Many of you lovely peepz have been viewing me as a little ungrateful she devil the past few days towards my mother. I have been getting a lot of complaints through Twitter, comments, and emails about the situation. Therefore, I got to explain why I do that, and what it really means.

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Caring too much

I know it may sound cliché, but I do care too much. When you care so much about a person, that whatever word they say gets to you, and you inevitably complain. You love that person so much, that whatever they say effects you all the way to the inner depths of your heart. That’s why, this has been a daily trend almost. I don’t hate my mother. God forbid! I rather die than do that. However, I agree with most of you. I must get away from her for a while. I have to miss her, so I can love her even more, especially in times like this where I am always around her.

Complaints

I do complain a lot. That’s what I do. Duh! I find it healthier and my level of sanity remains constant when I do. If I cannot do it on this blog, then where can I? I have been trying lately to complain to my mother, because I can no longer hold my anger anymore. So, that’s a major improvement in my life. I am more expressive to the people around me.

Who do I mention?

I am the type of person that hates fabrication and exaggeration, and I don’t like to talk about anyone, unless I really care about them. My blog is really open, and many people know about it. I don’t even want to know who reads it from the people I know or knew in person. Also, if you have been following my blog for a long time, you may have noticed that many people I used to talk about in the past I no longer do so. You can say that those people no longer mean a thing to me. I only cross that personal point when I do talk about them on my blog. That means I care, and they read my blog, if they still do, because they care about me too.

Should I stop it?

Nop. 

I am not going to try harder then this post to explain to people who I am, and why I say the things I do say. If they don’t like it, yroo7y yibalto el ba7r. (Translation? Who wants to do that?)

I got inspired by Yammen-Shmal’s latest blog post to write this, and also the many complaints! And people on my Facebook have noticed that I posted a lovely mother song this morning.

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I gave a heart breaking speech back in late 1982. I found old pictures from way back then. I know, funny how I find such poses of my self.

Old records from the media wrote that I commented on various issues such as the aftermath of the Lebanese-Israeli war, and the ongoing Lebanese Civil war. Why all the religious conflicts in the area? When will it ever end? Looking back now, as an 80’s child, I grew up hearing about middle east wars, and if there will ever be peace in the area. Haven’t we had enough? Over 25 years later, and the area is in more chaos than before and serious problems can ignite at anytime.

My little blog first female Arab leader elections is still on. (Post 1, Post 2) Maybe you and I can make a difference, and let our children and children’s children live in a more peaceful world in this lifetime of ours.

Some people wanted to discuss politics, and I seldom get involved in such long debates. However, this post is an opportunity to discuss historical facts, modern facts, and current affairs in the area. I know the Iran Elections have caused a stir in the world, but the result of that election will effect the Arab world as well. So why not! Go ahead. I feel like debating.

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But hey, we live in modern times, and we need to get the message out and appeal to more people. Words are the most powerful weapon. I hope more people in the world become aware of what was the result of the massacre earlier this year, and the cause of the problem.

Gaza rappers influenced by war

The people of Gaza have faced a war, and been besieged by a blockade imposed by Israel in retaliation for rocket fire. So in an effort to express their grief and resilience, a group of rappers from the Gaza Strip are getting the word out, the only way they know how.

Al Jazeera’s Casey Kauffman met the rappers in Gaza.

From AlJazeera English, June 22, 2009

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Why the hell did I write this post a couple of days ago, and I was all excited and happy? Why does everything seem so yesterday or not satisfactory enough for the MOTHER! My God! Another angry post peepz! I am warning you!

Time: 12:30 pm
Location: Kitchen
Witnesses: No persons but a loud echo for the world to hear
Short memory: Only my mother

I was asked a couple of days ago I think on Twitter from @lela2000 if I was going to Lebanon this summer. I told her I wasn’t. Today, out of curiosity, I told my mom, “I want to go to Lebanon. It has been over 18 years since I stepped foot there, and I think the family is a bit unhappy with that.”

Mom nagging, “You what? Aren’t you ever going to look for work? Why can’t you find work? How come all those Arab girls have full time jobs and get paid so much?”

In my head, I wanted to commit murder that involved me and a butcher’s knife. I couldn’t hold my anger anymore.

I shouted, “I have money. I have so much money! I don’t need to keep making thousands of dollars a month to look at it. I want to enjoy my life! I am tired! There is a whole entire world out there. And stop comparing me to the shit Arabs that you know. Yes, they are pure shit, and I am sick and tired of you comparing me to them! I hate them! I hate them! I hate them!”

Mom screamed back, “I am not comparing you to anyone! But seriously, why do they have jobs and living a better life?!”

Wow wow wow.. now she pushed it!

I screamed back even more, “My life is fine! I hate being compared to people here. That’s the main problem between you and me. You keep comparing me to other people! They are pretty, they are skinny, they are married, they have jobs, they have children, they buy homes, blah blah blah! If I had a chance, I would leave this stupid city! Arab women that you know are uneducated liars who only care about making them selves seem perfect infront of everyone else. Stop believing every word they say! What do you want from me? I am educated! I worked for so many years! I have money! What do you want? Why should I kill my self to get any shitty stupid job to make you look good infront of those ARABS!”

She didn’t have a reason for work except that all my money will soon be gone. Although I told her that if I wasn’t making any money online, but paying stupid monthly bills, I can live off my money for over 3 years!

Mom screamed back even more and more, “That means you hate me also because I am friends with these Arabs. Who do you think you are? You are an Arab!”

I said firmly, “I am not a backwards Arab!”

Mom left, then dad came to see why mom and I were arguing. “What’s wrong?” he said.

I told him exactly what happened, and how I make money online and I want to go see the family I have! What am I waiting for? To get a 9-5 job or die not seeing blood relatives? Why do I have to be stuck in this country? I am Canadian! I can go anywhere in this world! (Well, mostly everywhere.)

My dad said, “Go to Lebanon. Don’t worry about it. And don’t worry about all those Arabs here. When you were working for 6.5 years, how many of those Arabs were working? None of them. Or is it just a new trend this job thing during an economic crisis? How come ALL of them have jobs now or getting paid so much?”

Announcement: Middle East! The Rebellious Arab Girl is coming to you soon after almost 17 years apart! Meet me at Beirut Airport sometime after Ramadan 2009! That’s in the end of September or early October. I will also swing by Syria to visit the awesomeness of the old city, Damascus. Middle east… oh back home.. the blogging and photos from there will kick ass!

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Over a year ago, I started a poll about my visitors. I no longer have the exact statistics, but I always find it fascinating about readers of this blog, and it helps me in my daily writings. When I did the poll last year, the way higher percentage as I recall correctly was non-Arab readers.

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I have had many issues in the past regarding the Arab blogsphere. I am not welcomed in it, I am not allowed to join many Arab blog networks, and I am ridiculed with a passion from that selected niche. Since I am rebellious, a girl, and say a few things that they hate, the Arab visitor count to my blog is very low. However, there is an exception of those visitors that search for the forbidden Arab love and land here from Google. They just need their mother to work harder to find them a perfect pure teen Arab bride, and not waste their time finding a [fill in blank] Arab girl.

So, that was about a year ago. Now, I feel like I am regaining an Arab audience, I hope. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Another famous poll!

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You can tell I have been spending my day reminiscing old blog posts. I seldom re-read my old posts, but I did today!

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