I am trying to do something here, but I need a bit of Arab corporation.

I have been asked a lot in the past to make a site for Arabs to express themselves. I don’t know how or why I should do that. There is an Arab voice site and so many community argumentative sites out there. I don’t want that. So, I am gonna start something a tad bit more personal, but it is by invite only until I build a community of people and release it live.

It is not an extension of my blog or anything. It is totally separate, and I want to make it big and prove to the world we are something else.

Email me rebelliousarabgirl@gmail.com, message on Facebook or Twitter and I will explain a bit more.

This could be a start of something beautiful, or nasty. Like who cares! We just want to just come out and say some things you know.

Stay tuned..

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I need to learn to focus.

It is probably the hardest thing I have struggled with in my entire 30 years. I am easily distracted, and I am the one that causes these distractions. I feel life is too short to just do one thing at a time, so I go over board and end up doing too many things at once, then I exhaust my self and end up dead tired and unmotivated by 5pm. It is sad, but I need a new routine in life.

I solved one problem by acting like my true blunt self today, went up my boss and told her, “I NEED TO FOCUS! STOP GIVING ME TOO MANY SIDE PROJECTS AND EXPECT ME TO GET ANOTHER HUGE PROJECT DONE! I WANT FOCUS FOR JUST ONE DAY!”

That went well! Yikes! No wonder managers are afraid of me!

So, I know many of you have emailed and messaged me on Facebook saying to stop talking about work if I don’t like it and just look for another job. Yeah, jobs are all lined up for me waiting with just a snap of my finger for me to say, “Yeah Baby! Booya!” Reality bites, and I live in a city where technology is just a secondary source to do business.

On a more positive note, yaaay! I am positive and focused. Beat that suckers!

Oh, side note! For those marketers that keep emailing me asking me to put up poker ads or sex toys advertisements on my site, really need to get a reality check! Arabs don’t gamble publicly and have a great poker face when they go home at night, and they don’t need sex toys, they always have a whip or belt ready at their disposal!

Also, what’s up with the Saudi lady posting her driving skills on YouTube? You break a messed up law, you will get arrested. She was being way too rebellious and kind of stupid. Women throughout the world have fought for their rights, and maybe KSA is the last country to consider women as anything but mere objects, but posting on YouTube is not “the modern way” of expressing your self in such a strict convoluted man ruled society. There are other ways you know. Like don’t get married. Period. Or abstain from sex! Lower the birth rate! And since women live longer than man, then the problem will be solved in 50 – 60 years!

Oh, umm.. there are other problems in the world about the Palestinians and Israels and all these peace talks, but I donno. I refrain from politics on my blog. Maybe some day in my life time I will visit my real home, the holy land. Until then, people need to find a way to get along and stop using hatred and negativity as the main driving force for peaceful talks.

By the way, I only know about world news from people I follow on Twitter. It is easier to read blurbs from others than reading or watching politically biased news reports.

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Lots of hugs and kisses on this Tuesday evening! Mwaaah!!

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I hope I mentioned this in earlier posts, but remember my bro was here last week? So was my aunt and cousin. However, I always wondered why my mom thinks the way she does. She has such an Arab mentality that drives me insane. She won’t change or ever get accustomed to a different thought process. We have been living in North America since 1992 and some mentality and thought process is still glued to a different world! Akh!! Even THAT world is changing or trying to change and the older Arabs HAVE NOT! This causes a serious conflict!

So, I was hanging out with my aunt for a couple weeks, she came from Lebanon, so I learned a lot!

They are all the same. I am serious. Nothing has changed where ever you live. My mom the same as her. I feel like I still live in a bubble with that mentality around me. All they talked about is married and unmarried girls. Virgin and non-virgin girls. What is right and what is wrong. Blah blah blah! It drove me insane. What world do we still live in?

Thank God no one picked on me, cause they know better. I don’t like Arab mentality. I like Arab morals and ethics, and that’s it. Anything else that is so tabooed in the culture drives me insane. I have seen Arab TV shows, music videos, etc. They are FILLED with sex and exposing women to the extreme. No wonder Arabs are so agitated and do everything wrong in secret.

You can say that I am not  really a supporter for what Arabs do that is wrong. I have done many wrong things in my life too, but I will never write about it on my blog. However, I have no reason to judge their life choices. I mean common! It’s human nature. Don’t Arabs have human emotions too? Learn that people! We have EMOTIONS too! However, from the number of divorced and unhappy cousins that I have, you either marry them off to any guy that will import them to a different country or let them soak in their rooms till some older desperate guy is willing to marry them.

I am neither, do don’t worry. I am stubborn as goat!

I think it is our problem, and not theirs. I feel that the generation gap between our parents and us is far greater than what I thought. Usually generation gaps are not so bad, but for Arabs, generation gaps mean night and day. I think it is what we are exposed to in this day and age is far greater than any other traditional conservative generation has ever had to endure. To me I don’t care if I kiss a guy or not. At the same time, I do care and say what the frigg when I see two Arabs making out in public in a very explicit way. So it is more of a middle ground and how I interpret things.

I lived here long enough that I don’t get shocked that easily. Everything is just there and I say whatever. I just want to find a happy medium. I have not found it yet, and I never will. I will just live with it. Complain about it. And I hope someday my grammar improves so I can whine some more about it when some company is willing to accept a rebellious Arab girl as their next short story author. It will never happen, but only pray for me! I want to quit my day job and be an Arab culture critic. Oh the possibilities!

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Hear ye! Hear ye!! Survey Survey!

Real Name: Mona.
Any nicknames? Mun Mun.
Date of birth? 12/23/80
Age? 30

Height? 5’7″ or 170cm.
Shoe-size? 9 – 10 (depends on the shoe style).
Eye color/any contacts or glasses? Brown eyes, and contact lenses.
Hair color/natural or dyed? Brown.
Describe yourself with 4 words: loner, quiet, confident, tenacious of events from the journey of my life.
How do people often describe you? Nice, energetic, helpful.
Best qualities? Punctual, good listener, patient.
Any worst qualities? Arrogant, melancholy, over analytic.
Hobbies? Reading, writing.

Do you like your family? As I grow older, yes.
Any siblings? One brother, one sister. I am the middle child.
Any divorces with parents? No.
Strict family, or just carefree? I am Arab. Fill in the correct blank! But since I live in Canada, they are meh.. normal I guess.
Family member you seem closet to? None.. as long as they don’t bother me, I love them even more!

Do you like taking the lead in a relationship? Yes. I like to dominate… but if the guy is tougher than me, then oh boy! I can’t wait to find such a guy.
Be the first to kiss someone? No.
Ask them out/tell them you like them first? Hmm.. depends.
Do you usually ‘break the ice’ during awkward silences? No.. I probably caused the awkward silence! lol

What kind of physical features do you find appealing in men: Height, physical features, facial expressions, and goatee!
Long/short hair? Short.
Freckles? I don’t care.
Dimples? Cute if he has some.
A good smile or a good laugh? Both.
Tanned or fair skin? Hmm.. doesn’t matter.
Athletic or lanky? Athletic.
Classy or casual clothes? Both.
How important are looks to you? I would be lying if I said otherwise. But my arrogant side tells me that I am not ugly, so why should I end up with one who is?

What kind of personality[ies] do you find appealing: Strong, confident, thinker, helpful, caring about everyone and humanity in general.
Naughty or nice? Both!
Mysterious or just fun to be with? Mysterious because I want to actually have many conversations to figure out the mystery.
Brains or brawl type of guy? Both!
How would you feel about a guy crying in front of you? Hmm.. depends on the situation.. but it does feel awkward sometimes.
Sensitive or tough guy? Both.
Innocent, deep, or macho? Deep.
How important are personalities to you? Who are you if you don’t have one? I like unique strong personalities. If I didn’t have a personality, I wouldn’t Rebellious Arab Girl!

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You know, as a computer programmer I was ridiculed a lot as being an abnormal girl. Why am in this profession? I have been called a million and one geek related names. But honestly, being a programmer is a very depressing job and it turned me into this over analytic person that thinks of a million and one solutions to one problem.

Is it a solution or just a million and one different ways that are relatively the same but coming from different angles to approach one problem? Yes, that makes no sense, but nothing in my head makes sense right now.

This is how I perceive life. There are a million and one way to do anything. I cannot for the life of me find the simplest solution to any thought. I just can’t. I think that is why I am always gloomy and depressed, and then suddenly bam! I am happy without a reason.

To continue from yesterday’s post, I am not happy, because I always think what if. What if? What if what? What if this worked? What if this failed? Why this? What that? Why me?

Oh I am such a depressing blog read. Go surf another blog that talks about politics or celebrities. Because I am not popular and I get no one ever emails me, and I am just an Arab and politics is not a problem in my culture.

You can feel the sarcasm eh? Har har.

I am going far away to TV land to watch American Idol and enjoy my evening in one and only one way with eyes glued to the TV screen, and ears open enjoying the melodies.

I will have a little answer question blog post tomorrow. So if you have a dying question to ask me, then message me on Facebook, Twitter, or Email me direct through my blog’s contact page.

With love, from a rebellious exhausted Arab girl.

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