Where do I begin? People are amused by my silence. I am not what I used to be. I am not sure why I changed, but it has to do with a lot of factors. The biggest one and obvious one is that I am not happy with my life. How can I change that? I am trying, but nothing is working.
I try to find someone, but I think I ask for too much. Like any other girl who wants a life to share with someone else! Nop. That is not working. I am not meticulous or anything, but I want normality and quietness. Is that too much to ask or unbelievable to the imagination?
I think not.
My life is sucked right out of me every week day, because of the unknown and constant thinking. I leave back to my home and I am dead tired, that sitting on the computer to do anything, even play games, is torturous. It’s like I despise computers, but in the back of my head I adore technology. I hate my self in being in such a predicament.
When will anything change?
I noticed one thing though, that companies will call you none stop to get your money. Why don’t they give me money? Oh, technology, a girl, educated, thinks for herself? No, not on their agenda.
I come to work and half my co-workers don’t even talk to me or say hello. They are beyond ridiculous and I don’t recommend them ever being part of the team. I am partly to blame because I am a total b$^^#% that doesn’t like anyone crossing her boundaries. I am not stupid or inexperienced. To others they hate me for putting my self on top. Where else can I situate my self? It’s unbearale being around two-faced people. Just pathetic.
If I had one dream what would I do? Be a super hero and help others. Then they can call me your highness because I earned that title! Or maybe just not have to work for anyone. I think that is more of a realistic dream.