company. I would never accept it. Maybe in a different universe.)

So that was my adventure for today. 9 years of experience and hell, I should move to another city and end my misery from this one. Companies here don’t want to pay but suck the blood out of you.

At least I am still desired for my brains.

Anyways, on a more serious note. I get a lot of people emailing or commenting that I am a pessimist, my blog sucks, etc, whatever. Why do you keep reading it if you don’t like it? Why comment on the negatives and never comment on anything else? You guys are giving me second doubts why I opened up this blog again, but you know, I don’t care. I am just mentioning it because I can. Most people hate me because it is my blog and I exercise dictatorship to its full power here. Most people think it’s quite offensive and so wrong, but I don’t care. I don’t go to anyone’s blog or say anything nasty at all to them. It’s not my style and very childish. Oh, I guess I have to end this post with telling all those haters to GROW UP!

Smile! I have to go to work tomorrow. I will learn to survive 6 – 7 day work week for no clear end goal whatsoever.

I will stop complaining now.

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I am trying to stay positive, but I cannot for the life of me find a way to distort my thoughts into something joyful and blissful.

Why don’t you try to work 6 or 7 days a week? And for what? The purpose? The rush? There is no rush and no purpose. There is a need to be fast, quick, and always first. But are you? Why develop and be first or try to be if no one really cares and you are just one fish in a pool of 100′s! Why develop a half ass product that is untested just so you can be first. Would anyone want it?

No.

So why be first? Why not be secretive and be better? Wouldn’t that make sense? Innovation is not the best anymore. It’s staying on top and finding a spot in the game.

Things hasn’t changed at work, but got worse. I gave them a chance and I wanted to see where they were heading, but all I can do is just say yes and look for another job. Hopefully God can hear my plea and I can just walk out and move on. I need to find something that will treat me as a person with the skills to do my best and not do a half ass job in order to reach an imaginary goal.

I don’t know what to do anymore. Didn’t I tell you guys this is going to start off as an awful year? I hope God keeps my sanity, because I lost my patience long ago and I am just contemplating if I should go into work anymore or pretend I am sick until I find something better. I hate this city, but what can I do? I am stuck here. I just need to wade it out. I just don’t know for how long I can take this. Don’t know at all.

Depressed, Random Thoughts

Hi Everyone!!

I made a new year’s resolution. I want to be mean to some random stranger on the Internet. I am always the victim. I am always given horrible traits and people make judgments without knowing me. I want to do it too!!!

So, who wants to be a volunteer?

I guess no one wants to raise their hands. I don’t blame you guys. I cannot for the life of me go to any person’s websites and be mean to them. I can’t even say anything if I am not satisfied with their opinion. I just go on to the next site and not bother. It’s called turning the other cheek and ignoring.

I don’t know what to do this new year. I want to make a diary of tasks I want to do every month. I want to check them off to see if I can achieve any of them. I need to get my self a journal or task book or whatever and start my journey. I have to start doing something different and check it off my bucket list of things to do this year.

Didn’t the Mayans predict we will die this year!! It will be all over! Oh well. I might as well do something in the meantime!!

What should the Rebellious Girl do?

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