I still feel there is a mass denial of girls in information technology. I was even asked once in an interview why a girl (me) is in IT. Now that I think of it, why the IT society cannot accept it right away? I am really trying hard here to understand. I have been trying to understand for a long time this unfair assessment of us women in this field. We get paid less. We don’t get the proper attention and acknowledgement out of our work. I am just really sick of it. No wonder less and less women are going into this technical field. I should have stuck to Biology and I could have had my PhD by now and been a lab bum.

I don’t know what to do. I really wish I can start something that will turn out really big and not even have to worry about looking for a better job or working for anyone. However, my current employment is sucking the life out of me and I don’t have the time to be creative.

Arghh..

I am going relax and do nothing. Brain shut down for today.

Salute!

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I am a bit poky or just living in denial, but I don’t know why people disagree with me. Really? Why do you? What’s wrong with what I write or say? Everything I write on this blog and a majority of time in real life when I am conversing with someone, people just plain out right disagree with me. Why you disagree with all my thoughts?

Are my thoughts that bazaar? What’s up with my skewed thought process? I still think I am as normal as can be. I convince my self that I am a bit rebellious now and then, but no one believes I am close to it. I talk a lot of gibberish about my culture, work, people, life, and people totally disagree with everything I say. Come on people! I am not that crazy with strange thoughts.

I am just eccentric, and I am kind of boring sometimes. Not many people like me because of that. Oh well! At least YOU, yes YOU, please agree that I am a bit crazy now and then, and I can write 2 or 3 paragraphs about nothing. That would make my day!

Salute!

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They scare the hell out of me!

Where do I even begin? Do I want to discuss it? Nah!

All I can say wohoo for being normal me. Man, craziness on a Monday! I love the start of the week! Did I mention I am still looking for a job? Yeah, but nothing interesting in the summer. No one wants to hire in the summer which makes it worse. I have to spend another 2 months hauling ass to work. Oh well, I try to make the best of it. Gosh! I have a lot of patience!

I am still happy and excited! I don’t know about what, but I think because I had my fair share of frozen treats today. Actually, there is an amazing popsickle I bought yesterday and it needs some lickalicous love too! I didn’t go to the gym today.. it’s so hot and far too much construction. I rather stay at home and stay indoors where it is cool and relaxing.

I miss sleep. I am thinking of watching a movie. Any suggestions?

I can’t wait for Harry Potter by the way! It will be AWESOME!

Have a good Monday everyone! Love ya!

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I don’t remember the last time I cried. I think I am so upbeat and full of energy that nothing is weighing me down anymore. I think I did take my life from a negative thought process to positive. I still have issues with finding a really nice guy who can break that shell I surrounded my self with and try to understand why I am like this, but everything else is all good!  I have received a lot of hate male from men yesterday and today because of my previous post, but you know what, men talk a lot of shit about girls too. I read THESE blogs, but I said nothing because who cares. It is all word vomit and random thoughts and moods that people go through day to day. This is life! Full of random thoughts!

Anyway, I am not sure exactly what happiness is defined as or being normal or any of that psychological mambo jumbo. However, I think I am happy and very content with my life so far. I was always very pessimistic and trying to find an answer, but then I realized why can’t I make my own answers? Why can’t I stop asking why and actually say why the hell not?

Life is great, only if you think it is. I think it is. I really do. Now it is time to figure out what to do with all this and reach for the stars.

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I know I may come across as an egotistical biatch with a head full of narcissism, but I don’t like pushy men! I really don’t like guys throwing them selves over me. I think because I get so worked up that I end up going with it before realizing that what the hell! WOOOO HOLD UP! I was in la la land for a second!! I like men who are as bad and egotistical as me. We are a match made in heaven that way!

I used to be nice, care free, very open minded, love to talk to guys.. but now, I am totally the opposite and I am far too old to give a crap anymore. I am a bitter old woman! I am not even flattered by compliments. I think I lost that glowy happy feeling in my heart. I blame my culture. I also blame my self for being so gullible in the past.

I am happy the way I have turned out. Why can’t men be like me? Life is more interesting that way. I get to complain. I have fun in life. I like being envied too.. jealousy is a killer, but oh well, we all going to die some day.

I know!!! Most of you really hate me now.. but I never excepted love back. I like to earn it the hard way.

Did I mention that I have a horrible temper?

Yikes!

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